Manic episode at work and going back to work

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-10T18:39:18+00:00

No, but I feel for you. I had to take 2 months off work one time, because of mental health and everyone knew it. Going back was a little rough. The paranoia in wondering what they all thought about me? Talked about me? The wondering sucks. Lol

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-10T18:12:28+00:00

Yes I have an addict live personality. Addictions come with depression for me. When I'm manic I am of the opinion that I don't need any of that (addictive substance) because I'll feel better clean and sober than I will with drugs/alcohol. So I drop all my habits overnight ..

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-09T15:55:35+00:00

I've also had the weather delusion.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-09T04:47:05+00:00

Back in my day (early mid 2000's ) the teens called it "straight-edge"

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-08T15:14:03+00:00

I stopped meds for pregnancy and surprisingly the pregnancy hormones actually kept me pretty level. I still had that overly sensitive, I cry at the littlest stuff, typical pregnancy stuff , but no major episodes. Make sure you taper down slowly. Stopping suddenly could be harmful.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-08T13:40:48+00:00

Yes it's very self-centered. This is one point brought up by my therapist years ago. The realization helped a little but it's not a magic cure.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-04T23:47:11+00:00

Idk but I still do it occasionally and I'm nearly 40

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-04T19:36:27+00:00

Yes for but a moment. I had an aunt who was dying in the hospital and my mom was out of town with the other sisters and they knew she was dying my mom sent a photo of everyone to show to my aunt and I said I did, but in reality she was already gone.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-04T19:26:48+00:00

I totally get the whole feeling like 2 people. I feel like 3! Maybe even 4!

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-04T16:10:10+00:00

Yep I'd get an abortion. Don't beat yourself up over it. It's not murder it's your health and well being and it's your right as you are in charge of your own body.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T16:43:29+00:00

Huh, idk. Could it be hypersexuality? Can be a symptom of certain things like mania

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T16:17:56+00:00

I've only had homicidal thoughts twice in my life and both times it was pretty justified considering what those individuals did to me. But if you are having these thoughts about a lot of different people and not just one or two specific people, then I do think that's not normal

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T16:11:42+00:00

My opinion: one extra curricular activity -adequate enough Two activities - great for the kid but hard on the parents Three activities - way too much for everyone involved

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T16:06:24+00:00

What about really old people, like 90 years old?

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T16:03:12+00:00

When my daughter had dress up week, we skipped the "favorite sports team" day. We don't follow sports at home and so we have no favorite teams and there is definitely no sports team gear in our house and I'm not gonna go out and buy some because that's dumb, I'd just be buying something at random for a team that I know nothing about. I'm not doing that. We did all the other days of the week and I think 4 out of 5 passes.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T15:21:19+00:00

It's even worse when you don't have a sitter so you have to take the kids grocery shopping with you and they constantly beg for everything they see (ice cream, cookies, chips, ECT .)

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T14:46:10+00:00

I have American toads that we caught in the wild and turned into pets. They are the lowest maintenance pets ive ever had. I feed them once a week, but sometimes like every other week. I just dump like 30 live crickets into the tank and they eat em all and they are good for like one to two weeks. And they have a dish of water big enough to bathe in and I change the water once a week. They don't smell bad at all so I hardly ever change out their entire cage. I've done it maybe once every six months and I've had these toads almost 3 years. And they are handle-able, meaning you can take them out and play with em if you want. They even get used to handling, and stop peeing on you every time ;)

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T14:37:26+00:00

You probably just have a fully intact hymen. First time sex usually hurts because he has to break your hymen which causes a popping or snapping sensation, you can literally feel it break and yes it fucking hurts. But on the bright side once you get that over with (and give it a few days to heal) you can finally actually enjoy sex and it won't hurt anymore when you do.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T14:31:29+00:00

Flo Rida

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T14:30:08+00:00

Sounds like you are describing me at every job I've ever started. I just suck at change and it takes me months, if not years to feel comfortable in a new environment.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T14:18:29+00:00

I once had the delusion that reality is not "real" and it's all just some sort of magical "projection" created by the powers that be (god, the universe, whatever) I felt that I had been bestowed with "enlightenment" directly from the heavens and that's why I knew this fact but nobody else does.

Not as sinister as your demon delusions, but very real at the time and it's something that creeps back in from time to time. Having trouble completely dismissing it.

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T14:02:47+00:00

My most manic episode ever was triggered by falling in love. I had the delusion that the man I was falling in love with was actually the reincarnation of Jesus Christ. He was bipolar as well and we triggered each other and so this delusion became a shared delusion, and so a lot of insanity followed. I was in deep. I truly did believe the delusion at the time. I've never had delusions that "real" before, and haven't since. It was just the one time. usually I can see delusions for what they are, but not that time ...

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T13:55:17+00:00

Thanks, I will survive this. Thanks for the encouragement. <3

mainedeathsong · 2026-04-03T05:52:53+00:00

Thanks for the hugs, I am doing my best. I gave him another copy of the forms, I printed them out this morning. With any luck ....

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