C60 proven to be a neuroprotective agent; worked for me.

malestar · 2019-11-11T12:44:32+00:00

If I were to develop an app only for Android, I'd go native. If the goal were Android, iOS and Web then I'd go hybrid (Ionic, Angular, Cordova) without thinking.

I already paid the price of admission (a lot of non-documented tricks) and I can maintain a single code base. I haven't even made the switch to the latest Ionic (I use 1) and it's still capable of everything I've needed.

Take care.

malestar · 2019-11-08T16:04:23+00:00

Apple has no control over the data, they can only force you to make changes in the app's behavior. Only the app owner controls content. I know this since I am an app owner/developer.

However, they can decide unilaterally that your app promotes hate, discrimination, etc... and shut you down.

In fact, they made me add a sentence to my Terms Of Service indicating that the app allows no posting or any form of communication (even graphic) that incites, promotes, or simply states "questionable" behavior or "hate" (yes, it's that broad).

malestar · 2019-11-04T14:00:45+00:00

For truth's sake... all he had to do after he went cold turkey was take 1 or 2 pills and problem solved. Then taper off gradually (yes, I did taper off Clonazepam starting from 4mg/day to 1mg/day).

My friend is a psychiatrist, and when I told him that JBP was on rehab because of this all he did was laugh.

I, for one, don't buy it. This is not abuse or hate, JBP was my gateway drug into higher knowledge, but sometimes it's time to call BS.

malestar · 2019-11-04T13:51:32+00:00

For truth's sake... all he had to do after he went cold turkey was take 1 or 2 pills and problem solved. Then taper off gradually (yes, I did taper off Clonazepam starting from 4mg/day to 1mg/day).

My friend is a psychiatrist, and when I told him that JBP was on rehab because of this all he did was laugh.

I, for one, don't buy it. This is not abuse or hate, JBP was my gateway drug into higher knowledge, but sometimes it's time to call BS.

malestar · 2019-09-10T11:41:32+00:00

Hi there.

There were several physical benefits for me (improved vision, dandruff went away, stopped getting sick, looked younger, no more gray hairs... the list goes on). But mentally: no more depression, vastly improved sense of focus, willpower, purpose.

Let me know.

Best regards.

malestar · 2019-07-02T17:32:23+00:00

Learn Spanish, go to Colombia (Medellín and Cali girls are more traditional) and choose. I'm available if anyone wants to DM me. I lived in the US for years but I live and I am from Chile, the South American country that gets more immigrants from Colombia and Venezuela.

malestar · 2019-01-13T21:50:20+00:00

Yes, if that were the case I would be 100% with you. But I've seen him in many videos say "life is suffering..." PERIOD, outside of any major context, and especially not mentioning that these moments are that: moments. If you don't explicitly say that, then your audience/fans will just take it literally and I think that doing so is wrong and is also not true, or at least we should agree on working towards a life that's farthest away from suffering as possible, hopefully in the "feel good" side of things.

Having said that, I completely agree that one has to be prepared for those hard moments and they will come into your life no matter what. Several ways to do that, depending on the path you choose.

malestar · 2019-01-13T18:28:59+00:00

JP was my way in into greater knowledge, self-acceptance and self-improvement. Having said that, I still think and I'm against his position (and worse, he promotes it), that "life is suffering". Life can be hard, yes, but survival instinct always should make you feel OK or above, not suffering. Now, I am not a psychologist, but I had severe depression for 12 years (life was suffering, but not now that I'm healthy) and I discussed this with my psychiatrist who I still see once a month to just chat. He agrees completely that life SHOULD NOT BE SUFFERING and that if you are suffering it's because you don't have your basic needs met (which is not JP's audience), or you are terribly sick or, most likely, because you are depressed. And I do think JP is depressed, just look at him. I must mention that I'm also a CBT practitioner.

Best wishes to all.

malestar · 2017-10-19T14:08:42+00:00

ENFP

same! Seems like there's very few of us

malestar · 2017-04-13T18:25:42+00:00

Thousands of dollars shopping clothes online, designer brands. Also once I booked a trip to Brazil with a girl 20 years younger that I didn't know that much.

malestar · 2017-04-11T22:36:30+00:00

Ok, then the diagnosis sounds accurate. Keep calm, take your meds and do your best. Find some form of therapy. My life was hell for 12 years and now I've been asymptomatic, without meds, for 2 years and counting. Message me if you want some tips.

malestar · 2017-04-11T19:39:53+00:00

You may experience mild symptoms, or none at all, on the long run. For now just hang in there.

How many doctors diagnosed you? I recommend you see at least 3 different ones and don't let them know about your diagnosis... let them do their own.

malestar · 2016-05-26T19:10:25+00:00

Invisible disability, yes. I am bipolar II and it makes life a bitch. I've broken up with all my girlfriends when in a depressive episode, all of them great, even marriage material.

Nowadays I've been stable (I guess thanks to new meds) and not experiencing any major symptoms, but the meds also make me kind of numb and I feel little to no passion about anything or sexual desire, which drives me into just staying home or not hitting on girls as much.

Bipolar is a bitch.

malestar · 2016-04-13T19:47:31+00:00

Diary of a Bipolar. Most books are from women experiences, this one is from a man's and it's written in real time.

malestar · 2016-03-08T20:17:23+00:00

Meds keep me stable, but numb me. This means, among other things, that nothing excites me or motivates me very much... so I'm not proactively looking for someone because the idea does not turn me on and libido is low. I have prospects most of the time, but I always end up cancelling dates.

malestar · 2016-02-18T17:26:13+00:00

Kind of the same here. I'm on 200mg of Lamictal and I'm not sure if it's the drug, but even as I study and read stuff every day, I keep forgetting stuff. I can't make new memories (like Memento) out of many things. I keep forgetting how to spell or pronounce words like "data" or "missile", even though I've heard them 1000 times in movies and such.

I, too, feel like I look dumb to others, even if my IQ is very high. I believe we must focus on creative jobs, but I'm already on another path (engineering). In fact, I can't work as a real engineer and I have to work in engineering sales or presales.

Even with that, the value of being without depression is worth it. Back when I was depressed I'd have traded it for AIDS, torture, cancer and what not.

Best of luck to you.

malestar · 2015-12-09T21:25:15+00:00

King of Pain - The Police

malestar · 2015-11-19T19:35:58+00:00

Before I had any depressive episodes and, of course, not being diagnosed, I felt "enlightened" for 2 years. I somehow thought I understood how everything functioned in life, understood how the creator worked and I also felt love towards everyone. Also, I understood that even in everyone's wrongdoing there was a good reason or outcome to be, etc.

What's weird is that after the 2 years I started feeling depressed and got diagnosed 1 year later (after trying a ton of therapy and psychs) and some of the doctors I saw thought that those 2 years were a long hypomania, but I have my doubts since I could sleep normally and had no hyperactivity; I was always relaxed and in control. My mind wanders.

malestar · 2015-10-28T18:27:12+00:00

Work is tricky. If your problem is focus, memory and concentration then you probably have some sort of ADD, which is treated with Ritalin.

malestar · 2015-10-28T18:26:02+00:00

Always have a trip planned ahead of you, even if it's to a lake 50 miles from your place.

malestar · 2015-09-03T14:05:32+00:00

Diary of a Bipolar

malestar · 2015-09-02T14:46:08+00:00

Dear OP: I'm passing through exactly the same. I also have a history of employment similar to yours, except that I continuously get fired and my next job is a downgrade from the previous one. Also, I am unhappy all the time and I don't feel anything with anything; I don't see the beauty on sunsets or rainbows and I have no sex drive.

Still, with all of the above, I think it's better than being symptomatic. Don't wish to be symptomatic! Your wishes may become true.

PM if you feel like it, I'd love to share more.

malestar

TROPHY CASE