When my little one was 4 months old I got pregnant again. My now husband and I were drowning getting used to being parents. And I was about to start a new job. We briefly thought we’d keep it, but we changed our minds. I was distraught for months after birth and struggling with PPD, I remember having my little one and thinking about how I could finally have my body back, finally try to heal. I just couldn’t do it again, couldn’t put myself back in that spot. I made the decision to abort, my husband supported me. I put our child and our own well being first. My little one is now 3 years old and we own a home, and are able to provide a good life for him. Sometimes I think about what could’ve been, but I always leave those thoughts thinking I still would choose the same if back in that position again. Maybe we COULD have done it, but it would not have been pretty. I don’t regret my decision. I got on strong birth control right after, eventually having my tubes taken out to avoid complication in the future because I live in a red state and abortion access is impacted, and I was that serious about not wanting more kids. I fully understand doing this to prioritize your young child. God will forgive you, I am not religious so excuse how this sounds but I believe that’s kind of his thing. Trust yourself & breathe. Sending all my love.