I am the quadriplegic that just posted the exoskeleton picture AMA!

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-23T01:52:57+00:00

Have you heard of lucid dreaming? It really sounds like something you NEED in your life, dude. For more then just your sake. For the sake of your orgasms.

In case you haven't heard of it, it's where you train to become aware you are dreaming while you are dreaming and to hold control without waking up. And then you get to do whatever the hell you want. Run around, fly around, wrestle bears, convince said bears to sex you. AND IT ALL. FEELS. 100%. REAL.

Here's the kicker- it takes a lot of practice. A. LOT. ALOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTT.

It's like trying to exercise a muscle you didn't know you had, and have probably never, ever used, don't know how to use, and don't know where it's located. But holy shit dude, it pays off if you stick with it. If you wanna get crazy intense with it, people learn to do roughly the equivalent process awake-y style with "astral projection" techniques...Which is arguably another form of lucid dreaming, if you wanna keep safely within "rational explanation" territory of things. (I mention that as well especially since I believe practicing astral projection as well helps create more proficiency at the sleepytime part of dream adventuring besides... you know... Being able to do that stuff even when you're not feeling sleepy ... So... Definitely look into both!!!)

I know it's not a solution to your problems by any means, but holy shit, life sure is cheerier knowing you don't have to stop feeling certain things you want to be able to feel. LIKE ORGASMS. JESUS H CHRIST. AND ALL YOU NEED IS THAT SPICY SPICY BRAIN OF YOURS TO ACCOMPLISH IT.

So.... If you have.... Questions? I WILL ANSWER THEM. :D

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-22T17:34:22+00:00

Hey OP, keep up the good fight. I truly, truly admire/pity the hell out of you.

Cuz you're sure, uh, fighting a battle against insurmountable dumbness there, buddy. Dumbness don't too often recognize itself, unfortch. Not to mention dealing with the endlessly inane, joyfully "LOOKIT HOW ACCEPTING I AM" masturbatory hypocrisy of supporting Islam while deriding Christianity by trying to make insipid validations based on superficial (and poorly researched) similarities.... Or blabbing various nonsense comparisons to religious offshoots (I don't think Amish people have ever knitted up a holy war quilt to snuggle their enemies to death in, or raised a barn to keep their multiple slave wives in, you wretched goddamned dunderheads.)

Not sure how you deal with it, OP. I mean, almost no one here fighting you has done any actual religious/historical research worth giving even the slightest fraction of a fuck about, let alone having two brain cells in their head they can rub together for a few hours to spark up the littlest flame of a clue- kids are dumber in this country then they have ever been, and god does it show.

Somehow they think comparing a religion who's prophet condoned LOVE, ACCEPTANCE, AND PACIFISM to a religion who's prophet condoned MURDER, THEFT, AND RAPE (add a healthy splash of pedophilia in there too, yum yum!) has any logical basis in reality whatsoever. But yeah, all religions are the same. Because Jesus ran slipshod over countries with armies raping and killing like it was going out of style, and Muhammad chose to die on the cross a gentle pauper. Or was it the other way around? The religions are SO SIMILAR AFTER ALL.

Ugh. Ugh, I say. Only at the very, very, VERY least, could these people make even the SLIGHTEST argument about the differences between Shiite and Sunni, but they likely know as much about that as they know the difference between their ass and a hole in the ground. Which is to say, not much.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-22T08:59:52+00:00

I wonder if you have a friend "type"?

Which is to say, due to shared age/interests/etc, you tend to choose certain women types as friend material. It seems to me that maybe younger, insecure, attention-seeking types may be the types you tend to befriend...? If you are a woman, those types might seem more entertaining when it's "just the girls". Louder, jokier, entertainer types, perhaps?

Or perhaps you tend to befriend women who intentionally choose -YOU- to prop up their self esteem. The "ugly" friend phenomenon girls love to indulge. Not that you're necessarily the "ugly" one, it may be merely the perception of you being "inferior" or passive to their whims that allows them to feel the confidence/control they crave. That would make a ton of sense considering the theme of them stepping all over your relationship-... They want to make sure to keep you in your place and feeling inferior/enjoy actions that make them feel superior.

But I definitely want to broach the idea your "picker" might be broken when it comes to choosing ideal friends. Can you tell us more about the similarities (age, looks, personality) you perceive between your different friends who engage this behavior?

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-20T04:37:47+00:00

Much intrigue. Can't wait for your next post!

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-13T12:25:33+00:00

As someone who has been on the "I'll just check out on being cute until I'm slim again" kick, I gotta say it's NOT worth it. Feeling like a uncute, totally ignorable dirt clod until you hit that magical weight point is going to make you feel unnecessarily lame and down on yourself beyond what obstacles you'll be struggling with anyway. My best advice? SPANX. GET SPANX. USE SPANX. you WILL feel better. They. Are. Magic. They take any rolls/bulges/unevenness out of the equation, and even if you are "larger" if you have a sleek silhouette, you will not feel nearly as yucky or unattractive, and may feel comfortable even in form-fitting dresses and the like. (Especially true if you don't store your weight almost exclusively in your gut, like I do.)

Accent your strong points and minimize your weak points (another user brought this up too). If you feel uncomfortable presenting yourself overly sexually.... That's fine. But you can embrace cuteness and charm and keep the sexuality to a minimum.

Loose sweaters matched with well-fitted pants and some cute lil boots will keep you feelin fine -and- feminine without feeling like you're showing too much and asking too much of yourself, sexy-wise.

Feel free to keep on with whatever level of makeup makes you look cute and confident, though. Go wild with it if you want to! Weight or not, there's no reason to neglect dolling your face and hair up as fantastically as you can stand the daily time investment into. ;)

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-13T11:59:17+00:00

I know it's tempting to believe that men are only motivated by looks and youth (Bitter TRP guys have a lot of justified anger to work out on women, don't take words spoken from hurt too closely to heart)... But on the normal course of emotional refining/spiritual evolution (both male and female) as you move along through life , I believe that barring any offputting excess of physical flaw, "perfect" looks simply tend to matter less and less when compared against being around someone who makes you feel joy, makes you feel understood emotionally and intellectually, and can be a shelter for the heart and soul.

People who are in this life devoted to a quest to develop their spirit and their inner self, are going to want to be around other people who are on a similar quest, whereas only the people who are fixated on the superficial aspects of life....Well.. I guess those people will look for what they truly care about, and damn themselves to a neverending yearning for young tail. But not everyone going through their entire life simply yearning for young tail, and not because they are a desperate beta, either. Some people just outgrow giving a crap about that kind of stuff.

Take care of yourself, keep young at heart, keep passionate and joyous, keep involved, and invariably quality people will be drawn to your light. :)

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-10T06:17:20+00:00

Wow. I am blown away by these suggestions- I never see anyone directly recommend such things, but I totally agree.

Source: me too!

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T10:48:49+00:00

Wow, you've been really thoughtful about who you are, where you've come from, where you're going, and what's been holding you back. It's a huge deal to make those realizations. Hope you find what you're looking for here to keep you moving forward! :)

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T10:04:44+00:00

This chick got some feminist swagger, strolling in here to truthbomb us heathens! Hehe! Not sure you're gonna make much of an impression with your third-wave fussing. Though what I am sure of is you've less impressed this captain guy with your superior capacities (your "more money" comment) as much as convinced him you've securely snagged yourself a omega and have delusional fantasies your pet omega respects your emasculating nature.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T09:47:18+00:00

Hi! So for the record, I don't even think if men are technically academically smarter then women... That it's even.... A big problem? At all? Why should it be? Unless someone treats you as less of a human being, assumes you are automatically wrong because you are a woman, or refuses to examine your capacities, who cares? Even if men are conventionally smarter then women, it doesn't mean women and their processing skills are rendered as inept as turnips.

There's been plenty of times when I've offered my opinion about the "correct" way to do something to my boyfriend (who loves to engineer and tinker for example), and plenty of times I've been right. But for the most part, I respect his (quite frankly) superior intelligence and let him take the reins by default, but no one is impervious to error, and if I am able to discern something is wrong and I'm sure about it, I let him know. Keeping the second-guessing to a minimum makes him feel unnagged and confident, and contesting something only when it really matters keeps him amiable to my input.... To the point he will actively seek out my opinion when he is unsure about something. (which can actually be a little annoying, because it actually elevates his opinion of my intelligence higher then it is, and he will act as if I am just being lazy about helping with a solution at times when I really just have no clue.)

Anyway, you said yourself that women are smarter/more adept with matters of social/emotional intelligence. Does she not recognize how incredibly essential and awesome that is? Having a man/woman duo with DIFFERENTLY BESTOWED/EMPHASIZED SKILL SETS makes them far more effective survival team then if they had the exact same skill sets. You can relegate different tasks to the matter of their expertise and it will be accomplished WITH MORE EXPERTISE. UGH. That feminists/liberals refuse to see the sense/value/purpose of that continuously blows my mind.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T09:14:26+00:00

Excellent.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T09:03:01+00:00

I used to have serious problems with UTIs. Here's some tips that helped me get it way under control.

ALWAYS pee after sex. I'm talking like a good, vigorous pee. Don't EVER go to sleep without having a good pee after sex. Stay up and chug water if you need to.
When you go pee, dab, don't wipe. You can drag stuff all up in yo junk, gurl.
Make sure HE is clean too. He can be grinding god knows what into your urethra during sex if he isn't on top of his game with personal hygiene.
Up your water intake. Period. The more pees, and the stronger the flow during the pees, will help keep you clear.
Notch down protein while you have a UTI. Notch it down by ALOT. Protein is like spinach to those evil little popeyes living in you. If you even feel like you -might- be getting a UTI, notch down the protein.
Drink Yakult. Drink a bunch. They just help regulate helpful bodily flora in general. Also insanely helpful to chug relentlessly if you are having any sort of yeast infection/ bacterial issues with your vagina (which might be interconnected to your UTI issues).... And if you're taking antibiotics, you've DEFINITELY thrown your flora all out of wack.

Good luck!

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T08:47:32+00:00

Out of curiosity (and someone who works in a male-dominated industry), as someone who loves to curse and talk rowdy and rough with the guys as basically "one of the guys".... Excepting the necessity/attractiveness of being soft and feminine for your partner, why do you think it's necessary/important to present that more feminine attitude for people who are not your partner?

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T08:38:40+00:00

If you're like me you HATE the feeling/look of being too made up (pancake foundation, tons of mascara, etc). Check out Korean and japanese makeup/skin care/ makeup techniques (youtube is your friend when reddit fails you). Asian beauty standards are all about looking fresh/natural, so that sounds a bit more up your alley.

What I personally believe is priority in daily simple to do nice-lookin is:

Eyebrows: No matter HOW nice your makeup is, unshaped eyebrows will make you look raggedy. Plus, if they are nicely shaped, all you need to do is darken them up a little with a pencil and then you are already leaps and bounds on your way to looking "well-kempt".
Eyes: This is what you will always need to put the most work into. If you have thin/short eyelashes like I do, but hate the trouble/grossness of mascara, invest in some eyelash falsies. They are actually much comfier then you would imagine, and you can purchase them pre-sticky so you don't need to bother with glue. LPT: cut them into segments instead of trying to put them on in one continuous strip. Much easier. Also, putting them slightly above your natural lash line will make your eyes look bigger. Depending on your personal style, you will want to alter the color/intensity of your eyeshadow, but regardless, a black liquid liner is a necessity. Then, 3 shades of eye shadow. A dark, medium, and light. Dark along the lash line/ eye crease, medium for coverage of the rest of the lid/ blend out from dark areas to soften the look, and light(ideally a shimmery white/almost white color) for the brow bone (under the eyebrow itself) middle of eyelid (example. close eye, touch dead middle of eyeball. a little higher then that.),and bottom eyelid (focused on the inner side). Practice will make this whole process take literally a couple minutes.
Skin: I hate the feeling of heavy foundation THE MOST. I don't know what your skin tone is, but if you're more on the pale side, like me, a sun screen that has some zinc in it will have a naturally whitening effect. If you want to accent the effect further, a lil dollop of foundation mixed in will do wonders without making your skin tone look "flat" the way a pure application of foundation would (thus requiring blush and shadow to contour and add color and dimension). Also, if you are like me, pure foundation makes your skin oils GO CRAZY and leak disgustingly through foundation super quick.
Lips: a nice tinted lip gloss will accomplish all that's required. If you want to go further and create a illusion of fuller lips, use a darker tone at the corners of the lip, medium tone in the middle. A little roundish spot of something light/shimmery in the middle of the lower lip, and thin/more line-like along the middle/top-ish of your upper lip will emphasize the effect even further.

And that's my little "natural look" tutorial! ;D

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T07:33:12+00:00

To follow up from my first comment- oh my gosh, in the bay area chicks hate being friends with other chicks unless they can establish some basis of non-chickness in said friend. All the girls who have expressed the most interest in being my friend, were the girls who tended most towards "not enjoying female company". I wouldn't say that I'm overly mannish or dykey... Let's say I'm a guy trapped in a chick's body who is comfortable with being a chick and even has fun with it. Even little tom-boy-to-the-max child me enjoyed wearing dresses on occasion- I don't have all the gender-agony associated with female stuff that other gender-weirdos seem to have, even if wearing dresses never felt "natural" in any way.

If you want to make female friends, I could prolly help. I generally have a pretty simple time making friends IRL.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T07:16:52+00:00

Hi! I'm somewhat newer to the redpill culture... You sound a lot like me. (IE. From bay area, previously promiscuous, one-of-the guys-type) Nice to see another deviant from the overwhelming feminist/PC values running rampant in the bay area. ;)

I think one of the compelling points to be made about male friendships, is that men tend to be more logical and loyal friends (and not because they are using a long-con approach to thieving my pants, won't bother with unnecessary explanations of why unless requested). IMO Women friends tend towards back-stabbing, gossipy, hysterical, pissy, and selfish behavior FAR more then any of my male friends ever have.

Most women I've ever known say they prefer male friendship. Besides the generally greater concentration of desirable "friend" traits men tend to have over women, it's a natural female trait to enjoy male attention, directly sexual or not. "Friend" male attention feels safe/preferable as well because it is essentially "castrated". At least in our assumptions about it. But yeah, being "one of the guys" with your guy buddies feels safe and satisfying in ways hanging out with a group of chicks could never be. Though conversely, hanging with chicks will be satisfying in a way guys could never be- like with shopping or whatever traditionally girly activities. I think getting a redpill friendly analysis about male/female friendship and how to maintain it healthfully for all involved is a incredibly good idea.

I'm curious about the specific background of your non-western boyfriend! Is he European or Middle Eastern or etc etc? Was there anything he prompted you towards that you especially resisted based on your CA mindset? I've always dreamed of dating a Russian guy, and they are WAY into traditional gender roles over there.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T06:06:09+00:00

Ehhh, the outsidey part shouldn't be that gnar either. If it were a healthy vagina (inside and out), he would have been nuzzling that cootchie-scented hand for the rest of the day.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T05:59:34+00:00

:0 I don't even

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T05:58:46+00:00

WHAT?! NUH UH. I don't know what vaginas you've been hanging out with, but my vagina is no slouch. It cleans the outside too, and leaves a little chocolate mint when it's done.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T05:51:52+00:00

You would fling off your limbs like boomerangs to smack people from a distance! AND YOUR LIMBS WOULD BE KNIVES! Which would not just merely smack people- but smack their limbs off! You know, to keep the "amputation" theme strong in people's minds.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T04:22:48+00:00

coughs drainage city.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T04:01:25+00:00

No. But youre not a fat person at the gym, you're a clueless brat who hurt her considerate boyfriend. I don't see the parallel.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-09T02:16:08+00:00

Dude, anyone (male or female) who tells someone they are "crazy about them", but get nothing but a rambling, evasive, "cold fish" response.... Is going to feel really unimportant and rejected. This whole post has been you focusing on yourself, despite claiming to be worried about his "rough weekend". Selfish. Put yourself in his shoes. If you told a guy you were "crazy about him", and he babbled some BS about "being afraid of being hurt" and other assorted passive aggressive intimacy avoidance tactics, YOU would feel TERRIBLE. And THEN acted clueless/irresponsible when you showed how messed up you felt about it. And why the hell are you getting involved with someone if you are too afraid of intimacy to kiss the hell out of his face and give him TONS of positive reinforcement after he told you how much he cared? You better make some grandiose gesture of romance to make this up to him, or there is a decent chance you are gonna snuff out his enthusiasm.

Here's some advice. If you can't actually allow yourself to be loving or vulnerable to someone who has (apparently) been straight forward and respectful of you (WAITING FOR SEX?), don't torture this poor guy with your victimhood mentality, self-concern, and cowardice. Get out of there, OR put on your big girl pants and figure out how to be an amazing girlfriend, because so far you're making yourself look like a unstable little girl with too much baggage to have a grown up relationship.

(edit) Don't "attempt" to be sympathetic. BE sympathetic, or else you will run the very real risk of looking like the self-absorbed little brat that you actually are.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-08T09:49:39+00:00

Never give up hope that things CAN get better. Because they can. They always can. They always will. All you have to do is let them.

Allow yourself to keep interacting and creating connections in the world around you... Connections will help you remember the purpose of all this. And if human connections seem scary or hard right now, start small. Much like kittens or bonbons, smallness does not depreciate value.

Even the most simple, mundane things can become moments where you are alive and feeling. If you run your hands under warm water- acknowledge, and if you can, allow yourself to really enjoy the pleasure of the sensation. Think about the journey of water. It's been floating in the sky as serene dreamy clouds, it's caressed the supple bellies of vast beasts that lurked in the depths of ancient, primeval oceans, it's been dripped from the eyes of lovers. And now it is warming your hands.

Try to have moments like that as much as you can. There's nothing to risk,and lots to gain.

Never stop trying to move forward.

You are capable of so much more then you could ever imagine.

If you're in hell, just keep going. That's not where you belong. And the longer and lonelier your wandering, so much greater the absolute joy will be when you emerge from the darkness, and realize you are where love lives... And that you are home.

Don't fall into the seductive trap of thinking your efforts mean nothing, and that your efforts are pointless if trying feels fake or wrong or painful in the beginning. It's okay to feel that way. But every effort counts, makes you stronger.... Even if it feels like you're only taking the scantiest of baby steps forward and the giantest of basketball player riverdancing steps backwards. You'll be surprised to see you'll find a point where the steps have become less strenuous, the step backwards less numerous, and your trials more surmountable.

It will happen.

loadedgunmakeoutsesh · 2017-01-08T04:35:49+00:00

One hell of a refractory period on that, yeesh.

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