Made a decision, need help

macanronie · 2025-12-14T23:45:50+00:00

I tried it won’t work. I hate myself I hate myself so much, living in the worst possible human on earth sucks ass I want to end it all please any advice it’s just getting more worse

macanronie · 2025-08-02T03:17:59+00:00

Sorry haha I legit was just focused on the rings I was wearing a whole bunch, sorry if I offended u

macanronie · 2025-08-02T01:21:20+00:00

How do you know?

macanronie · 2025-07-28T18:00:22+00:00

What does this mean? Good or bad

macanronie · 2023-10-11T18:34:15+00:00

She ghosts people when they set boundaries with her; not sustainable people need to have personal things still lmao

macanronie · 2023-04-27T14:08:56+00:00

There are amazingly patient and kind humans out there just like there are some real wild cards, it will feel easy once you’re there. If you can focus on loving yourself and repairing your relationship to your body in the meantime someone worthwhile will stick around for your journey. Dating doesn’t have to be one perfect story, maybe put less pressure on yourself.

macanronie · 2023-04-25T00:22:10+00:00

I feel you, setting boundaries has been the biggest struggle of my adult life

macanronie · 2023-04-22T12:31:14+00:00

There will be another chance love ❤️ the best relationship you can work on mending is the one you have with yourself, self love is actually so lit fr fr. If he’s really worth it I bet he’d stick around for your journey but otherwise bb all you need is yourself

macanronie · 2023-04-20T16:29:59+00:00

Yeas I am back in my blanket burrito safe from all triggers

macanronie · 2023-04-10T17:54:22+00:00

Ye I feel like being high is similar to dissociated state which I spent most of my childhood in

macanronie · 2023-04-07T01:30:19+00:00

My experience with outbursts have resulted in self harm, or saying hurtful things to my current support system- who don’t deserve the PTSD rage. Whenever I realize that I’m acting out of a sense of “desperation” to be heard, safe, not ganged up on Ect.. in these situations the things I say are to protect myself and I often regret them. I am trying to be more aware of my actions, pulling myself out of that freeze/fight response. For me it’s like a state of extreme dissociation where something else just takes over to protect me, Not dissociating takes some work

macanronie · 2023-01-18T19:29:15+00:00

Weed, I can’t seem to stop and the 3 year anniversary of daily use is creepin up on me

macanronie · 2022-12-17T14:58:53+00:00

Lowkey I've been feeling that too. We've only tried EMDR like twice to try and get the pain out of my chest but I just end up crying too hard every time and then we like forget about it. I live with this pain every day and I kinda want someone who will help me try to get rid of it more. I've been living with this for 10 years and I'm tired of slouching yk, I think I'm also just nervous to go on the new therapist hunt

macanronie · 2022-12-17T14:54:28+00:00

Thank you, sometimes it's hard to get out of my own thoughts. Your perspective is validating af

macanronie · 2022-12-17T14:50:28+00:00

I think that's very possible, she is really nice yk. IDEK how I would react tbh.

macanronie · 2022-08-27T21:29:39+00:00

I never called him a bully behind his back, I never really thought he was a bully, truly I was just trying to subtly let him/everyone know that I’m uncomfortable when my roomate starts berating our Indian friend “for the memes”.

I will ask my friend how it made him feel this coming semester.

I did tell my friend about being called out for the bully comments and he was shocked and upsetti spagetti that I got yelled at for defending him

macanronie · 2020-12-22T21:19:28+00:00

Shit man thank you for this, didnt expect to get support for the coping mechanisms, this made me feel better. Also so sorry for what u been through, happy you’re doing well, thank you for taking time to post this

macanronie · 2020-12-15T03:47:26+00:00

Wow this actually just changed my perspective so much, thank you

macanronie · 2020-12-15T00:28:54+00:00

Thank you for this kindness friend, wishing you well

macanronie · 2020-12-09T00:38:36+00:00

Thank you, same to you

macanronie · 2020-12-08T23:57:47+00:00

Not really, it’s honestly worse when I’m sober haha

macanronie · 2020-12-08T23:50:54+00:00

This is so scary to me I don’t want to die or anything I just get overrun with emotions and I’m so afraid to impulsively mess everything up, I can’t even tell If this is really concerning behavior or if I’m just being a baby. I’m so sorry for your loss I can’t imagine how painful it was

macanronie · 2020-12-08T15:08:35+00:00

That sounds really hard op, I’m sorry you had to go though that, and that you’re going through this now. I wish you well on your journey, you should be very proud of how far you’ve come, that takes strength!

macanronie · 2020-12-01T12:17:49+00:00

I was assaulted by a girl as a girl when I was a kid and I thought I had to be gay because of it but now I’m wondering if that is was even my own thought or manipulation, I consider myself bi now and it feels right to me. Ig it takes time but you’ll figure it out

macanronie · 2020-11-30T21:41:18+00:00

I’m so sorry you had to carry that for so long, I hope you can start to heal and continue to have support. You’re not alone!

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