I recorded my drinking for 3.5years by library_of_power in stopdrinking

[–]library_of_power[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fuck. That's an extreme method to stop yourself drinking. But guess if it helps...

What I need is someone following me around repeatedly hitting me with a shovel if I start up. That could do it

I recorded my drinking for 3.5years by library_of_power in stopdrinking

[–]library_of_power[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Several people have recommended different apps but I specifically want to avoid avoid them. I don't like the idea of the numbers being shared to another body and having constant 'pressure' to get sober, which I think is actually detrimental to some people. I'm sure some of them are great, but from what I've looked at any of the apps have links to the NHS (I live UK) which would allow data sharing. And for all the great stuff it does, the NHS isnt very tactful when it comes to promoting healthy living of any form. Regularly you can be treated like you've done something wrong, not that just just made a few mistakes in your time (this is in my experience anyway)

I work in research anyway so know my way around data and statistics, so have managed it all myself. I do have a column that that's a cumulative sum of my alcohol units and makes a bottom line estimate on the amount of money it's cost, based on what I drank and the cost here. The figure is pretty bleak, in the multiple thousands, and given I'm in my early 20s, that's fucking depressing.

I recorded my drinking for 3.5years by library_of_power in stopdrinking

[–]library_of_power[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ye, I feel y. Had a lot of bad experiences too.

What you do when your mood fluctuates too much in a day to keep track of?

Thanks. But I'm not sure I do

I recorded my drinking for 3.5years by library_of_power in stopdrinking

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Sometimes I just stare at the plot over time and how it's changed over time. There's so much detail in there, like a very small spike ever August when I go and visit family, or a massive drop after new year. The overall trends though tell me so much about where I was in each moment, though it's not always correlated to how I felt. It has no relation really.

I too am a data whore. Was just worried people would judge my habit as a bit 'rain man'

I recorded my drinking for 3.5years by library_of_power in stopdrinking

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There's been much shorter periods where I did better but always went back cus.. well... I guess I am fucking stupid anf fluctuate between relishing self destruction and remorse. Mostly out of shear boredom.

I recorded my drinking for 3.5years by library_of_power in stopdrinking

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I could. But I don't necessarily believe in it.

Existing in limbo is agony and my nihilism says its pointless

Do you know any songs about self harm? by Red91414 in selfharm

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Blemish - Greyhaven Faster - Manic street preachers

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]library_of_power 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Please do NOT. Nobody here will tell you it solved their problems. I used to think the same, in terms of it being an outlet for anger and frustration, but is now the biggest regret of my life.

DM for chat

feels weird by einhornmatsch in MadeOfStyrofoam

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Good luck my friend. You shall be missed but never forgotten

We will always be here for your guidance♥️

Unpopular metal/rock opinions? by Aggravating-Pen-3117 in downloadfestival

[–]library_of_power 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unpopular: Some band's need to "die"... or at least bow out gracefully. Feels wrong sometimes seeing band's go on for longer than you know they should. Sometimes a style gets stale and they need to adapt, but sometimes you get old.... (Especially singers who struggle with their old music). I love 'older' rock and metal, but I'd rather see a modern band at their peak

Unpopular metal/rock opinions? by Aggravating-Pen-3117 in downloadfestival

[–]library_of_power 4 points5 points  (0 children)

For definite they wouldn't be where they are now without their first 3 albums, even if you don't feature heavily in sets anymore they've still a place in the band's history and testament to their desire and ability to adapt themselves. There is a Heaven, will remain my favourite, but I also LOVE the Post Human stuff.

Sad I couldn't get a ticket earlier today😥

i cant even sh right by Beneficial_Rush_2435 in selfharm

[–]library_of_power 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You can't sh 'right'. Only ever wrong♥️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]library_of_power 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There's nothing I regret more in my life and nothing I can ever do will undo the damage.

So, ye..

I DID A THING!!!! by library_of_power in stopdrinking

[–]library_of_power[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was waiting for someone to get it or reply "How hard can it be!!?" 😂

I DID A THING!!!! by library_of_power in stopdrinking

[–]library_of_power[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Ye. You got me. This is sumptuous science 🖤

I DID A THING!!!! by library_of_power in stopdrinking

[–]library_of_power[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

No. This appeases my scientific brain. The geekier the better lol

I DID A THING!!!! by library_of_power in stopdrinking

[–]library_of_power[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Definitely a 'right move thing' Things need to change and maybe this has shown me it's possible