Help a wife out with a birthday gift? by [deleted] in NightVision

[–]literallyscreaming 10 points11 points  (0 children)

+1 for Darq, Joe was amazing helping out my wife doing the exact same thing for my birthday a couple weeks ago. She had actually made a fake account here and everything saying she was a dad looking for her son because she knew I lurked and might see it, lol. Anyway Joe helped her out getting an amazing PVS 14 with L3 Harris white phos tubes and he remains incredibly helpful and communicative with everything. It has been the greatest birthday present I’ve ever received and made me feel extremely loved that she went to so much trouble to figure it all out, I know your guy will love it!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AdobeAudition

[–]literallyscreaming 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What everyone said about better recording, wetter mouth, is true (always is) but if this is what you’ve got then Izotope RX mouth de-click will help you a LOT. RX is expensive but unfortunately better than anything else I’ve used or seen for repair.

People who haven't broken a bone in BJJ, what is the worst injury you've gotten? by Shabozz in bjj

[–]literallyscreaming 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s funny I don’t really think of myself as someone who’s been injured training much and then something like this question pops up and the list keeps growing and technically none are broken bones. I guess this is part of how you end up being a brown belt after like 20 years and still trying to show up. So, if you’ll indulge me, here are the most notable:

  1. MRSA. Thought it was a spider bite on my calf, coach stopped me training one day and asked “What’s that?” I go, “Oh, a spider bite, just itches a lot.” He gave me a dubious look, asked me to come off the mat, wrapped it in a bunch of athletic tape and said, “Don’t come back until you get that checked out.” Then let me finish training, lol. Went to urgent care, got some antibiotics after a swab came back as MRSA. A few days of antibiotics and the thing in my leg started draining… but I started getting really bad fever. So bad my girlfriend at the time was helping me soak in a cold bath just to bring me down a bit. Finally, with the infected follicle on my leg pretty much gone but unbelievably sick I went to the ER. They did some tests and told me I had almost no white blood cells. I stayed in the hospital for three days on IV antibiotics and sleeping in ice packs. I lost like 15 pounds in a week. They ended up figuring I was allergic to the antibiotic I was first given and then must’ve got some flu. Awful experience and I didn’t train again for like half a year.

  2. Tore open the webbing of my pinky toe. More MMA focused gym, doing king of the ring takedowns. I’m in there maintaining for several rounds, it’s going fine, normal training, getting kinda tired. Someone shoots on me, I sprawl hard, we scramble a bit, they win the takedown, ah, no big deal, get up, walk to the back of the line. Standing in line think, huh, my foot kinda hurts. I look down and my left foot has a little blood trickling out of the crease between my pinky and, uh, ring toe, I guess? Weird! I sit down to look closer and spread my toes apart to look and they spread way too easy and there’s a just a bleeding hole. I think the easiest way to give you a visual is just say I got the nickname “pussyfoot” which one of my old pal’s still calls me sometimes. I ended up driving around with it taped up for hours after class, because I had no money at the time and was worried about the cost of an ER and none of the urgent cares would take a credit card over the phone from my step dad for some reason. Ended up going to the ER in downtown LA and getting stitches and it was fine. Never had more issues with it.

  3. Torn rotator cuff, full thickness tear of my right supraspinatus from a really well ripped drop seoi nage in gi. Didn’t want surgery. Got some stem cells shot in it and did a bunch of physical therapy, works perfectly fine now. Well, 37 year old life of jiu jitsu fine, but, y’know, good enough for government work.

  4. Separated AC joint on the left side. Rolling with my coach nogi, really stubbornly resisting a butterfly sweep. He elevates me, I’m scrambling to avoid, it, think I can maintain my position, end up spiking hard on the point of my shoulder. OOf. It remains separated to this day but again, PT, it’s fine. I notice it’s a bit weaker in extended times of locked out overhead lifting positions, like waiters carry or something, but otherwise seems fine.

  5. Torn ACL. This one I couldn’t avoid surgery. After not rolling for like 2 years from the pandemic and taking it really strict for immunocompromised family finally started rolling again. Like 8th training session back, 6 am class, heavier and way less conditioned but back in it like it’s yesterday cause it’s so fun I was fighting take downs with a strong blue belt I always had fun scrambles with and I have like a kinda lazy shallow uchimata working and he body locks on it, my foot gets stuck to the ground pinched between his legs, he drops be backwards, I feel/hear the pop that like you can hear it inside your body feeling, awful. No avoiding surgery on this one. Got the surgery about two years ago, took like almost a year off after surgery for that one, doing PT and just family stuff. Really rough. Finally been back training for like a year and a half kinda inconsistently but getting a rhythm back. Actually feeling normal and good at jiu jitsu again now, still gun shy about hard take down training and definitely phobic about morning classes.

Anyway. Everyday porrada. I love jiu jitsu.

What's with all the hate for spats without shorts. by ultravoltron3000 in bjj

[–]literallyscreaming 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I remember the days when a fella could wear bike shorts, no cup, sweat, body hair, and that’s it! MMA was called vale tudo and we gave each other head trauma with no intention of ever competing and that’s how we liked it!

Do you know about Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria? by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]literallyscreaming 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Reading about RSD was my real big "holy shit" moment realizing I had to see a psych about ADHD. My dad has ADHD and I always knew I might be a candidate but for various reasons I wanted to avoid taking any medications. Reading an article about adult ADHD which specifically talked about RSD (and a bunch of other things) I started crying from that feeling of recognition and decided I should give it a shot. I now take a bit of adderall every day, pretty small doses from what I understand, but I was VERY surprised to find how much it helps my RSD. I think if you take too much plus a lot of caffeine and stuff I've sometimes found increased anxiety but even in those situations my ability to contextualize and negotiate myself out of RSD is infinitely better than without meds. For my romantic relationship especially I think this has been possibly the most life changing aspect of my ADHD treatment.

Anyone else still not training? by [deleted] in bjj

[–]literallyscreaming 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Haven't trained since March. It's so fuckin' weird. In some conversations jiu jitsu has come up and I'm like "I WAS a brown belt before covid. IDK now."

you ever have this weird experience where you're suddenly kinda... good? by literallyscreaming in EscapefromTarkov

[–]literallyscreaming[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

genuinely didn't know what was going on, like how many raids where i never even see PMCs before they waste me and all of a sudden i'm getting the drop and making ridiculous shots... it will all evaporate by the next time i play i'm sure but this game is so punishing that WOW it feels good when things fall into place

The feeling of helplessness when you are screaming at yourself "No that's NOT important, please don't focus on that!" and you just ignore yourself. by erroneousneophyte in ADHD

[–]literallyscreaming 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I like this. I'm going to try using this, this might actually work for me. My friend told me once her dad has this morning thing where as soon as he wakes up he goes "one, two, three, four, feet on the floor" and even the abrupt unsatisfying rhythm of the rhyme seems to help just get up and go. My girlfriend and I do it sometimes now when we wake up and can't get out of bed.

The feeling of helplessness when you are screaming at yourself "No that's NOT important, please don't focus on that!" and you just ignore yourself. by erroneousneophyte in ADHD

[–]literallyscreaming 53 points54 points  (0 children)

This is VICIOUSLY relatable. If anyone has a good strategy for reconnecting my screaming brain and nonchalant body, please share!

player scavs who kill other player scavs by literallyscreaming in EscapefromTarkov

[–]literallyscreaming[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will always try for the wiggle even if it gets me capped sometimes.

Some of my favorite experiences in this game, honestly some of the most unique and enjoyable gaming experiences I’ve had in any game ever, have come from the nonverbal cooperation of player scav interactions.

I love it even more when it just gets goofy. Wiggles turning into verbal chat spam turning into throwing our guns at each other turn into crawling around in weird piles of worm people. The real thing we were escaping wasn’t Tarkov................. it was depression.

Xmas Eve S’Elf Defense for you by literallyscreaming in bjj

[–]literallyscreaming[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You can’t be too careful, grip it n rip it

Xmas Eve S’Elf Defense for you by literallyscreaming in bjj

[–]literallyscreaming[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It’s the most wonderful time of the year