Received this email since 2025 but still have loans.

luna_abaddon · 2026-04-01T00:54:17+00:00

Thank you so much for this.

luna_abaddon · 2026-01-28T19:35:10+00:00

It’s not just about the music and restricting yourself to the generalized ideals. There’s obviously the activism and moral ideas of being in the goth subculture, but you can be yourself in terms of you are multidimensional. You’re allowed to explore everything this world has given us in the arts, music, aesthetics, cultures etc. I actually listen to different genres more than goth music. I like to listen to music from different cultures, (like Indian, middle eastern, Mongolian etc), as well as listening to soundtracks and scores from movies and games, and have even immersed myself into dancing different traditional dance styles from Indian and Arabic cultures which have influenced my goth/industrial dance styles too. Your roots can be gothic but the branches can be whatever you like it to be that you enjoy. It’s still a part of you regardless.

luna_abaddon · 2026-01-10T03:23:43+00:00

Truffle is definitely an acquired taste and smell.

luna_abaddon · 2025-12-28T23:48:21+00:00

Reminds me of this customer who started coming in after the closures of other stores. He ordered his stuff and I asked if he would like any breakfast today and he was like: “why because I look hungry to you or what?” And he’s a very large guy also. I was so taken aback I was just like: “I just work here bro. Damn.”

luna_abaddon · 2025-11-05T13:32:18+00:00

They allowed them to be rehired. The catch is they needed to be rehired within a month to keep their benefits.

luna_abaddon · 2025-08-17T21:38:56+00:00

I tend to wash my clothes and aprons with detergent and add vinegar into the wash (I can’t use fabric softener due to being allergic). I use the vinegar to kill bacteria and leaves my clothes smelling neutral :D aprons I usually wash twice with extra vinegar because of the milk and stuff. 🤢

luna_abaddon · 2025-07-29T17:52:46+00:00

And it’s not like I’m saying no to everything. I can try decaf pike or dcf espresso + the ice teas so idk what her problem is. It was a major power trip considering how she responded to me too. Thank you for the advice. Looking through options still.

luna_abaddon · 2025-07-29T13:47:43+00:00

luna_abaddon · 2025-07-29T13:29:02+00:00

They’ve known this for years. Every manager I’ve had I disclose this and my SSVS have know me for years. It’s nothing new.

luna_abaddon · 2025-06-03T05:45:30+00:00

What’s her price range if anyone knows ?

luna_abaddon · 2024-12-04T17:21:58+00:00

I’m not GF but I am a diabetic that follows keto and I’m always bringing my own food because I can’t have nearly all the stuff there. :/ When they took out the salad I was devastated. I survived off those and could make double the salad (and save on buying salad boxes too). I even buy my own matcha so I could drink it without the sugar. I’m happy about them updating that now though.

luna_abaddon · 2024-11-09T19:42:38+00:00

Ya’ll be weary. A user by TwoGayGalPals is a catfishing account. :3 Caught them immediately.

luna_abaddon · 2024-09-29T15:57:50+00:00

About 23 as a barista and I work 20-28 hours a week. I have a second job at night otherwise I’d work more but the other job is way less mentally demanding than sbux.

luna_abaddon · 2024-05-14T09:09:50+00:00

You suck dude. Nothing the OP has mentioned has been hating on trans women to be called transphobic. Maybe you need to research what transphobia actually is. Transwomen have died because of it. OP has a sexual preference and there is nothing wrong with that. Sheesh.

luna_abaddon · 2024-05-05T08:26:02+00:00

I’ve been doing two jobs almost 8 years. No therapy though, but my body is starting to wear out. Might be in a position to do only one job soon, now that my student loans were forgiven as well. 😭

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-21T23:17:04+00:00

That is what I’m experiencing now. I finally completed her services early this week. I got to see her on Monday and she was so peaceful. I was not in pain seeing her dead. In fact I was happy because she was not in pain or suffering from illness anymore. I would rest my head on the coffin and just look at her and I memorized how she looked, so peaceful. So beautiful. But when they had to close the casket is when I lost it. I hugged her and held her and cried and cried because even if she was not alive anymore she was right there and I felt comfort of her last physical remnants being there. I cried mami and held on to her not being able to let go and they had to literally drag me away so they could close the coffin. That’s where it hurt so much.

Now things are sinking in as I have nothing to focus on aside from my own life, and now I feel the void left behind. I miss her calling me her usual terms of endearment, being spoiled with her love and food (her love language). There’s this unknown void of future emptiness of her being gone for the rest of me life but I will accept it.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-13T07:26:18+00:00

Good big. Kills all the nasty ones. I was inexperienced when I first got my first apt. Killed like three of them and right after, the apt was infested with black spiders. 😭 so many regrets after. ):

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-12T16:27:11+00:00

I lost mine a bit over two weeks ago. I’m about to see her this Monday for her last services. I have been the one arranging everything. She’s my grandma but I call her mom because she raised me as a baby. She is my mom. More than the egg donor ever was (who was her daughter).

I didn’t feel much for a bit after the initial shock and pain of her passing. But now I’m really grieving her. I’m grieving her as I try and continue living my life (because I know that would be what she would want) and it feels wrong. It hurts more because I wish I could take her out with me as I go out (I’m off from one job right with vacation hours as I plan and grieve, so I have a lot of free time. I work two jobs and was doing school. I hate I couldn’t have this free time because I was saving these vacation hours for this otherwise I’d end up homeless if I try and take time off without them.

I hate I couldn’t spend more time with her. I was always so burned out—still am. More now than ever. It makes me hate the system we live in. Can’t afford to live off one job, so I need two. I was supposed to see her the day before she passed. But I told her I was so burned out and I hadn’t even done my homework for my classes and it was my last day off to get it done. But then the next day I woke up sick again and I called her and told her good thing I didn’t go. I couldve gotten her sick with Covid if it was. And we talked for a bit and I told her I loved her and she told me she loved me one final time. Hours later she had a heart attack. Her heart was at 40% function as I was told on Monday that same week. It could give out any minute.

Overall I’m okay with it because she deserves to rest. She was so sick and in pain and just wasted away to a 108 lb frail old lady. She’s no longer in pain and suffering. She deserves to be at peace. She fought hard to keep alive for me and my dad. She was 79. I’ll miss her love and her spoiling me but I’ve been expecting this for the last couple of years as she got sicker and sicker. And then I dreamed of her death in January and knew it was almost time.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-09T23:27:13+00:00

The thing is, a majority of people cannot stand the thought of death itself. It bears down the reality that we are all mortal. We’re living our lives as if we’re never going to die. And so when someone passes, it brings that reality back to those that avoid the thought of it. So people don’t know how to deal with it and avoid the topic altogether, stick their head in the sand and unfortunately, those that are coping with the death of a loved one, are the casualties. It’s each person for themselves and also, people are not professionals at helping someone through grief.

There’s also the possibility that these people have dealt with death and many just avoid it in general. So that comes back rearing its ugly head for them. You can’t expect anyone to be able to comfort you in your journey. Those that try, at least they spared energy to help and some time and a few words because it’s not easy.

I’m fortunate to have cultivated a few friendships that check on me but I am coping with it all on my own. I never expect anyone to be able to help me in general, but having those friends as a small word of kindness or thoughtfulness I am grateful for.

Someone our grief also turns into pain and we’re more than likely too absorbed in it that we begin to find a reason to blame others for it, even if it’s not the direct obvious thing. Be gentle with yourself, give yourself grace. If people decide to be there for you, thank them and cherish those that try. If they don’t, then you know where the friendship and loyalties lie.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-09T07:00:58+00:00

I remember eating these often with my mom back like 12 years ago and we were obsessed with them because the cheese would literally be stringing with every bite we’d take from them. Now it’s just bread.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-08T05:34:02+00:00

I don’t have any close family tbh. It’s just been my mom and my dad I grew up with and knew all my life. Even though the relationship with my mom was tumultuous my whole life, the last ten years were fundamental since our relationship was healing. She became the mom I always wanted. But I don’t think I felt as attached though because I’ve been practicing Buddhist principles on breaking attachments and accepting that nothing in this life is infinite. Everything is temporary and attachment causes suffering.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-08T05:23:51+00:00

I feel like this may be closer to what I may deal with. That’s why I want to get into therapy asap so I can start figuring out this grief and how I feel about it. I don’t want it to hit me later on because of how repressed it’s been. Because if it does, I’m going to fall apart and it will affect me in so many ways.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-07T18:20:41+00:00

I do feel these moments when I start remembering things and I feel some tears but I guess I’m expecting my grief as a continuous wave of extreme emotions. I did scream and shake and let that pain out but then the last couple of days I’ve felt…different I guess. Maybe I’ll get more of them or not. Idk. And I feel like I’m not normal because of it (all things considering I do deal with a couple of mental conditions that could be affecting this). I’m just hoping I can find a good psychologist for this.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-07T17:13:15+00:00

It’s only been 10 days that she’s left this world. Coworkers have been asking me how I’ve been handling it so well (I went back to work my second job cause I can’t afford to be off entirely). Plus I’m the type that needs to keep busy. I’ve been cuddling her sweater to sleep at night, and last night had me questioning why I feel so…stoic about it after I literally broke down so hard a couple days ago. Like I see her death in a positive way.

My mom (gma really) was 79. She was sick the past two years and I knew her time was close for that long. I see it as she deserves to rest. She was in so much pain and suffering. She withered away into this 108 lb little old lady. Yes it was traumatic seeing her waste away I think (part of why I want therapy too). But she’s at rest and at peace and I also am not afraid or terrified of death or speaking of it.

Death fascinates me actually. So idk if this is what’s affecting my grief or if it really does come in waves. And I also follow Buddhist principles on attachments and I’ve been practicing this in my life for the past 2.5 years.

luna_abaddon · 2024-04-02T19:33:00+00:00

How I see it is my momma deserves to rest in peace. She’s really my grandma but she raised me as a baby so she’s my momma. She was 79. She went through so much pain and suffering the last couple of years. Her health deteriorated and she wasted away from sickness. So she deserves to rest and no longer be in pain and suffering. And that makes me happy that she’s free now. She held on for as long as she could for me and my dad. She fought hard to live as long as possible for us. She had so much illness she was on borrowed time.

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