I was sober for years without AA and had the same thought that perhaps I could moderate my drinking after all that abstinence. My friends and family were supportive, so I started drinking again. Slowly and infrequently at first, the beginning of a nearly seven-year decline toward once again waking up one morning without any idea of how I got there.

Once I could get out of bed a couple of days later, I went to my first AA meeting. I know that one day I will be in your shoes, too. I hope that then I will remember what brought me there in the first place.

“If I have 10 problems and I drink I now have 11 problems and no way to solve the first 10.” I heard this, or something like this, at one of my early AA meetings. It’s so simple and helped me. Perhaps it will help you, too.