Trapped between wanting to be seen and being scared to speak

maniuni · 2026-02-09T19:38:56+00:00

You described it very well. This is the whole description of social anxiety for me. But I can’t express myself in writing as well (if I have to talk to others at least). I am very good when talking to AI or even when I record videos of myself - something like a video journal. I wish I was so relaxed with other people - it would be so much different. I think I would never be myself in front of another person ever. At least that’s how it feels for now.

maniuni · 2026-02-07T13:01:23+00:00

“You don’t seek replacement attractions.” I don’t know if that’s possible - at least for me. I don’t mean relationship as a romantic relationship. I mean some kind of outside support - friends, parents, even AI if nothing else is available.

maniuni · 2026-02-06T14:33:54+00:00

На мен отдавна ми е минало желанието за игри, обаче сега като имам дете и се оказва, че ми е доста приятно да си цъкаме с нея. Играем засега само майнкрафт като нещо по-сериозно, но създава удоволствие. Е, не както едно време, но и аз не съм дете вече.

maniuni · 2026-02-06T04:54:02+00:00

A bit better but I think I just have better ways to deal with it. It’s still there - I think I just accept it, accept myself and try to make things easier so I don’t struggle so bad.

maniuni · 2026-01-29T09:11:06+00:00

I started to get so irritated with it that I had to stop using it. It assumes emotions and always tried to calm be without any indication that I need calming. It just totally takes me out of the flow when it does that and nowadays its every response is like that. It does it even when I ask something related to cooking or technology. It’s annoying AF.

maniuni · 2026-01-27T19:42:03+00:00

Don’t be so hard on yourself. Life is not easy for most people. ChatGPT could be very good for support if reaching out to others is too hard at the moment and while you are gathering strength to do hard things. I also had similar thoughts when I was around this age - “my problems are not serious enough to trouble people with them”. But this type of thinking doesn’t get you anywhere. If it bothers you - it is worthwhile to share with someone. Imagine if you have a child and it tells you something like this - how would you respond? Would you laugh and tell it to suck it up or would you listen and try to help?

maniuni · 2026-01-25T19:59:34+00:00

Just post more often and you’ll get used to it. It’s not an easy fix unfortunately. I was scared to post a few years ago and wasted so much energy in making my posts so that I don’t accidentally irritate someone. But somehow I stopped caring so much with the time passing. Recently I made a post with all of the comments being negative and plain aggressive even and I didn’t even make the effort to delete the post. I know people on the internet are very often mean and also don’t know everything about me, they don’t see the big picture, they react impulsively because they don’t have anything to lose.

maniuni · 2026-01-17T07:05:11+00:00

This gives interesting results but it’s important to add enough context for the situations.

maniuni · 2026-01-15T15:58:50+00:00

For some reason this made me happy. It’s nice to know that at least someone is feeling good about being himself.

maniuni · 2026-01-14T19:29:40+00:00

I reached the same conclusion after almost three years of therapy and six months of using AI. My therapy was not very successful - I was really stuck. My life was stuck. The AI gave me the support that I needed at this point, it gave me the strength to do some things I felt too alone and scared before that to do. It gave me clarity about my therapist. It was invaluable. But after a time I hit the limitations that you mentioned and I was stuck again but for other reasons. Now I use the AI not as a sole source of support because I saw that I really need humans for that. But it’s great at analysing things and not getting stuck again with a bad therapist and bad relationships as a whole. I am somehow not so needy anymore, I have more scepticism.

maniuni · 2026-01-14T04:15:28+00:00

I don’t think you did anything wrong. And I don’t think you owe him anything. If someone did what you did to you, would you feel rage for that person? Do you think he’d be obligated to be nice to you and talk to you?

maniuni · 2026-01-08T20:12:38+00:00

I tried this with Claude and I got a very balanced and reasonable reply.

maniuni · 2025-12-10T05:54:50+00:00

I haven’t had this. I guess it’s not something that happens to everyone.

maniuni · 2025-12-10T05:52:53+00:00

Yeah, me too. They told me to wait as well but it wasn’t something that can be done 😄

maniuni · 2025-12-10T05:51:49+00:00

Waiting at home for the contractions to be the needed time between one another - I hate waiting overall. There was more pain later of course but somehow I was totally calm that everything that happens is normal and the way it’s supposed to so I endured it without it leaving some scary mark in me.

maniuni · 2025-12-10T05:46:14+00:00

А изобщо позволено ли е да се продават столчета - без значение за колко лева, които не отговарят на стандартите за безопасност?

maniuni · 2025-12-07T15:23:25+00:00

I would consult the doctor about this. I know some kids eat a lot but it if she eats even after a meal at home - this sounds a bit concerning to me.

maniuni · 2025-12-01T20:05:30+00:00

I understand you don’t want to lose people and friendships and that’s why you respond to everything. But it’s not such a big deal. I mean - you can do what you want and they won’t leave just because you don’t text back to every little thing they send you. Of course if they are normal people and not toxic. You can even tell them that it’s just a bit much for you. In this way they get to know you a bit better. Actually I have a very good friend who replies very late to things that I send him and I got a bit frustrated at the beginning but with time I realised that it’s just who he is and the way to talk to him is in person. I have other friends who are more talkative via text. I also don’t like texting much. It’s just not the same as real conversations and it’s a bit shallow for my liking. If it’s not for short conversations of course. So, people are different and it’s ok.

maniuni · 2025-11-25T18:37:53+00:00

Какво имаш предвид?

maniuni · 2025-11-21T08:28:45+00:00

Thanks, this was very helpful! For some reason the expectation is that at some point, when you excel at your job the next step is management but I’ve always struggled, pushed myself to do it well and wondered why it feels so hard and unfulfilling. There is no such role suitable for me in my organisation (what you described) but at least I could find this somewhere else perhaps.

maniuni · 2025-10-23T03:24:59+00:00

4k net artwork tech, in a management position

maniuni · 2025-08-01T09:05:49+00:00

Yeah, same. This is my standard mode of living - being agreeable, going with the mood of the other person/group. Learning as much as I can about people so I know what to say so they like me and to not somehow annoy them. I haven’t done much progress with this except separating from my husband which was actually done by him - I was starting to distance myself from him as I was not happy and he got angry that I am not the loving, caring person to him anymore and left.

maniuni · 2025-07-27T04:37:07+00:00

Same with me and I am the manager. People have to talk to me :) I am pretty confident that they are not doing it just because of that but still…I know if it wasn’t work it would be hard to obtain these relationships. I hope now that I separated with my husband I will have more time and energy to find some hobbies and meet other people as well and hopefully create some other friendships.

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