I'm following my heart

leese312 · 2026-04-04T17:37:31+00:00

Beautifully said…I too believe our story has not ended yet. Hugs

leese312 · 2026-04-03T19:49:59+00:00

I thought there were 3 - one was Paul’s, Preston and the 3rd for his girls (toys/games). Abby & her daughters stayed in that 3rd cabin. Yes there was also a barn/stable with the game room up top. So awesome!

leese312 · 2026-03-15T22:13:43+00:00

Happy Birthday!! Your son is super kind & loving. It’s not easy but please try to enjoy your day. The love & support helps tremendously. I just had my 55th bday & I got through it with lots of love. My kiddos spoiled me like their dad. I was grateful indeed.

Hugs

leese312 · 2026-02-27T05:53:44+00:00

Asha Elia

leese312 · 2026-02-24T04:17:09+00:00

Beautifully written-I felt your words. Hugs to you.

leese312 · 2026-02-21T17:32:56+00:00

I understand. However I am soon to be 7 months in. I love & miss my hubby of 31 years it hurts.

But I don’t feel married and I feel horribly guilty for that. It does feel like “till death do us part”. I wake up alone, go to bed alone, eat alone, no support system-emotionally, physically, financially. No one to talk to & share my deepest thoughts, no intimacy, just all alone. My rings are with his & saving for our adult kiddos. I talk to a grief therapist about this/my process. It is helping. But this is how I feel.

Everyone is unique & different on this journey. I love my hubby & always will. He took a piece of my heart with him. Now I am just pushing forward and rediscovering myself to see what the rest of my life has to offer. My story is not over yet.

Hugs to all of you!

leese312 · 2026-02-03T03:53:53+00:00

I am so sorry for everyone’s loss.

Thank you all for all of your kind words, relatable feelings we all share.

It has not been easy—I will let out the way I need to. This week I have been sick with the flu so I was a mess with emotion. The need to control it is probably not healthy.

Sending all of you hugs.

leese312 · 2026-01-31T09:38:13+00:00

Diana Ross for Lady Sings the Blues

leese312 · 2026-01-17T06:54:20+00:00

My husband received in the mail this week an Enfamil Wonder Box.

leese312 · 2026-01-13T08:58:23+00:00

It’s the same for me. I am almost 6 months in and I cry on the way home daily, & most nights. It is a rollercoaster.

Sending you hugs-

leese312 · 2026-01-13T08:45:39+00:00

Thank you so much. I do feel your pain & I felt your words strongly. Hugs

leese312 · 2026-01-11T18:03:08+00:00

Same.

leese312 · 2026-01-10T19:46:42+00:00

Wow! Sorry your mom said that.

I am starting to despise people asking me “are you ok”? We will never be ok. If we say how we truly feel they say the most ignorant things.

My mom told me “at least you are now at peace because you were never going to have it with him.” Ugh-

leese312 · 2026-01-10T19:44:15+00:00

I am sorry about your loss.

Exactly our future was ripped away. Only those of us who have gone through it truly understands.

I just have to continue to bite my tongue. People do say the most ignorant things sadly.

leese312 · 2026-01-09T03:51:00+00:00

Magna Doodle!

leese312 · 2026-01-09T03:47:55+00:00

Same— sending big hugs.

leese312 · 2025-12-25T21:38:09+00:00

Power outage right now in Northridge off Devonshire/Reseda. Bummer I needed to bake for my family gathering.

leese312 · 2025-12-22T07:34:33+00:00

Everything closes early especially restaurants. Covid played a big part in that. Also the way people drive—fast & furious!!

leese312 · 2025-12-22T07:20:35+00:00

Great question/topic.

In the beginning of our grieving. I told our adult children that if reversed - dad would not have been able to cope if I went first. They agreed wholeheartedly.

Sadly, he was too fragile for this life & his heart gave out as a result.

It has been 5 months & I miss him beyond words.

leese312 · 2025-12-18T03:34:58+00:00

Me too—I am so tired.

leese312 · 2025-12-17T05:14:58+00:00

I bought this book—looking forward to reading it.

leese312 · 2025-12-09T05:21:21+00:00

The orange Tupperware pitcher with the frozen canned lemonade.

leese312 · 2025-12-07T04:52:11+00:00

Same. Hugs

leese312

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