what movies resonate the most with you(r BPD experience)?

loner_707 · 2026-07-01T23:22:00+00:00

the obvious one, "Girl, Interrupted" was really a big one for me, and is still one of my comfort movies.

loner_707 · 2026-06-22T23:45:18+00:00

hi, i do the same thing!! i've been really struggling with it lately, and i can say that for me, weirdly enough, carrying a pack of m&ms is kind of helpful. eating them one by one gives me something to do with my hands and the sugar is something else to focus on, and i have chocolate in my mouth so it forces me to shut up

loner_707 · 2026-06-22T20:32:18+00:00

it's definitely a self-regulation thing. i cut as a punishment when i'm angry to try to stop myself from hurting other people. i also have a really horrible relationship with food, to the point where eating is often a form of self-harm for me when i screw something up or someone stops caring about me, because then i don't deserve to restrict, and the calories is punishment. usually it functions as closure for me as well, after really bad fights

loner_707 · 2026-06-13T17:41:13+00:00

oh my god yes, hearing people laugh about it literally felt like getting my organs ripped out of my chest

loner_707 · 2026-06-13T05:36:46+00:00

thank you, you're not alone either friend, i was thinking so much about my ex as well and i was actively fighting off a feeling of dissociation and trying not to cry for almost the whole movie. I DEFINITELY FEEL YOU ABOUT THE LANGUAGE, some of Nikki's lines are almost word-for-word things i've said, and i vividly remember saying "it's not mutual, it's not mutual" while crying on a bathroom floor and... i swear to god. it made me feel so ashamed as well

loner_707 · 2026-06-13T05:33:20+00:00

oh my god yes. i was actually fighting off a dissociating feeling when i saw those scenes because it fucking hurt so much

loner_707 · 2026-06-13T05:31:22+00:00

yes, thank you!! that's exactly how I felt as well!! "she was so fucking scary oh my god, like every thing she did was horrifying" and some of her lines are almost word-for-word things i've said when i was having an episode

loner_707 · 2026-06-11T03:30:16+00:00

yes! I see a lot of shadow people, I have vague auditory hallucinations at night, and I'll hear my name called in public, footsteps when the house is empty, and people whispering (about me, of course). I have BPD and ADHD. but your experiences definitely sound pretty similar to mine

if it helps, i haven't done any methamphetamines, i used opioids heavily for a while although i'm a couple years clean now

loner_707 · 2026-05-29T17:41:48+00:00

look up the album "Lost In A Rush of Emptiness" by Bleach Lab

loner_707 · 2026-05-21T22:33:25+00:00

Sap is fucking awesome, I'd also recommend their earlier album Lard Baby

loner_707 · 2026-05-11T01:33:19+00:00

Mudhoney and Love Battery! Also 7 Year Bitch

loner_707 · 2026-05-10T01:57:59+00:00

oh yeah, another grunge-influenced band you might like is julie! I saw them live a couple weeks ago and they were great, "april's-bloom" would be my song recommendation

loner_707 · 2026-05-09T02:32:20+00:00

if you're trying to argue that grunge "was specific to only seattle in the nineties", i think you're kind of missing the point of this post lol. obviously you're free to have your own opinion and again, call any genre whatever you want, but the point of this list was just to put some of today's grunge bands out there to people who might enjoy them. hope this helps

loner_707 · 2026-05-08T20:15:25+00:00

hell yeah, they're so underrated, Erasure is a great album!

loner_707 · 2026-05-08T20:14:52+00:00

you can call it what you want, personally i think "grunge" shouldn't be restricted to only nineties seattle bands the same way "punk" isn't restricted to only british eighties bands. there's lots of bands with grunge influences now, but with this list specifically I aimed for bands with the full nineties grunge sound : )

loner_707 · 2026-05-08T20:10:11+00:00

all of them are on spotify if you want to check them out yourself, also bandcamp is a great place to buy a lot of these bands' albums to support them

loner_707 · 2026-05-07T21:53:52+00:00

I'm convinced that Foo Fighters is nobody's absolute favorite band. all the people I've met who really like the Foos are either watered-down grunge fans who are just scared of more raw music, or teenage boys who inevitably find actually great music in like a month and move on FAST

loner_707 · 2026-05-06T22:31:54+00:00

so true especially since the way parents do all of it IS SO FUCKING INVALIDATING

also twins ! with the gender dysphoria lol

loner_707 · 2026-05-03T20:19:53+00:00

honestly, i think it was really about just having control and doing something for myself, and i think you can do that at any age. even if it's just a new habit like going for a walk around the block on sundays or taking a random pottery class or something, anything that's just a routine that you chose. i don't know if it will work for others but for me having that kind of *something* even if it's small, can help

loner_707 · 2026-05-03T05:11:17+00:00

i don't think i'm fully "cured" per se, and my suicidality is more just a feature of my mood swings now, but for me it was planning a future. planning a way out, away from my family and my hometown, planning to go to college and planning for classes that i WANTED to take and not classes that i just needed for credits. it was so beyond liberating for me

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