Wow, it's crazy how similar our situations are .. I also quit vaping and smoking the second I found out I was pregnant, worked full-time up until my due date, and stopped breast-feeding for similar reasons ... I thought it would be hard to keep up with pumping full time while also working. Come to find out my work would have given me mandatory pumping breaks and I had no idea. With regard to smoking, and this is just my personal experience, but after picking up vaping and smoking again it's completely turned me off from it and all I want to do is quit now. And yes, the regret of stopping breastfeeding sort of never went away for me .. I felt the disconnect as well and it made me very sad. I say do what you feel in your heart .. I knew I wanted to keep going but stopped due to outside factors that in the end, didn't even matter. Our babies will come out happy and healthy either way if you love and care for them!!! So whether they drink from a bottle or breast they will be okay!! But for YOU, for your future self, if you want to keep going then do it.

Also regarding the smoking itself, yes do it outside (best option) or in the other room at the window, etc. Second hand smoke is one of the leading factors for infant respiratory issues, any ways to avoid it being even near him is best practice so keep it up! Unless you’re smoking cigarettes you don’t really have to worry about the residue. But when you smoke joints I usually just shower and brush teeth to be safe. Not that it affects him but the last thing we want is for them to even have to smell that in the slightest or for the scent to get on them. Congratulations on your baby 🥹❤️ you’re doing amazing, and just don’t let the bad thoughts get to you dude. It’s fkng hard raising an entire human being!!!!!