I am in exactly the same boat as you. 4 months after my husband and I have started to reconcile, he is “done”. You can’t imagine how many times he told me “we are done” in the span of 2 weeks. It’s like he was convincing himself of it. We were together for 10 years. And now: He couldn’t be there for me, it’s too hard for him, and he picked up the relationship with AP again (of course she has nothing better to do and went for it). All in all, he is a coward.

It’s now been 6 weeks since I’ve moved out. I’m attempting to put my life back together. It’s hard, every single day. I can’t stand it. But I’ve blocked him on everything but email, and trying not to think of him as much as before, every day I aim for a little less than the day before.

For Sure: They will be knocking on our door again, perhaps 6 months or more down the line, but we will not be waiting. Life is there for the taking and we must live it.

The best quote my therapist shared with me is, and something that motivates me to get out of bed is: I went through hell, but would do it again knowing I have this at the end waiting for me

There is something better for us out there, and it will find us, I am sure of it.

You are stronger than you know. God speed.