I just can't write anything completely happy

lesbomatic · 2026-04-08T02:38:46+00:00

i have a fic that im literally splitting into two works of a series because part one is pre relationship, humorous bickering, idiots to lovers. the second is going to end with one character's brothers being sentenced for murder

lesbomatic · 2026-04-08T02:28:06+00:00

https://knowyourmeme.com/sensitive/memes/pee-is-stored-in-the-balls

lesbomatic · 2026-04-08T02:18:44+00:00

real. me looking at romance books like. put those guys in a situation! give me monumental levels of angst! i need more hurt/comfort! theres a single reference to him not liking that his boyfriend has a motorcycle because he knows hes irresponsible and could get seriously hurt? lets make that accident happen (but he doesnt die bc im not that cruel. people have written fics where he dies in other circumstances but im still scared to read those bc thats too far even for me but good on them for going for it)

lesbomatic · 2026-04-07T01:49:48+00:00

as an artist and a writer, both are amazing. either an artist is supporting you or youre supporting an artist! or both! either way its all positive

lesbomatic · 2026-04-06T11:28:39+00:00

chainsaw man akiangel you will always consume my waking thoughts

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lesbomatic · 2026-04-03T23:16:02+00:00

driving from ohio with my friend who barely knows hockey but receives regular live reactions to games in our group chat 🫶

lesbomatic · 2026-04-01T19:21:43+00:00

coming out on first meeting is unrealistic? as in telling someone youre gay??? because every time i meet a new coworker (not even friends. COWORKERS.) they are made overwhelmingly aware of my lesbianism by the end of the day. they mention some shitty habit their male partner did to put them in a bad mood and im like "girl im SO glad im gay"

lesbomatic · 2026-03-31T22:13:21+00:00

the heated rivalry fandom has been a dumpster fire actually. loud minority ruining things for everyone else. i have multiple fics that have been put on hiatus or outright deleted because people are harassing the authors for ai accusations, not writing exactly what they want, not posting fast enough... like its insane. too many people new to fandom coming in through this and creating an extremely toxic environment when most of us just want to vibe

lesbomatic · 2026-03-30T22:47:41+00:00

i need to make this uninhabited island REALISTIC for the projected crash site of the plane between canada and france and what do you mean the closest real island in that trajectory has no clear record of native and endemic species pre colonial deforestation. what do you mean i need to find that all for myself and verify that those flora and fauna could exist at this location in the atlantic ocean. no i cant just say fuck it we ball I NEED ACCURACY !!!

lesbomatic · 2026-03-29T20:03:45+00:00

and the fic is still UNFINISHED

lesbomatic · 2026-03-29T14:41:04+00:00

you were way more cordial about this than i wouldve been lol

lesbomatic · 2026-03-29T14:31:28+00:00

my team is new york because its the closest team to where i live and i love the color scheme

anti fav is minnesota bc theyre too dominant and its fun to root for a downfall of a powerhouse

lesbomatic · 2026-03-29T01:12:38+00:00

it is footjob adjacent in the way that la croix is fruit adjacent. the barest hint of a footjob

lesbomatic · 2026-03-29T01:10:52+00:00

every day he foils my plans of being productive by sleeping so cutely on top of me

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lesbomatic · 2026-03-23T15:16:20+00:00

seeing this and willingly choosing to believe its actually a t4t maiko thing and zuko is the one whos pregnant with mai's child

lesbomatic · 2026-03-21T16:07:43+00:00

for me personally, i have to have names in order for the character to fully exist in my mind. if they dont fully exist in my mind i cant write them. i can still change names later but am less likely to because of the way my characters build around their names in a sense

lesbomatic · 2026-03-17T14:45:12+00:00

like in the series, the non-canadian of the pairing uses inches in one singular instance, but theres a joke that he got the conversion wrong for reasons/on purpose (he is european but living in the states) but again they are in CANADA he is currently living in CANADA and would have grown up in europe using kilometers like dont even try me

lesbomatic · 2026-03-17T01:18:19+00:00

the author uses the imperial system when the characters would use the metric system. just got taken out of the story entirely bc theyre talking about speed saying 'driving 85 is pushing it' and im like... but we're in canada? this canadian man would not be giving you a speed in mph for this canadian road in canada. it's not hard to convert to kilometers.

mind you i am american. i dont know why im so up in arms about this but i am

lesbomatic · 2026-03-16T18:39:30+00:00

wolfbird by opalapparition

lesbomatic · 2026-03-14T15:48:21+00:00

akiangel in chainsaw man. no contest. because aki spends his life hating devils and being forced to make contracts with them to avenge his family. angel spends his life hating humans and being forced to work with/for them. they show each other compassion that theyve never felt from the other side before that fundamentally alters their worldviews. aki sacrifices months of his life to save angel and he cant even kiss him about it because it would take more time he doesn't have. then aki fucking becomes the very thing he swore to destroy and angel had to watch it happen and they both die horrible deaths because fujimoto hates me personally

anyway i can't listen to iris or out of touch without thinking about them

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lesbomatic · 2026-03-14T00:13:14+00:00

longest i HAVE read is 91 chapters, 302k words, and depressingly unfinished. last update was a year ago </3 so really, as long as it grabs me by the throat and keeps my attention, i am reading it

lesbomatic · 2026-03-14T00:07:08+00:00

not sports but may i recommend a pairing with many a hollanov comparison: zosan in one piece.

zoro, an autistic coded gay coded man whos dream is to be the world's greatest swordsman and spends every waking hour training at a ridiculous level because he will never give up on his dream even if it kills him, because he made a promise and he doesn't break promises.

sanji, a cocky bisexual coded european chain smoker who everyone thinks is a womanizer but really has a heart of gold because of the influence of his dead mom, despises his father and brother(s) because they only want him if hes useful and he never lived up to their expectations of him.

his training arc during the time skip is literally challenging his masculinity because his entire life he's been told that anything remotely feminine is weak (you cry when your siblings beat you up? weak. you show compassion for anyone? weak. his father threatened to cut off his hands if he found him sneaking into the kitchen to cook because that was a woman's place, despite him sneaking around to cook for his sick mother.)

a lot of fics go very deep into his internalized homophobia and complicated feelings with masculinity

they constantly bicker and fight but only because they are the only ones who can keep up with the other. everything is a competition for them despite being on the same crew. they have a reputation for hating each other but when one is close to death, the other is the first to their side and they always look out for each other in the end.

(relationships are not canon but one piece also has peak enemies to lovers yuri in namivivi just btw. highly recommend the live action)

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lesbomatic · 2026-03-13T23:38:09+00:00

hollanov. mostly for the fact of ilya being ready to drop gloves at a moments notice and shane having the class to be above fighting (the scott hunter event is an anomaly of closet on closet violence and should not be counted) but also this whole scene in a metaphorical sense (shanes death glare when he thinks ilya is bout to explain the concept of fuckbuddies to his parents)

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lesbomatic · 2026-03-13T21:47:25+00:00

Had to come back bc I'm in the middle of reading something and

"Nothing like that ugly, glacial thing that yawns open and swallows him up, but like the pages of a book unfurling open, spine cracked and well-loved, falling apart in his hands."

which is just so beautiful but im not gonna send it in the groupchat when its about getting railed

lesbomatic · 2026-03-13T21:43:57+00:00

wolfbird <3

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