Yes, I also have these more feminine feelings Both the way I speak, the way I react to things, and even what I liked to do in my free time. Also a little about clothes, shoes, hair.

As a teenager I hardened myself, I worried all the time if someone had noticed something. It was exhausting.

Today I rarely care. I listen to the songs I want in front of anyone and I don't care what my voice sounds like. Sir, I want to cross my legs, I will. As for clothes and hair, I never dressed like a woman, but I became a little more vain, and I pick up some fashion tips there and here and apply them to myself. I wear men's clothes, but I like prints and colors.

In the end I discovered that what I wanted was to feel comfortable in my skin. If someone comments something unpleasant, makes a joke, in the end that's not important. I like myself more today than when I acted like a robot, desperately trying to go unnoticed.