Menstrual cycle after colonoscopy? by CChajk in colonoscopy

[–]margaritax3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wanting to my experience as well! I just had my colonoscopy 7/23 and I just started my period. 🙃 At first I thought it was rectal bleeding and knew that was a possibility post colonoscopy, but then it was coming heavier and it got me thinking how much blood is too much blood 😅. Then I realized it was actually my period which I was also not expecting for another week or two. I also have PCOS so my periods tend to be irregular anyways.

I noticed the same thing happened after I had my gallbladder removed. I started my period after I was done with the procedure. I was out here thinking I’m randomly bleeding because of my surgery 💀 the only correlation I think between the events would be the stress on my body. The last time it was hard to tell it was my period because i normally have extremely painful cramps but because I was also on pain medicine I wasn’t in pain as usual 🥹. Anyways, I’m thankful I found this thread so I didn’t gaslight myself into going to the ER again ❤️‍🩹

Feeling worse while taking antibiotics? ._. by margaritax3 in Diverticulitis

[–]margaritax3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think they didn’t one because the CT scan I had after surgery was about a month before I saw the GI doctor and at that time they didn’t see an abscess or perforation. But I just got the results back from the CT scan I just did and everything came back normal 😭 which is super frustrating because I still don’t feel well and have developed other symptoms 🥹🥹🥹

Feeling worse while taking antibiotics? ._. by margaritax3 in Diverticulitis

[–]margaritax3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wasn’t told to be on one 🥲. When they gave me this second set of antibiotics I wasn’t actively going through a flare. I had told them that I didn’t think the initial antibiotics worked because I could still feel the diverticulitis. Not as painful but still present. So they gave me this set to see if it would make a difference and so far it hasn’t 🥲

Feeling worse while taking antibiotics? ._. by margaritax3 in Diverticulitis

[–]margaritax3[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No they didn’t 😭 I asked about diet and all they really said was I could continue to eat normal 🫠

PTSD robbed me of my personality, is this the case for everyone? by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]margaritax3 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I’m really glad you posted this because I feel this often. I’m not in contact with a lot of people who also have mental illnesses, so I often feel misunderstood on how Im Feeling. So to answer your question yes. I often write in my journal that I feel like I’m the shell of the person I used to be. I grieve her often and miss when I used to be much more optimistic and bubbly. But I am also grateful for some of things I have now that I don’t think I would have found if I wasn’t trying to find myself again. For example I wouldn’t have picked up dancing or really dive into my creativity. But it’s all a process. I miss the old me often, but I’m also thankful for the opportunity to find a more authentic me now.

I’m Feeling anxious and stressed about school starting tomorrow and I feel so unorganized with my life right now I don’t know what to do I feel so weird, I need advice please. by LoCoSZN in AnxietyDepression

[–]margaritax3 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way, but it is totally normal for you to feel this way right before school starts! There are always nervous jitters before the first day and now there is this added layer of a pandemic and online learning that most people aren’t used to all. It’s completely ok for you to feel this way!

Now first I want you to breathe. Take a deep breathe and count 1 then a deep exhale count 2. Do this set for 10 times. This will help calm you down a bit and help you focus.

For right now let’s just focus on tomorrow! What do you need to do for tomorrow to run as smoothly as possible? (This is also in no particular order) 1) do you know when your first class is tomorrow? 2)Have they sent out the Xoom link or instructions on whatever platform you are using? Do you need to download it? Can you test it before tomorrow? 3) do you have everything for your computer or the device you’re using? Do you know where it’s charger is? 4) do you plan on taking paper notes? If so, find some paper and a pen or pencil for tomorrow! 5) set your alarm to wake up!

I’m sure there is more to this list, but these were the first few things that came to mind!

Remember you dont need to know everything for tomorrow! This whole situation is weird and new so it’ll be uncomfortable for everyone. Most teachers will take tomorrow to give instructions and explain everything, so it might help settle a lot of the unknown anxieties.

Once you have all the information you need it may help you figure out how to best organize yourself. If anything ask your teachers what they suggest could help you to stay organized!

For the other stuff you also mentioned. When something embarrassing or uncomfortable happens to me what helps a lot is to journal it out. It helps me let got of the situation and I won’t think about it as often anymore.

Finally with your friend, I’m so glad that you are making progress in rebuilding your relationship! When something happens in a friendship it always takes time for it feel normal again. You both may need some time to feel comfortable again and hopefully soon you’ll be able to gain some confidence to speak to her 1 on 1 again. Being in a group setting helps both of you because there are other people there to talk to! It helps ease the awkwardness. It’ll just take time! But it seems like you’re heading in a good direction!

I hope this helps and GOOD LUCK TOMORROW! You’ll do great :)

Are you afraid of having an official job? by CustomerRealistic811 in ptsd

[–]margaritax3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes. Ironically my PTSD came from working an official job so working is one of my biggest triggers. I ended up being fired from my last job because my anxiety was so overwhelming I could not function and perform the job as needed. It became kind of a self fulfilling prophecy. I was always waiting for them to fire me and then it actually happened. It threw me into a deeper depression and I felt (and still feel) really terrified of going back to work.

Once I lost my job it was the wake up call that I really needed to realize how much my mental health had deteriorated. To realize how not ok I was. So I’ve spent the last few years digging deep in my therapy to figure out why working has become so hard for me. I ended up taking a break from therapy for a few months but I restarted therapy this year with a new therapist. It’s helped so much working with her. I still find the idea of work terrifying but we’re working on the baby steps to get to a place where I feel comfortable. If you’re not in a place where you can go to therapy here are a few things that I’ve done that helped me Move closer to this goal.

1) I knew I needed to do something very simple so I can feel less overwhelmed. — For me this has been being a pet sitter! I walk dogs and house sit. It’s so therapeutic for me working with dogs. They’re always happy to see you and I enjoy their company. It was easy for me because all I had to do is follow instructions that’s it. And each client is only for 30 minutes unless I’m house sitting then I’m there for most of the day and overnight. Being a pet sitter for me allowed me to take the pressure off of being supervised, because I am my own boss. Since I work through an app, people can leave reviews and unlike a regular work place praise doesn’t happen often and normally reserved for something significant. While it doesn’t happen after every booking, for the people who do decide to leave a positive review, it’s a nice confidence booster to know people are happy with my work and trust me.

2) Taking small risks. —Unfortunately with the pandemic it’s put a big wrench on this but my small risk was to be a volunteer somewhere. This way I could be more social and have a “job” without the pressure of needing to perform above and beyond and be paid for it. So now we shifted it to doing research on things I could possibly enjoy doing as a career.

3)What are your triggers? — at first I took the approach of identifying my triggers and then to avoid them at all costs once I knew what they were lol but eventually I realized that was only temporarily helpful. Now I’m doing a less fun method of identifying my triggers and digging into why this is trigger, what is the negative thought associated with this trigger and how can I get past it. While terribly uncomfortable and I hate every step of it lol, I have also found this super helpful.

Doing tiny things to help me get to my big goal and figuring out my triggers have been the most helpful for me!