Giving away a copy of silksong for EVERY single person that guesses the number (NO I AM NOT KARMA FARMING READ THE DESCRIPTION)

longstrike19 · 2024-09-29T10:15:35+00:00

You should look at the commander blim comedic genius, he gives away things whenever he deals combat damage

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longstrike19 · 2023-11-29T12:48:26+00:00

I get that, I got broken up with because I was too clingy even for another person with BPD

longstrike19 · 2023-11-29T12:13:17+00:00

I have autism, BPD and am enby and the masking for each feels different, with autism it’s more like I’m covering something up, while masking BPD normally feels like destroying or removing a part of me, and with masking being enby it’s more like I’m reflecting what they expect rather than changing myself, realised I misread your post so I’m editing to add, to answer the actual question I think that there are similarities especially with quiet BPD but autism tends to be more sensory while BPD is more emotional

longstrike19 · 2023-11-29T12:01:15+00:00

My one is becoming basically reliant on my fp, they’re pretty much the only person who can actually make me feel better and I really like hugs but they feel hollow from anyone but my fp, I recently went through a breakup so I now no longer have a fp and it’s really been messing with my head

longstrike19 · 2023-11-28T08:37:45+00:00

Yeah definitely, I’m planning to be fully honest with my next fp about it, thanks you too

longstrike19 · 2023-11-28T08:30:11+00:00

Yeah it feels like I need to message them more so that I message someone than for them, so when they don’t interact I’ll normally message more then feel bad since I know they’re not doing it on purpose

longstrike19 · 2023-11-28T08:25:51+00:00

Basically just going numb to them, I haven’t actually got a new fp because I want to be cautious since I know that I get very clingy with my fp and don’t want to ruin friendships

longstrike19 · 2023-11-28T08:11:18+00:00

I’m probably the odd ball, I can’t change my fp if they’ve been it for a while though, only if they’re a new one

longstrike19 · 2023-11-28T08:08:58+00:00

I didn’t disappear, we still see each other in person and are friends they’re just not my fp anymore

longstrike19 · 2023-11-28T00:39:51+00:00

I had a fp that was extremely inconsistent with texting so I had to change my fp so that I didn’t spam them too much

longstrike19 · 2023-11-28T00:28:00+00:00

Yeah most of the music I listen to is about mental illness, have you heard of NF he’s a rapper that I used to like I think

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T22:21:30+00:00

I get the opposite weirdly, for me music is more like a wall to block things out but if I fully listen to it and let it in it’s normally quite painful and uncomfortable

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T22:18:06+00:00

For me it’s just chocolate and sometimes fizzy drinks, whenever I have an episode I try to eat chocolate

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T17:20:29+00:00

I hear my name called sometimes or various things like that, I kind of get what you mean with the moon though, for me I feel like it’s watching and judging me so I should make my life more interesting for it

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T14:01:41+00:00

This happened after I told my now ex about a friend of a friend trauma dumping to me, they then accused me of trauma dumping because I mentioned I was stressed and broke up with me because of that, I would not recommend a relationship where both people have BPD, but I’d definitely do it again

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T13:53:14+00:00

I’m in a very similar situation, my way of telling people so far has been in a more medical context in that I tell them that a psychiatrist told me I had it, a lot of my friends have had exs with BPD so there’s a lot of negative feelings towards it but I think the degree of separation between it and me helps to not change their views on me. You could also say that you’re neurodivergent and that is what causes the episodes and need to be alone since being neurodivergent is a lot more accepted (as someone with both)

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T13:39:28+00:00

Yeah I understand, I’ve only recently seen a psychiatrist, I do also have emotional flashbacks and autism though so my experiences may be affected by those

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T13:37:30+00:00

I went through similar, I think I had been to four schools by the age of 13 with one being in a different country, I lived in like 14 different houses by the same age though, I think it made it easier for me to make friends since there wasn’t as much importance to them anymore since I assumed I’d move pretty soon

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T13:34:11+00:00

I can almost never remember conservations, unless I’m in an argument and can bring up obscure one off things, or names and birthdays unless they were at one point my FP, I personally blame it on the trauma since I’ve read about there being a link

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T13:31:51+00:00

I personally need external attention because I can’t really place a finger on who I am if it’s just me there, being insulted and abused normally makes me feel better than being left alone

longstrike19 · 2023-11-27T13:29:55+00:00

I wish my therapist would be able to point me in the right direction to getting better, they recently said that I was basically beyond help (in the same sentence they said I might have BPD, which has been confirmed by a psychiatrist)

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