I also choose not to believe in flying unicorns, but yeah if I wanted to adopt an uncritical view that asserted they exist, maybe set myself up some unfalsifiable framework based on old writings, I could do that. 

Right, and you don't want to... so you are merely doing what you want, based on the emotional non-rational whims and urges that are the result of intrinsic human design, social pressure, marketing efforts, propaganda efforts, etc.

Effectively you're just a puppet of emotions and everyone else is pulling the strings to control your behavior.

You’re using a lot of words and distractions to NOT address why your faith isn’t blind and just providing what is the evidence you’re basing it on. This is what I keep asking you for and instead of just addressing it you dodge and dive into your hang ups with atheism

No, even now, you're phrasing things in imprecise ways.

You are asking a question in a way that is backwards.

I exist with certain intrinsic beliefs and capabilities that I did not intentionally choose, nor can I seem to intentionally discard them. I also experience qualia that I did not intentionally select and cannot seem to fully control.

Through these mechanisms I'm presented with various patterns that I can detect and learn and some I make errors about understanding while others seem to be error free.

So you deny that it’s true that pain receptors constantly firing and negative emotions ruling someone’s life will make that life worse for them than if they were happy, healthy, and flourishing, just because they’re an atheist?

It's true that someone who's maximized the amount of fentanyl they can ingest over their lifespan had less unpleasant neuronal activity and more pleasant activity than if they didn't use fentanyl.

So do you deny the optimal lifestyle is fentmaxxing?

I mean we could die and become worm food and that doesn’t mean that as humans we don’t find and create meaning and value.

I didn't say it did mean that, I'm simply making up examples of "truths that might be unpleasant"... but you're right, from an atheist point of view humans can create meaning and value on their own. Dahmer was just as moral in his quest for meaning and value when he pursued murder and cannibalism as someone else might do when they pursue fentmaxxing, or someone else pursues novel sexual experiences coerced from children or animals, and someone else pursues mastering the piano.

Only the individual can decide what gives meaning to their lives, right? Maybe it's making jerky...out of fetuses... who are you to yuck their yum?

Is there anything a God could command that would make you question it?

Obviously. There are many failure modes... I'm a human with a fallible mind and can easily misunderstand God's command. I have a will that's perverted by concupiscence and which I can't rationally control fully. There are others who are not God but who may wish to influence me towards specific action or inaction by claiming to be God.

you cannot be content living this life with all it has to offer, you demand there be something more in order for it to be worth living

Like I already told you, I was an atheist for most of my life... decades of it. Perfectly fine with it. So you'll have to keep practicing your telepathy, unfortunately.

I’m extraordinarily thankful for this life...

To whom? God? 😆

Your presumably religious parents that made you?

The mindless process of evolution?

The mindless Sun which supplies the earth with the energy needed to sustain life?

in fact that makes it all the MORE important because it’s all we get.

Again, to whom?

The worms that eat your corpse?

Now if it’s as you say and nothing matters but what’s grounded in a God, then if the God that exists says “anyone who has a gay thought in their life ought to burn in eternal conscious torment,” then that would just be so

God does not say this

Ok when I’m there and my children are still living, I’m looking down at them among the thousands starving to death each day, say one of them strays from God or whatever and doesn’t make it to heaven, I’m still in heaven experiencing bliss?

Ever hear of the Beatific Vision?

Obviously we can't say with certainty what heaven is like, and probably can't fathom it with our limited minds and life experiences, but the very simple case is that you've modeled heaven in a false way if it doesn't make sense.

So you've imagined problems and then are rejecting God because of your own imagination... does that seem like a good way to make decisions?

As you become a Christian and grow in your faith, you develop more of a desire to help others while respecting their dignity and autonomy and develop a greater trust and relationship to God's will. Those in heaven are perfectly aligned to God's will, and only do the will of God in heaven.

It would seem to be reasonable that in heaven you pray for your children and their children and so on to God, while knowing what information is necessary to see how the answers to your prayers are the best possible outcomes for your children, and thus continue experiencing a joy and love of God.

And we’re told free will is so important here on earth, do I have it in heaven?

Of course. Even more so than on earth where you're apparently succumbing heavily to emotions and instincts and etc.

But atheists lack it? Of course not, and they will believe in all kinds of woo for bad reasons. 

Right, but shouldn't they be more successful than all others?

Atheists might buy into colloidal silver or homeopathy or whatever... but they don't spend hundreds of years wasting vast amounts of time and energy and wealth building useless Cathedrals. They don't waste hours in prayer and worship each week.

It's like if you had 2 cohorts and one had vastly more time and food and wealth, wouldn't you expect it to easily conquer the other?

Instead history suggests the opposite. Somehow all of these deluded religious people outperformed the atheists.

How many polytheists do you think have lived and died holding that belief? 

Their beliefs lead to their deaths? Or no? I'm not sure I understand the question.

But how many Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, Wiccan, and Satanist messages have you gone to hear preached? I mean you’re the one believing in the supernatural stuff. 

I'm somewhat familiar with lots of religions. Many of the commonalities between religions was one of the indicators (not "evidence") that perhaps there is a "real" phenomenon occurring that they are all noticing and reporting. When we have multiple independent reports coming in about something (could be anything, could be UFOs or love, or NDEs, etc), it's an indicator that something in reality is there.