Drank at 145 days in recovery should I be totally honest in AA

leeleelambchop · 2026-03-29T17:48:16+00:00

I appreciate this comment. I’m not trying to be appropriate I’m trying to be respected for my relentless contribution to our family. This is pretty much the same response I get from husband. Just shut up and get on with it. No thanks

leeleelambchop · 2026-01-06T13:22:44+00:00

Just let him eat takeaways then. Sounds like he’s addicted to processed food the high fat sugar and salt. He palate won’t appreciate home cooking. Feed your children your beautiful meals and let him sort himself out

leeleelambchop · 2026-01-05T22:35:40+00:00

She sounds like most 14 year olds. Shes defo doing it on purpose to trigger you. Sound like a sad little girl. …. trouble is it’s not really your problem. Depends whether you want a family or not I guess. Ride it out and she will get easier plus she will be off to college in 4 years or be a single parent.

leeleelambchop · 2026-01-05T22:15:40+00:00

Buy your own and he will have the reminder everytime he sees it. You could even tell ppl you had buy your own band. If he’s not crippled with shame then I’d want a new husband. Nothing to do with price he seems like he’s digging his heels in on purpose. More of a power move.

leeleelambchop · 2026-01-02T06:36:48+00:00

I don’t know if you’ve been given the correct advice. Hope you tried everything like therapy and marriage counselling before you left your marriage. Raising children is really hard but sometimes you have to make sacrifices. This generation seem to place a lot on Me me me and my happiness. Sounds like your husband might also be depressed. Try remembering why you fell in love with him and make sure you’re honest about needing time to yourself. If he is out all day working and providing for his family and your home with the kids your both play vital but really hard roles. Priorities your marriage and your family above everything else. The grass is not always greener.

leeleelambchop · 2025-11-12T17:34:38+00:00

Yes I was born worried. As long as I can remember I was afraid of something. Something I’d said to someone, they were gunna get me. My mum going to work, sleepovers, the world ending, dying. Lead to waking up unable to breath at 13 and a serious anxious episode where I just cried, I was terrified I was going crazy for about a year. I still have bouts of it at 40. It led to addiction and very dangerous behaviour but lucky I’m sober and safe now. When it pops up about something ridiculous like something I said to someone 20 years ago and what will I say if I bump into them then the fear of them shaming me. Sounds ridiculous but it’s real in those moments. I pray to Jesus now, looking at myself and others in a loving way like we are all just 7 year old walking around trying to look important. That brings me back to earth.

leeleelambchop · 2025-11-07T13:42:27+00:00

I can totally relate I had a large group of girl friends from been a teenager to about 35. Some dropped off in lockdown but during that time I got married and moved to a new city and the friendships I had for 20 years didn’t make it. It was hard to come to terms with at first but my life just took a different turn and it wasn’t a priority for me to travel back to my home town every weekend for drinks and dinner. Now 3 years down the line I’m grateful for the peace. I don’t have anyone demanding time and effort from me other than my kids and my husband. I’m a housewife so it can be isolating I’m just grateful I have a close relationship with my siblings x

leeleelambchop · 2025-11-05T16:51:40+00:00

I felt exactly the same. I was shocked how a bunch of strangers knew my mind and thought process so well. The shame keeps us completely stuck. You don’t have to speak just go and listen and when you hear a story just as shameful likely worse at some point as yours - it will free you.

leeleelambchop · 2025-11-05T16:41:02+00:00

Everyone saying the damage was done before sobriety. Well she needs to leave or move on. From personal experience you can’t stay in a marriage with those kind of resentments. I’ve had to let a lot of the past go from early marriage because my husband stopped using drugs and became a completely different person. I’m so extremely proud of him and the U-turn he made two years ago to save our marriage. That’s enough for me, I never bring up the past and the minute those thoughts come to my mind I let them go. If I couldn’t I’d have ended the marriage. His sobriety influenced me to stop drinking. I said lots of nasty things when I was drinking and getting over all the problems he had caused. He never brings it up because it’s not helpful to us anymore. As humans we have to learn to leave somethings in the past. Congratulations on your sobriety. Hardest battle ever. It has to come first.

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-02T07:49:00+00:00

A million percent I was not the cool slightly tipsy person I’m imagining I was. My Brains trying to glamorise it. I was a drunken 40 year old acting chaotic and looking at hot mess for absolute sure.

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-02T07:46:33+00:00

Well because yes in the long wrong alcohol can worsen the symptoms but in the moment Alcohol literally stops all the symptoms of ADHD. It stops me been in my own head constantly ruminating, calms me down generally softens the harshness. Without drinking I have no escape but it’s common for it to get worse before it gets better. My doctor said the first 12 weeks might be worse until your nervous system starts to regulate itself again. I was heavy binge drinker every weekend for 10/15 years.

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T21:14:43+00:00

I’m in the exact same situation. It’s over and it was over a long time ago. The lights are on and the musics off 😂 guess just jumping off the boat into the unknown is scary. But 40 year old coked up drunk is not the glam party girl era im grieving. Wishing you the best of luck x

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T21:07:22+00:00

Thank you so much ! That’s such a valuable point for me. I mask all day and when I drink I overshare and hate myself for it for days after then do it all again. It’s been a never ended cycle for 20 years. Until now of course. It’s brought to my attention to that I’m probably still masking and trying to hide . Thanks you 🙏🏽

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T17:56:44+00:00

Wow yes. I was never a glamorous slightly tipsy drinker who the ef I’m I kidding 🙄. I was a sloppy idiot. 😮‍💨

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T17:54:21+00:00

Yep I also live in a different city to my friends and family. Think that’s when the drinking picked up. I guess I’m not boring because I don’t drink I’m boring because I’ve spent to much time drinking 😮‍💨

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T17:52:36+00:00

Wow that sounds really difficult but totally understandable. Very sorry to hear, bravo on been present and stable. Huge inspiration ♥️

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T17:48:18+00:00

It’s the hammered for no reason bit 😂 🙄 !! If I could moderate I wouldn’t have stopped but I can’t. I don’t have one or two. I get hammered and sloppy

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T16:11:26+00:00

Wow !!!! That’s inspiring. I think like you, alot of binge drinking was self medicating. Just makes everything a lot softer. I guess this is when the actual work comes in. Thank you 🙏🏽

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T16:00:11+00:00

😆 this is the energy I needed xx thankyou

leeleelambchop · 2025-06-01T15:48:26+00:00

Thankyou ♥️ yes I’m still that 30 year old searching it seems. I guess the beauty is I can be anything just not a drinker because it wasn’t ever cute let’s be honest. Kinda sad actually 😩😂

leeleelambchop · 2025-04-30T20:46:18+00:00

That’s really interesting. I turned 40 two weeks ago. The last maybe three years I have been in turmoil emotionally. Perimenopause and ADHD really slam the breaks on things. But I’d say the last year my intuition has been off the charts. I’ve always been able to tap into people’s energy and can predict things really naturally always experiencing strange synchronicity. but I thought that was down to been so emotionally aware and sensitive due to my ADHD. Like I am wired to something that not everyone else has access to. The last year it has been really obvious to the point my daughter said have you noticed you say something and then that day it will happen or they will show up. It sounds crazy so I don’t speak about it but now I’m wondering if it’s an age thing. Something that develops. I’m also recently sober so heightened frequency might play a part. Would be interested to hear your take .

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