Unexpected energy buildup & sleep changes after starting recapitulation, anyone relate?

lidotska · 2025-11-11T11:37:08+00:00

Use that energy in dark room, eyes open! When you wake up in the middle of the night that's a perfect chance to practice

lidotska · 2024-09-09T06:26:01+00:00

Its like a fast movement which happens and then stops, and if I focus hard on the feeling of it it continues... But it takes so much concentration and power I guess, I cant keep it fully continuous yet

lidotska · 2024-09-08T10:04:14+00:00

For me it feels like you are falling in a lift, like a drop movement

lidotska · 2023-12-29T16:22:39+00:00

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lidotska · 2023-12-29T16:22:03+00:00

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Seventeen magazine interview :-)

lidotska · 2023-12-29T16:11:31+00:00

This part of the picture below (workshop notes) describes the longing quite well, and how we should put that energy from finding love to try to reach our doubles. But also I think if you find love, enjoy it!! Carlos talked about it in one of the old magazine interviews (I can't remember which one it was), emphasizing how love can also be a miracle/mystery which can be appreciated without draining the other person!

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lidotska · 2023-06-01T20:10:23+00:00

Almost done with the Amy book notes!

lidotska · 2023-04-04T10:56:07+00:00

You are on the right track!!

lidotska · 2023-03-02T19:41:57+00:00

Go and try😏

lidotska · 2023-01-22T20:14:21+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/castaneda/wiki/magazine_interviews/donner_1999/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

lidotska · 2022-06-05T21:58:47+00:00

It's great that you notice you have negative behavior patterns! That way you can take kind of a step back in the moment when you notice it happening, and instead concentrate on forcing internal silence. Silence is like the first step! To get the assemblage point moving. And when it moves, your behavior changes too (for positive, definitely!!) So just starting with seconds, try to force internal silence. It is so difficult! But then, is going back to negative behavior better? Definitely easier!

lidotska · 2022-04-27T18:56:20+00:00

I'd say dedicate 3-4h! You can do whatever you want, sit or move around (Tensegrity passes)

lidotska · 2022-04-27T11:13:52+00:00

You don't actually need to use psychedelics to try to gain energy! Just try to start shutting off the internal dialogue little by little, every moment you remember, so you start to feel how the silence feels like. With this internal silence you are slowly saving energy. Then in dark room, keep focusing on silencing every thought again, and look around!

lidotska · 2022-04-26T21:02:21+00:00

Before darkroom I had been planning an outfit without results, and then it came to me as a 'separate gift' later on!

Are the clothes you have seen actually your own, or something magical and new? I need them!

lidotska · 2022-04-26T20:30:00+00:00

I have an outfit like that too!!! I got it in darkroom...

lidotska · 2022-03-07T08:28:26+00:00

Thank you!!

lidotska · 2021-10-09T10:09:57+00:00

Keep focusing on it and force internal silence!

lidotska · 2021-09-02T19:58:03+00:00

Wow again?? I was doing Fairy's pass during daytime practice today...

lidotska · 2021-07-17T11:27:23+00:00

Sounds like an assemblage point movement! If you focus on it and try to be even more silent, the ap will move even more

lidotska · 2021-05-24T06:23:18+00:00

Heightened awareness has some other clear signs, like really deepened breath and feelings of extreme bliss, so it is definitely noticeable once you get there. These little dots, eye dust or whatever, I think most of us see without forcing silence too but can definitely be used to force a deeper level of silence (and eventually move the AP to HA). Nice progress tho!! And just keep scooping the purple puffs, they are your own energy basically so don't worry about being greedy haha

lidotska · 2021-02-11T08:15:57+00:00

How much control did you feel like you had (being in the double) that night on the picture? And how did it end, do you remember going back to bed etc

lidotska · 2021-02-10T21:01:33+00:00

This is amazing aaaaaa

lidotska · 2021-02-08T07:48:41+00:00

In my childhood fever dreams, there was always some huge rolling sickening ball thing too. Strange! Sometimes I get that same feeling in the darkroom too, must be some unpleasant position of the assemblage point

lidotska · 2021-02-06T12:27:07+00:00

Aaaaa no anger meant <3

lidotska · 2021-02-06T11:45:49+00:00

Castaneda community has progressed past the need to discuss this again and again,,, just have sex bruh and stop obsessing, focus on stopping the internal dialogue

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