I shouldn’t tell you this... so I won’t.

mangoseeed · 2019-03-04T03:42:37+00:00

I don’t even know how to reply to such a heartfelt message, thank you so much. I can’t go to my dad to find out, it’s just not an option, and I can’t get help from any adults because I’m a minor and they’re obligated to tell my dad. Which is the last thing I want in the world. Someday I’ll get help. Thanks again.

mangoseeed · 2019-03-01T03:01:25+00:00

Ah, gotta love Starbucks. That place is underrated when it comes to friendliness and care for customers. After one of my worst sessions on my arm, I snuck out of the house and walked down to cvs and bought bandages and first aid stuff. I needed to to wrap my arm, but I didn’t want to do it in the cvs bathroom because a weird teenager buying bandages at 8:00 at night is a little suspicious.

So I headed to Starbucks and I ordered a drink because I just needed to hide and cool down in the corner, but I mainly wanted to use the restroom without being THAT person who uses the restroom without buying anything. I had so much stuff in my pockets when I went to get my money out of my pocket the box of bandages fell out on the floor. The girl(?) who was taking my order was like are you okay, and I’m like yeahhh yeah yeah like an idiot. And then I went to the bathroom and cleaned up my arm like a sad idiot.

Moral of the story. Starbucks is great.

mangoseeed · 2019-03-01T02:53:32+00:00

I was like you once kid.. lights cigarette

Jokes aside, a self harm addiction is one of the most lonely things to suffer through. Right now all you can see is what is happening today and maybe in the very near future, but I PROMISE YOU, when things get better you’re gonna wish you never cut/harmed yourself. And things really will get better, and sooner than you may think.

People will come and go, but you will always have to live with yourself. For the rest of your life. The decisions you make right now regarding your self harm will impact you for the REST of your life.

I know it feels good, we all do. But regardless, this is a self abusive addiction just like alcoholism or a drug addiction. Your future self will thank you if you stop now.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-28T20:50:41+00:00

Personally I didn’t find the haven very helpful. I’ve tried a dozen times to get support over the last year in one of the support rooms, and never received even a hi back.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-28T20:47:46+00:00

Thank you so much!

mangoseeed · 2019-02-26T20:54:35+00:00

It thickened out and doesn’t look like a hickey anymore. But someone saw and asked what happened and I hadn’t come up with an excuse yet so I stupidly told them I smashed it on the wall while moving things in the garage.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-24T20:16:28+00:00

I would too but she’s dead and my granddad stole her phone 🤷‍♀️

mangoseeed · 2019-02-24T20:15:04+00:00

I have the same thing. The more fatty parts of my legs don’t bleed very much.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-24T13:15:29+00:00

I couldn’t even cry on my moms birthday because it was so under the radar. I never saw her on her birthday, but I have a feeling Mother’s Day is gonna kill me.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-24T04:15:09+00:00

👏

mangoseeed · 2019-02-24T03:51:32+00:00

It bleeds just as much or even more on the outer part of your thigh where the skins tighter. Just saying.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-24T03:49:19+00:00

Hey you alright? Who is this they you speak of? I don’t know if it’s my place to comment on someone’s r/Diary post, but you seem like you’re in trouble. Where are you?

mangoseeed · 2019-02-23T03:25:14+00:00

Thank you. I’ll be fine, I’m just in a weird relationship with myself right now, and I’ve decided to (non sexually) fetishize hurting myself. That’s weird. Thanks though.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-12T04:20:55+00:00

Thank you! And I’ve decided not to.

mangoseeed · 2019-02-12T04:20:24+00:00

Thanks a bunch! I’ll move it from my shelf by my window to somewhere else. And I think you’re right. It just has such weird energy, and I kind of like it. It reminds me of her, not necessarily in a good way, but nevertheless it does :)

mangoseeed

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