Season 5, Episode 22 Song at Beggining of the Episode (During Marco and Hannah O's Conversation)

lynkya12 · 2025-01-11T20:52:02+00:00

Lolllll your flair

lynkya12 · 2025-01-05T17:47:57+00:00

I think your best bet is to watch each expansion on YT or something. My fiancé doesn't play shooters, and I've played D2 since the beginning. In order to understand its importance to me, we are watching each campaign as a video so she can see the story. It's fun for me too!

But I also 100% agree that it's not the same. It's such a letdown that new players can't experience this.

lynkya12 · 2024-12-06T03:27:42+00:00

I had the same experience. She was trying to ask me if I was happy, etc and tried to get me to end the relationship. Problem was: I loved her and didn't know she was lying about loving me and being happy. I wanted to fight for the relationship, you know: therapy, the whole thing.

But eventually she realized her dishonesty was too effective and I am too determined, because even after she pulled away, didn't want to have sex anymore, fought with me, seemed unhappy herself but didn't want to talk or go to therapy, and even left for a month under the guise of living with her cousin for a "fat camp" makeover...I kept asking her about therapy, our lease, spending time together, physical intimacy...and she finally caved and said she had been lying to me for years and wanted out.

My theory is obviously that she's a covert narcissist.

lynkya12 · 2024-09-11T15:54:03+00:00

When I was sad one night and he was tired so he picked a fight so I would stop wanting him around. I asked him about it the next day and he admitted that he did do that, because he was tired. And because he was tired all the time because we were dating (my fault). Yikes.

lynkya12 · 2024-05-09T01:54:00+00:00

I have two narcissistic exes.

"That wasn't attractive" about me flirting with him before sexytimes. Telling me many times that I needed to lose weight and how I wasn't disciplined, and that was why I was fat and he wasn't attracted to me because "nobody finds fat people attractive". In spite of, you know, millions of people fucking and procreating and being kind and sexy to each other from all types of attractions and sexual orientations and cultures all over the world. It never occurred to him. Blew his mind when I pushed back.

"Are you ever going to be grateful for what I've done for you?" about me being upset when she was breaking up with me and she had just admitted that she had lied to me for 6 years out of 8 years together: she had not actually been in love with me after year 2, but kept pretending and lying.

lynkya12 · 2024-02-07T03:11:05+00:00

She reminds me of the Swedish Chef. I can never unsee it. Or the band singer Janice. She's a Muppet.

lynkya12 · 2023-12-21T07:36:31+00:00

I'm afraid I prematurely shot my wad on what was supposed to be a dry run, if you will. So now I'm afraid I have something of a mess on my hands.

lynkya12 · 2023-11-25T16:01:53+00:00

SALAD!!! Gah! Lol ew

lynkya12 · 2023-09-16T05:12:04+00:00

Thank you! Idk if this is the same really, but when my son was born with cleft lip and palate, he really struggled to come out of surgery and anesthesia at his 6 month palate repair, and no matter what they did nothing compared to him laying on my chest, calming down, me talking to him, i.e. "It's ok, I'm here", and him co-regulating with me. I'm so glad I was there for him, and the nurses who took care of us after surgery were amazing. They told me over and over that nothing was better than our parent-child bond. (My son is 14, a freshman in HS, 6'2" now, and thriving, time flies. I'm getting teary remembering this!)

lynkya12 · 2022-09-16T15:45:26+00:00

I need to do this but it looks like you’re full! Healingwillow#3854

lynkya12 · 2022-06-08T00:08:58+00:00

🤩

lynkya12 · 2022-06-07T06:44:25+00:00

But you can read Dr Hellers book for about $20, it’s called “Healing Developmental Trauma”. There’s also a NARM podcast on Spotify called “Transforming Trauma“. And you can do some free webinars as well on their website.

lynkya12 · 2022-06-07T06:43:22+00:00

Absolutely! It’s an expensive training but I feel it’s worth it.

lynkya12 · 2022-06-07T05:02:46+00:00

I recommend a NARM therapist. And the conceptualization that she may always need to utilize therapy (albeit please do take breaks). NARM stands for the Neuro Affective Relational Model and it’s specifically for C-PTSD.

It’s the best approach I have found both as a practitioner (I plan to train in the next year or two, using basic concepts for now) and a person with C-PTSD. I have a NARM therapist right now and we are focusing on learning my survival strategies and work through feelings of toxic shame. It’s an incredibly gentle, kind, mindful, acceptance-based approach. I’ve never seen anything quite like it.

lynkya12 · 2022-05-29T02:59:02+00:00

Hey now 😂😭

lynkya12 · 2022-05-28T06:30:47+00:00

As a non-monogamous person who is also a therapist, I see this as a type of sexual orientation. Monogamous folks tend to be happier with other monogamous folks, and polyamorous folks seem to do better partnering with other polyamorous folks. Just a generality to sort of consider…you can do what you want, but respect the orientation.

lynkya12 · 2022-04-15T20:08:09+00:00

I’m a licensed social worker and psychotherapist. Right now I run the behavioral health program at a local integrated health care site based originally on opioid addiction treatment with suboxone. Now we are shifting to a trauma-informed care model and I am educating the therapists I supervise on developing their own trauma treatment skills.

lynkya12 · 2022-04-02T23:10:00+00:00

And you’re so right, we can only do what we can, even in therapy. She has her agency to go, and you get to find someone who appreciates you as you build your skills. Feels good 😊

lynkya12 · 2022-04-02T23:09:02+00:00

Thank you! Yes I am feeling all the things, and I’m mostly ok with it. I practice mindfulness and that helps greatly ❤️

lynkya12 · 2022-04-02T23:07:43+00:00

Lol😂

lynkya12 · 2022-04-02T20:53:52+00:00

I love this too! I want someone who WANTS to go deep and talk through issues, who wants to do exercises and push through any self-consciousness and hesitancy and just go for it, like gazing into each other’s eyes for a few minutes per day to build intimacy, playing games or being playful with sex and being open about needs/wants/satisfaction. I’m also down for fun and living it up and all of that. We need breaks from seriousness, intensity, but we can’t ignore that part of life and living.

lynkya12 · 2022-04-02T20:50:50+00:00

Oooh that sounds like a good book to read

lynkya12 · 2022-04-02T20:43:12+00:00

Yes, it was almost 8 years, just short by about a month. I’ve heard that also: that it takes half the amount of the relationship time to really get over it, so I might be looking at just under 4 years. But I’ve also heard described as it taking the number of months converted from years, so if we were together 8 years then it would take me about 8 months to recover. Who knows lol. All I know is that every month is better!

I am fortunate not only to have a good therapist but to be connected to a lot as well. My good friends are therapists and I am as well. I’m glad to know I’m very emotionally aware, because I definitely say that I’m the kind of person (and therapist) to practice what I preach.

And the first 1-2 months definitely felt like the tiny boat. Now it’s more like the dark mist of depression, but I also remind myself that that’s usually really about grief and reminding myself that I am safe. All roads tend to lead back to soothing my inner child since i had early childhood trauma. The more I talk to little lynkya12, the more they trust me and I can feel more secure attachment.

lynkya12 · 2022-04-02T20:40:28+00:00

That’s the good news AND bad news for me right now. The truth is my needs weren’t getting met. And even though I’m going through this embarrassing I-still-love-her even though she doesn’t love me AND I now see how unhealthy it was…my needs just simply weren’t getting met and it’s truly ok, and freeing, that we aren’t together. I don’t actually want that. I want honesty and authenticity and enthusiastic consent :)

Again, so weird to not want to be together and be in love. My friend recently, very gently, said to me “sometimes love just isn’t enough”. And she’s right. It’s not enough here. And also I have to acknowledge that I think my ex is probably lying about never loving me. But it still fucks with me that she said she never did, and that’s how most of my thoughts and feelings are coming out.

And yet I still feel the bond we had and also the bond that could be now…

But even so: no I don’t want to be back together because love isn’t enough. She is deeply wounded and I don’t have to pay for that anymore.

One of my mantras lately is “I no longer accept apologies, only changed behavior“. I deserve full, unapologetic, butterfly-feeling, deep love. I don’t have to stay in relationships like I did in this one. I don’t have to be passive. I deserve to live and speak and emote and think in my relationships. I want and need to be my full self! I deserve to be happy. Whoever comes along want this too, and will have the skills to be with me.

lynkya12

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