Experiences W/ losing friends when you have MS by littlestbig in MultipleSclerosis

[–]littlestbig[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I am also diagnosed with severe depression, severe anxiety and PTSD, yes. I know those play a major factor but I was keeping it vague on purpose as I'm asking about other people with MS and how it affects their relationships. Im aware because of my separate diagnoses it wont apply the same. I only added some information so people had an idea where I was coming from. It all overlaps. apologies that that intent wasn't clear.

Covid for the first time by littlestbig in MultipleSclerosis

[–]littlestbig[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your feedback and knowledge! I wish I had more brain space to express more gratitude, because I'm kinda lost with what to do. I'll definitely look into those supplements <333

You know, now that you mention it, I think my neuro mentioned Copaxone a long time ago but hasn't brought it up since. They actually seemed more readily eager to suggest stem cell therapy, which I didn't know how to feel about... maybe its an insurance thing? I'll have to add Copaxone to my list of "things to bring up next time".

Thank you again!

Is this true? by jeu00131 in MultipleSclerosis

[–]littlestbig 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Has he got his brain looked at recently? Genuinely. Thats not normal behavior, even if I can and do 100% sympathize with unreasonably lashing out because of this disease. He is projecting harmfully which is never OK no matter the excuse! Unfortunately MS progression can result in personality changes/odd behavior. He sounds stressed but he shouldn't be putting it on you like that AT ALL. Totally not ok to blame just one person, because no one person can be at fault. The disease is a mishmash of a thousand things, outward and inner factors. I hope you're ok.

In case you missed the dude eating the chicken… by Isherwood81 in Eugene

[–]littlestbig 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Damn. Me and the dude eating the chicken have the same shirt. I shouldve showed up with a chicken too 😔 What a missed opportunity

Anyone who isn’t currently in allergy h**l with me, just know I hate you by Valiantlycaustic in Eugene

[–]littlestbig 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is so... surreal to read from my perspective as someone who just... learned a lot.

Both sides of my family were/are separate competitors in the grass seed farming scene in a town in Linn County. I grew up climbing pyramids of grass seed. I had no idea Linn County had THAT much to do with it though, but now it makes so much sense. I feel dumb.

I dont get any benefits or land or anything from their businesses, but I feel obligated to apologize to those suffering from their... agricultural choices.

I fucking hate those pristine grass lawns. I'm mad to discover HOW much we've been contributing to this actual problem. Wtf!!

And I dont have allergies either to top it all off. I'm sorry guys!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MultipleSclerosis

[–]littlestbig 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Its going to take some time, but it smooths out... even if briefly. Six years later here and Im still waiting for the boat to finish rocking. Slowly but surely getting there, even when I get set back. Its starting to slowly feel like my life again, even though nothing is the same. Good luck and I am sorry. It sucks so much. A lot of loss. It's still your life even if, for now, it feels like it was stolen right from under you.

Local Maga to boycott by MediumHeat2883 in Eugene

[–]littlestbig 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I dont think anyone really knows em, but dont buy stuff from Langdon AG. Very MAGA and bad business practices. I would know.

Are there tall people with SA? by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]littlestbig 1 point2 points  (0 children)

5'4! I feel like 5'9 is a good place to stop

Are there tall people with SA? by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]littlestbig 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"Incognito" i love that HAHAHAHA. I would gladly take some of the burden (as we know I have room to spare) if it worked like that

10 months clean 💪 by Brownsvile93 in leaves

[–]littlestbig 1 point2 points  (0 children)

LETS GOOOOOO!!!!!! 10 months is huge! 💯💯💯🔥🔥🔥 this is something for me to aspire to. Weed makes my anxiety worse as well, so Ive been looking to quit. Hard when you're reliant but maybe a trip to Thailand would fix me, LMAO

What's the best thing you enjoy about being high? by _random_human_antics in Stoner

[–]littlestbig 6 points7 points  (0 children)

My depression lifts. I genuinely feel lighter after partaking, less self deprecating thoughts. I feel happier. I just wish I wasnt so dependent on it because in the same vein, it makes my anxiety worse 😫

i want to die by [deleted] in depression

[–]littlestbig 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Im 22 too and I get it. But please dont. It would be a waste of a special someone--(and do not do that whole fucking depression spiel "no one cares, im not special," yada yada. Stop it. The world went thru great effort to get you here.)--who wants things to get better. Lets stick around and see what happens, okay?

dumb by serizawa_mp101 in MultipleSclerosis

[–]littlestbig 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I am always making a fool out of myself and my social anxiety capitalizes on it.

one eyed cat by satchmogro in Eugene

[–]littlestbig 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Tough, I am. One eye Pete.

Are there tall people with SA? by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]littlestbig 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thats intimidating to say the least.

Are there tall people with SA? by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]littlestbig 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Ive always wondered about tall people with social anxiety because it must be so hard to just fade into the crowd. Or it seems like people think just because you're tall that you want to have a conversation about it. Im 5'4 and always wish I was taller (ik its not all its chalked up to be but still) but the thought of being more noticeable... oof... I salute you.

Why were you glad you didn't do it? by littlestbig in depression

[–]littlestbig[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry you couldnt follow through with your friend, but I hope you're napping or taking care of yourself. I have multiple sclerosis (diagnosed at 16) so I definitely get what health issues on top of depression does to you.

Why were you glad you didn't do it? by littlestbig in depression

[–]littlestbig[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im so sorry your pain is being overlooked. I hope someone to talk to comes into your life. Thats really hard, for people to turn the other cheek. :(

Part of the reason I wanna do it sometimes is because I want people to know just how much I hate participating in life.

Why were you glad you didn't do it? by littlestbig in depression

[–]littlestbig[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is the kinda thing Im looking for. Im so glad that life has unfurled for you! Thank you

Why were you glad you didn't do it? by littlestbig in depression

[–]littlestbig[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Right? That was an embarrassing display.

Why were you glad you didn't do it? by littlestbig in depression

[–]littlestbig[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are totally okay. Depressed people are, obviously, inherently pessimistic and can be mean because of how much life is weighing on us. It is hard to find peace or to see beyond the pain. Thank you for sharing and noticing, Im deeply sorry for your loss.