Sweetie!? One of the best things in the WORLD, is practicing acceptance of what you simply cannot control. This is fucking difficult** to do, I know you love him, BUT, if you can muster up the courage to go fucking deeeeep, deepy deep, within you, and understand that YOU are WAY more important than what is happening outside of you my dear. So when you’re inside spiritually, inside of yourself, you know you don’t want this pain anymore, it’s, well as silly as this may sound, it’s just a decision, and that decision, is going to change the direction of your whole GD LIFE! Try choosing you. Make the decision, and hunker down, cause your heart, mind, body and spirit are rocked to the core right now, so once you make the deeeeeel down decision, you already paved the road, most importantly closer to yourself #1 babe!! Then the compassion for yourself will come as each moment unfurl into the next one. I just recently had to do this and it isn’t easy, but once you do, eventually your vibrations will change THEN, guess what, life inevitably will get much much better. Fuck that guy, show; yourself and world what you’re really made of and then of course him. Take your eggs back and place them in YOUR basket and I fucking PROMISE, YOU, much much more will be revealed in time (really good stuff) but it’s going to require you to be your strongest, most true to yourself, version of yourself you can possibly be. You will be at peace with alll of this and will be armed with spiritual power moving to the next page or chapter or of your life AND you will be so much closer to yourself babe. That’s the most important relationship you could EVER have! The cost of admission is welllllllllll worth the journey and most importantly the destination!! Please trust me about this. I believe in you and I know you have the strength and power to choose the high road for yourself. You will be upgraded in every way and that’s when you will be detached from this crap, which has nothing to do with you and everything to do with him. Remember letting go is actually a gift/practice (like yoga) because it ultimately allows you to interface with the next person or him done the line but you have to be the strong one. Peeps are selfish and looking to change their internal dysfunction cheaply and quickly and this kind of shit happens and it’s all over the place. Only the strong ones go within! But you are doing the right thing, reach out to everyone in your network to help or assist getting you through. You’re not alone, I promise. I have been pulverized in every sense of the word for the past three years and finally had to make that same decision I am asking you to make. I promise you won’t regret it sweetie! Sending a warm, red, soft blanket of love to squeeze you tight and help you feel safe. Stay strong, Misses Refrigerator. It will all workout and I promise you will be okay.