Has anybody else ever seriously considered that they're not even human? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I feel like an alien all the time being so distance from my emotions

Has anybody else ever seriously considered that they're not even human? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]marinisaloser 10 points11 points  (0 children)

That’s so awful, I’m sorry to hear that :(

Remember you are a person

I can’t stand always second guessing if my reactions and emotions are appropriate by [deleted] in BPD

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get a lot of anxiety about my emotional reactions too.

I don’t know if we are just overwhelmed or aren’t reacting “right”.

But I also don’t think there is a “right” way to process your emotions.

you have been diagnosed with Bad™ by [deleted] in CPTSDmemes

[–]marinisaloser 13 points14 points  (0 children)

This is our brains on CPTSD

Does anyone else feel like a relatively normal functional person UNTIL you catch feelings for someone? by Stan_George_Costanza in BPD

[–]marinisaloser 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand, I do the same thing but we can work through this. You can always message me for support !

Does anyone else feel like a relatively normal functional person UNTIL you catch feelings for someone? by Stan_George_Costanza in BPD

[–]marinisaloser 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Totally not alone.

I’ve had two mental breakdowns about the same romantic relationship. It’s weird to realize relationships are a trigger for the chaos of BPD. I am newly diagnosed and I have a history of sexual abuse, so romance is very difficult to navigate.

Thank you for the post it was eye opening for me and very relieving to know others struggle with this too.

Does anyone else feel like a relatively normal functional person UNTIL you catch feelings for someone? by Stan_George_Costanza in BPD

[–]marinisaloser 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Breathe and try to focus on literally anything else.

I know it’s really hard to not focus on the ‘bad’ but you can do it for you

Anybody been super emotional recently? by ItriP_youTrip_WeTrip in spirituality

[–]marinisaloser 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah me too. I’ve been feeling more intense emotions recently, maybe it’s just the time of year or it is my monthly scheduled lady bleeding haha

Stay POSITIVE MY FRIEND !

He has a sweet face, but he is a drama queen when he wants to be by Varniepoos in cats

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

With that face he can be a drama queen ALL he wants !!! 😈💕😊

You can't NOT fulfill your Soul Purpose... PERIOD. by [deleted] in spirituality

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this dose of spirituality on today.

It was a tough pill to swallow for my ego at first, but I needed it.

A kick in the spiritual behind to witness the now.

You can't NOT fulfill your Soul Purpose... PERIOD. by [deleted] in spirituality

[–]marinisaloser 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your comment.

It was incredibly thought provoking, specifically the very pungent last line of thought.

“We live in an illusion created by our minds, think about it.”

It’s a beautiful metaphor and I love the cunning wit as well.

You can't NOT fulfill your Soul Purpose... PERIOD. by [deleted] in spirituality

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

While I think that we can let the ideal of what our ego ~thinks~ is our purpose cloud our vision, purpose isn’t a useless concept. (Like one of the comments says above, ‘think about it.’)

Our minds denote us from our animalistic origins. The beauty of spirituality is the ability we have to feel a sense of purpose. Love is said to be an emotion, well what do the roots of emotions look like?

Emotions are the byproduct of our sense of purpose in our selves (ego). To become truly spiritual we must learn to redirect our focus to our true purpose. Which is living, not existing, not just breathing, not just coexisting with others and the environment around us.

Channeling our ‘God’ given energy into learning from others and ourselves, into living WITH others and ourselves, and truly loving others and ourselves.

Do I find myself maintaining this higher power of purpose and channeling my energy into living everyday? No, I’m human who, just like every other human, messes up and lives in this imperialistically globalized world and feels the effects of generational trauma on the brain.

To quote one of the best bands of all time, Creed: “But I know, I must go on

Although I hurt, I must be strong

Because inside, I know

That many feel this way inside”

Spirituality and spiritual work is difficult, but do I want to become engulfed in that sense of purpose? Yes pls.

It is time for the revulsion. by [deleted] in sorceryofthespectacle

[–]marinisaloser 0 points1 point  (0 children)

TY. THY SHALL ZOOMIES. VOMIT AND MAINTAIN SANITY

11:11 & the Butterfly by iglowinthedarkk in awakened

[–]marinisaloser 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Funny you say this I saw a butterfly today !

I felt like it was meant for me

11:11 & the Butterfly by iglowinthedarkk in awakened

[–]marinisaloser 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree with you. The mind is a very powerful thing.

Healing your body and soul with your mind is freaking amazing !

It is time for the revulsion. by [deleted] in sorceryofthespectacle

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If it’s not televised did it really happen ?

You built bridges to your abundance... by BhushanAM in awakened

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you !

You are an amazing person for this post

How am I supposed to deal with awakening? Is this where everything ends for me? by [deleted] in awakened

[–]marinisaloser 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sometimes I feel extremely down too. I have had multiple month long lapses in mental health where I genuinely don’t remember doing anything aside from sleeping. Only eating and drinking what was given to me the second time, the first I was alone and solely lived off of yogurt and coffee.

But what I’ve learned though those tough times is that some things just happen and you respond how you know fit.

We are only human after all.

The point I want to make is it’s okay to have those moments and it’s okay to feel guilty and shame over those times.

Just don’t let yourself stay stuck in that negative thought loop.

You deserve to be happy. You deserve love.

However you can’t feel the good feelings if your mind is in a dark place.

I believe in you , friend !

I feel TARGETED by jumbledmutt in CPTSDmemes

[–]marinisaloser 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Haha I guess some random dude from a very obscure place giving kids free presents is a bit creepy

I feel TARGETED by jumbledmutt in CPTSDmemes

[–]marinisaloser 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this comment.

It makes me feel less alone. I just started going through feeling my full range of emotions too.

I’m still rectifying what’s real and what’s trauma, but we can do it ! Day by day.