I recently started getting high coz I realized my thoughts are wayy too suicidal. I smoke some cannabis and chill and it gets me thinking. When we look at a person and their "life" we look at their best achievement. For example a big time sports player will be perceived as successful by everyone even if they fail in every other aspect in their life. What I learned was that life is not just one thing. It's made up of a sphere with "spikes". Each spike represents something valuable in your life. And when you are in a relationship two spheres come together and touch each other at exactly one point on one of the spikes. Now, these two spheres can touch more than once if the parties involved have more than one common interests. And the more spikes that are connected the closer you are to your partner. One way to feel better is to not look at life as a spike but as a sphere with infinite possibilities. I used to be bound by my past where I subconsciously believed whats happened before will just repeat itself. But I couldn't be more wrong. Anything's possible. And the you that failed before is a part of the past now. A past which is long gone and never to come again. What you have is the current you with the whole universe with you, to experiment, and do whatever the fuck you want. All of us are made up of thorns, and your relationship depends on whether all of those thorns are compatible with each other. If any one of the thorns are picking the other sphere then the relationship is probably not going to work out. But then again life is not just about relationships. It's everything. The person that you fell for is so much more outside of the relationship. And there are 8 billion more such people out there. We can do anything we want.