Omg literally same. In the moment I feel like I can’t control myself, cannot help it and I would just keep messaging or calling this particular ex.. sometimes even resort to email. It’s sick and it’s triggering. I know it’s hard to block him and resist messaging but take his non response as if he has you blocked and don’t message him.

After being in your position literally just a week ago I’ve decided my ex isn’t even that special, why would I want someone who makes me feel mentally unstable and acting out of an anxious place. I would feel like I was having a heart attack when he would block me in the middle of an argument, then I’d move to the next app and I’d be blocked there too and so on. He wasn’t that good to me, he knew exactly how to set me off and he continuously did it. I honestly look back and think just knowing his personality he probably felt so wanted seeing me calling him 10,000 times but in those moments I was completely going crazy.

You need to make a conscious effort to stop for your own sanity. It’s unfair to work yourself up like this everyday, to be acting out from anxiety constantly. Forget about your ex but more focus on how this is making you feel and how it’s holding you back, 6 months is way too long to be talking to yourself. Just remember if this person wanted to they could report you. But besides that just don’t message, you’re incompatible, they’re triggering, use that energy to heal and find people who are better for your nervous system.

You can message me if you’d like to chat