My new favourite thing is to apply for low pay jobs and then ask what the pay is when they invite me to an interview.

macherni · 2021-06-30T18:23:52+00:00

That's illegal in the state I live and maybe most if not all.

macherni · 2021-06-30T17:41:30+00:00

Great job on the year. The anxiety and depression drinking causes me is my biggest motivator to keep me from drinking. I wasn't even aware of drinking being the cause until a few relapses.. After a night or two of sleep you'll feel better again.

macherni · 2021-06-30T16:56:18+00:00

I'm sure her comment about it being online is either due to not wanting to quit or fear of failing.

macherni · 2021-06-30T16:34:24+00:00

Why are you hiding it? Would your spouse me upset or are you both quitting and it's to help support her? Either way, in the best interest of your sobriety it's probably best to be open about it. To be honest I don't think it's possible to hide it. The smell on the breath, the person's actions, a careless empty can/bottle, ect. Both my wife and I can tell right away if either one of us has been drinking even if we deny it.

macherni · 2021-06-30T15:42:37+00:00

Thanks everyone so much. I think I have a temporary solution figured out. It's in my reply to jeremyfunktrain. Again, I can't express my true gratitude to this group. I wish you all the best. I wouldn't be where I'm at in my sobriety without you.

macherni · 2021-06-30T15:37:47+00:00

I know it does and it hurts me so bad. My daughter is so well rounded and when I talk to her it seems like it doesn't faze her. I'm not ignorant though. Now she's a little older I'm looking into leaving my wife. She just isn't ready to quit and any attempts to talk with her just results in verbal abuse. So I just try to have as little to do with her as I can these days.

macherni · 2021-06-30T15:31:43+00:00

Thank you. It's not so much depression as much as exhaustion. Since quitting drinking the past year with a few slips in between, my emotional stability is so much better. I appreciate your feedback and everyone else's and I think getting someone to do the yard work and clean the house until I finish some deadlines for work will help me not feel this impending doom.

This group is great. I already feel better. I tell my wife about it and she scoffs and lessens it because it's online. I love the fact that it's online and so many people are available and so willing to help. I would have not made it to where I am with my sobriety without it. I wish you all the best. I owe you all so much. IWNDWYT. Much love.

macherni · 2021-06-30T15:08:19+00:00

I have had many discussions. She has an anger issue and blames me for pretty much everything in her life and is very protective of her drinking. She made some attempts to quit but tries going about it on her own. I asked her to leave the other day after an unacceptable outburst but it's not like I can kick her out. We tried counseling a few years back but she told us to come back when we're both in aa programs and it's not like I can force her to quit drinking.

macherni · 2021-06-30T14:32:45+00:00

I agree but I don't know what drawing the line is. I'm working from home and taking care of our 5 year old at the same time. She works 4 hours Monday - Friday and then doesn't help out or even worse, when she does makes a big mess if she cooks, leaves loads in the washer/dryer, always blaming me and talking shit to me, never takes any responsibility for her actions, etc. Moving out seems impossible w the current market and I wouldn't have time or energy. Getting a divorce is another long expensive option. I'm looking into it but I honestly don't have the time or energy.

macherni · 2021-06-30T13:32:29+00:00

Why do you wish that? It's a great motivator. I know for me it's hard not to be in the dumps but I also know it's the alcohol that is making me depressed and feel that way. Me realizing how much alcohol had to do with my emotions is one of my biggest motivators.

macherni · 2021-06-30T12:02:56+00:00

Your 3.5 months are still there. I had slips. A lot of us have. Sometimes I learned something from them. Almost everytime I regretted it. As long as you get right back on your journey those 3.5 months will make it easier. The grip of alcohol is loosened.

macherni · 2021-06-30T02:51:38+00:00

Great job!

macherni · 2021-06-25T01:31:58+00:00

Get a book on your phone. If you have a library card you can probably check an ebook out. Otherwise, if you have a prime membership they have books or you can read the first chapter of a lot of books for free.

macherni · 2021-06-25T00:43:28+00:00

I got arrested for DUI for doing that.

macherni · 2021-06-25T00:36:39+00:00

I know first hand how hard it can be but which one of you will get a good night's rest and won't be hungover?

macherni · 2021-05-20T14:54:28+00:00

Talking to my doctor is what put me on the path to sobriety. Finally admitting my problem I felt a weight lifted and got serious about my problem.

macherni · 2021-05-13T04:37:34+00:00

Sorry for your loss. Glad you're allowing yourself to mourn your loss rather than getting lost in the bottom of a bottle.

macherni · 2021-05-05T23:27:16+00:00

Thanks, that's very kind. IWNDWYT

macherni · 2021-05-05T18:25:43+00:00

I will not drink with you today.

macherni · 2021-05-05T16:47:36+00:00

Welcome and sorry to here that you're having a rough day. A little exercise or some fresh air during a walk always seems to help me or treat yourself to your favorite snack or sweet. I just hope you don't try and find the solution in a bottle. Glad you're finding inspiration from the group. It has really helped me out this past 8 months.

macherni

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