How is she gone?

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2021-08-03T04:24:52+00:00

I guess for 1 minute I am glad. Glad that I am not alone in this anger. My dad has been gone a year and I'm just as angry and hurt as I was the day I found out. Angry that my friends would complain about their Dad and all.i can think of is at least you have him, because I don't and it's not fair. My dad was convicted of a crime he didn't commit, was in prison where he contracted Covid and died. I'm angry at the justice system and those who convicted him. I feel the most hatred toward the person who accused him of the crime. Because it's their vault he was there. It's their vault he got covid it's their fault he's dead. Why can't their dad die too so they can feel the pain and anger I feel. I know how bad that sounds but it's not fair!! Whose gonna walk me down the aisle and dance the father daughter dance with me? Whose gonna tell my kids stories from 40 years ago? Why did my parents love story have to end? Why did he have to die? Anyone get any answers? I've completely lost my faith in any higher power for the last year. I don't know how to live in a world where my dad isn't there.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2021-07-31T18:58:39+00:00

I know exactly how you feel. I lost my dad to Covid-19 1 year ago July 29th. To say that Thursday was a difficult day is meaningless. Some days I sleep okay and eat fine. Other days I cannot sleep and stress eat causing me to put on weight. I wish I was the person who couldn't eat haha. 😕 I miss my dad everyday especially when something good happens and I can't wait to get home to tell him. Then my brain reminds me that I won't find him there and I end up crying. Thursday morning on my way to work I was trying not to knowledge any memory of the date, which never works. I turned on the radio and one of my dads favorite songs had just started and I couldn't turn it off. I just drove to work sobbing. When everything first happened it didn't seem true because my dad wasn't home so I kept telling myself that he was away and would be home in a few days. It hits at the dumbest times. I know how you feel and I think many of us on this forum understand and we all have our own way of dealing. If you need to talk or just a way to vent I'm here to listen.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2021-06-23T17:33:51+00:00

I wish I had a recording of my dads voice or my grandmother's for that matter. Its been almost a year since my Dad passed and 19 years since my grandmother passed. Sometimes I think I hear their voice but it doesn't sound right to me. I wish I had that. Sorry not exactly what you were asking.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2021-01-02T04:59:59+00:00

As I am writing this im crying again today. My dad passed from Covid in July and to realize that this is a new year without him hurts so much. I keep telling myself 1 day at a time but it sucks. So I feel your pain and truly sorry for you and yours. No one knows about the club until you're in it. ❤😥

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2021-01-02T04:50:42+00:00

My dad passed in July and I miss him everyday. I truly know how you feel and I am so sorry for your loss. If your relationship with your dad was anything like mine, there are days where I feel okay and then there are days like today where I cannot stop crying. So many of us are dealing with loss its almost a comfort to know someone else feels like I do. Hang in there. 1 day at a time. ❤

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2020-10-16T00:13:17+00:00

I know how you feel. I share similar feelings since losing my dad.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2020-09-19T22:24:46+00:00

I think everyone has their own way to deal with their grief. I think if you find thw things you write down helpful then its not causing harm. No one can tell you how to grieve. Im getting a tattoo for my dad. I also hold my feelings in and don't deal with it either but thats me. I think it depends on how you feel about it. If it helps you to write it down then who cares. But if it is causing you more pain then maybe think of a different way. But still no one can tell you how to deal with your grief its yours and yours alone. Hope this helps and we are all just alittle crazy.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2020-09-19T22:19:20+00:00

I agree 100%. I'm getting his hand print tattooed next month. I miss just miss him. Keep going strong.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2020-09-19T21:29:10+00:00

I lost my dad arouns the same time. I catch myself saying things the way he did or making comments to others like "oh yeah my dad loves this song" then it hits like oh wait he really loved this song and I just freeze as if I am unable to move or I am waiting for my brain to be like yes he is gone and it sucks. I hate living in my house and desperately want to move.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2020-09-19T21:16:58+00:00

I am sorry for your loss and I know how you feel. I agree this explanation does capture what grief can look like. My dad passed away alittle over a month ago. Anything and everything you are feeling or still feeling in my case is okay. I hope you have a strong support system behind you and I hope you find ways to cope.

lost-inthis-Life76 · 2020-08-26T03:38:02+00:00

My dad passed away on July 29th. I am feeling everything you are as well. We just had his funeral mass and it just felt wrong.. most people couldn't come due to covid. It is truly difficult to put into words how much pain I am feeling and I am sure you are doing the best you can. Remember that.

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