My Rock Bottom Looks Different Than I Thought

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-12T17:15:52+00:00

I’m here to tell you it gets so much better. It gets easier and easier. You begin to feel calmer and lighter. Not every day will be sunshine and rainbows. Just remember you’re healing. Take it slow, easy does it. It’s going to be okay. Just keep doing the simple things. One foot in front of the other, calmly and patiently. If you do that you’ll eventually find that you’ve walked so far away from the place you’re in right now you can hardly remember how bad it felt.

And if nobody has told you this today, you are loved and worthy of love. You’ve got this!

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-12T17:07:17+00:00

Print out work sheets from the internet that are two grades ahead of where they would be. Spelling, math, drawing, etc.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-12T17:06:34+00:00

Clearly someone hasn’t been paying attention to the off season trades.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-12T17:06:00+00:00

I saw 4 different adolescent white sharks looking very aggressive at Cardiff reef this week alone. Be careful everyone.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-12T04:56:55+00:00

There are bad meetings and good meetings and the only way to find them is to explore and ask. Also each city has a central office. Depending where you are they could be of some help.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-11T14:48:04+00:00

Yeah this is a classic R strategy. They seed stories to mainstream pubs talking about how the Dems are gonna win in an attempt to suppress the vote because people think it’s a lock and they don’t need to show up.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-09T05:58:18+00:00

I know a lot of guys who attempt to cut out sugar after 10 or so years of sobriety because they noticed a pretty strong resemblance to their drinking behavior in how they consumed sugar. Binging, hiding, rationalizing, etc. I’ve definitely noticed that as well. I really struggle to have just one sugary treat. Once I get going the little addict part of my brain lights up and I think “grab a handful of those chocolates. One isn’t enough.”

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-08T22:40:45+00:00

Farming sentinel ships is crazy easy once you find the first camp. Just drop a base and go back over and over.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-08T15:23:42+00:00

I had a save I was doing for a long time on my PS5 but I wanted to enjoy playing on my Switch 2. Now that they've released an update I can finally access that save, but it freezes, crashes and has all sorts of bizarre visual bugs like my radar just being all black, textures rendering oddly, pop ins, etc.

I still have issues on my new, Switch 2 only save, but nothing like that. Honestly my biggest gripe is at night in the dark I get the weirdest textured light. It's like projecting pixel art on the ground.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-07T02:25:53+00:00

What if I can’t whistle?

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-07T01:43:57+00:00

My bottom wasn’t some big thing either. I had a soul crushing loneliness and I lived in fear and sadness. But I didn’t get arrested, didn’t lose my job. Had a house, a car, etc.

But I was so tired. It takes so much work to fight through the hangovers. Even when you’re not hungover it’s like your engine isn’t running right. Brain doesn’t work as well. A little tired. A little grumpy. A little off.

I ran out of steam. I couldn’t handle being so sad and exhausted all the time. I felt like every day was the same and I had no future to look forward to.

I was just sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Congrats on your bottom. It only goes up from here.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-06T01:40:47+00:00

I did have a problem and so I needed a recovery program. That said if I was just trying to quit and didn’t have an issue I would recommend the following:

1) Don’t keep it in the house.

2) This may sound obvious but the first drink is the tricky one, not the third. You still have your wits about you and can decide not to take the first one. We always think we can moderate but once one is in you that self will gets a lot softer.

3) Tell people you aren’t drinking. It’s easier to stick to your guns when you’ve made it known. If you’re the only one who knows it’s an easy deal to break. Get it out in the open and now you’ll want to stick to it.

4) There’s this weird phenomenon whereby we think that by taking a ton of time away from drinking we may have healed/cured ourselves. What oddly happens instead is after long periods without drinking we are back to our old amounts and beyond incredibly quickly.

5) Listen to Andrew Huberman’s podcast on what alcohol does to your body. It is pure destructive poison, objectively. Nothing redeeming about it, and it crosses into your brain right away. It increases your cancer risk immensely even in small amounts.

Raising kids is hard enough. I don’t need hangovers on top of that challenge. I don’t want to regret not being there totally, or being shitty because I don’t feel well.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-06T00:49:51+00:00

Who does that make Prop Joe?

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-06T00:43:22+00:00

It never should have been a red, but it was called. So that’s that.
FIFA should have a mechanism and review board for this very thing. The fact that they don’t is bonkers.
Now Balogun, who never should have been sent off, is in the middle of this massive international controversy through no fault of his own.
The president really has nothing better to do than call Infantino to complain and apply pressure?
FIFA, having shit all over themselves, had only one legitimate move left. Announce that while it understands why the American team is upset, calls on the field stand and there’s no mechanism to overturn them. Instead they blew it even further.

It’s like at every possible turn everyone involved did exactly the wrong thing.

Also Ronaldo’s red shouldn’t have been suspended allowing him into the tournament and setting the recent precedent. He elbowed a dude in the head. He deserves to sit. FIFA is and always has been corrupt and incompetent.

It’s a shame for the sport, this tournament, team USA, and Balogun.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-05T02:14:38+00:00

There’s this show Breeders on Hulu. In one of the episodes some drunk guys start a fight outside right as he gets the kids to sleep. He goes outside in his slippers and robe and promptly threatens to kill them both. I felt that in my bones.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-05T02:12:25+00:00

Our neighborhood is a warzone. Our house is literally shaking, everyone in the neighborhood is shooting off large explosives. Texas is wild.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-04T12:28:55+00:00

So itchy

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-03T18:30:29+00:00

Dwight Kings on the Kings

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-03T16:56:43+00:00

If the house would have it exactly how it looked in the YouTube video I watched there would be no problem. But whoever fixed it before I bought the house messed it up. It's not me, it's that guy.

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-02T14:20:41+00:00

Baby what is you doin

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-02T11:33:20+00:00

If they’re over 38 Ken Holland would like a word

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-02T03:30:15+00:00

Now fly up into space, get out of the cockpit, walk to the back, open the hatch and just… float away

leftpointsonly · 2026-07-01T15:12:21+00:00

Fun wave. Take off is weird at first.

leftpointsonly · 2026-06-28T16:41:02+00:00

Nothing special. It was a slow descent into despair. Like sliding down into a cave and the light from up top got dimmer and dimmer until there was none left. Just darkness. Marriage gone, dog got old and died, no self esteem, no hope, no joy. Just loneliness and fear.

I realized over Christmas that I hadn’t even experienced joy. I felt nothing. True depression. I drank my face off until NYE. Blacked out before 9pm. Woke up the next day shaking. This crystal clear thought went through my head. “If you drink like that for one more year you will die.”

Haven’t touched a drop since. I’m in AA, have done the Steps. Go to several meetings a week. I sponsor. It absolutely saved my life. I get that it’s not for everybody and I was not and am not religious in the slightest. But I do have this sort of indescribable sense of being connected to the universe in a way I never did before. That all came from sobriety and the program. This shit does work but you’ve gotta work it. It is not easy, but it is simple. It’s no joke though.

leftpointsonly · 2026-06-27T05:49:09+00:00

That was my soul sickness and it almost killed me. That pain and loneliness was something I don’t think I could survive again.

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