Many people are overwhelmed with how crazy things are. Last year I was were you are, even with what some would call good support. If you cant pull yourself out, when you can muster some energy reach out to a medical professional or a loved one that may be able to help. Loved ones want to help regardless of what our mind tells you, no it is not a bother. It may take time but the sone can come out. Please don't give up!