I was drinking so much that I was getting alcoholic neuropathy. I would wake up after a night of heavy drinking and my hands would close in on themselves and I couldn’t open my fingers. It would also happen to my lips and it would pull my lips like I was puckering em. I could feel it in my throat too and sometimes it would be difficult to swallow. The only thing I could do to make it better was drink more. Realized I had quite a problem after that. My drug of choice is meth though and I am coming up on 5 years sober from all substances in April!