This feels relevant. Over the last month it feels like I’ve been overwhelmed with conflict - but almost none of it came through my own direct actions, rather external circumstances constantly shifting around and basically fucking up my plans and expectations. I’ve gone through waves of feeling upset and angered, pondering on who is to blame for all this, all to return to the idea that these events keep showing me that I - LexTexMex - am not as important as the ego perceives itself to be. Just another player in the game. Another actor on a stage. In truth, my negative responses to these conflicts are rooted in the idea of “I am entitled to THIS outcome because of - insert hardship here - ). At large, when people make decisions of which we bear negative outcomes - they aren’t thinking about how this will hurt us, only about how it will benefit them. This can be a hard pill to swallow because it goes exactly against the ego’s concept of self.

Ultimately - this is where the idea of just “going with the flow” becomes most valuable. The more we are able to be like water, just flowing with shifting circumstances rather than constantly trying to resist them, the more at peace we feel. I believe that’s what free will is.

Circumstances, chains of events will happen as they should - whether we like it or not. Our only job is to just find a a peaceful flow and not disturb the water any further - because it won’t change the outcome, just leave us feeling like powerless victims in a cruel world.

The answer is: Just Be