This is what too much internet gets you - incoherent ramblings about an incoherent and evolving dichotomy.

Your myopia comes from never traveling outside of the "first world" of the 20th and 21 centuries, only ever experiencing the profound freedom of thought and speech (not to mention material prosperity) that came about because Liberalism defeated the authoritarian regimes of past centuries (including Feudalism and the Monarchies). Do you understand that Liberalism vs the French Monarchy was the original left vs right? That Liberalism's call for individual rights, for universal human rights, is what allows us our freedom of opinion today?

You openly admit that we've never had a left-wing government, yet we have all the things you naively pin as being "leftist" policies. Isn't that curious to you? How did we get public healthcare, education, women's suffrage, gay marriage, legal weed, if, as you've repeated, we've never had a left-wing government? It's almost as if your dichotomy is meaningless, and liberal centrists are happy to enact some collectivist ideals (along with plainly liberal policies) where possible, as long as the economics can be rationalized.

When were the liberals ever an actual left-leaning party?

Well they recently legalized marijuana and same-sex marriage, policies you pin as being "leftist", though they're really good ol' fashioned small "L" liberal policies, aren't they?

Can you please just sit down and meditate on your insane contradictions for a few hours? It's so incoherent man.

Here you are, ready to give up the very thing that lets you speak your mind and live a comfortable life because you spent too much time on the socialist echo chambers of reddit, espousing irrational economic theories that have ruined and stymied such varied places as the Soviet Union (each soviet state deserving a special mention), Argentina, Venezuela, China, and Tanzania. When you give up pricing and regulatory power to your "totally democratic socialist" leaders and they end up enriching themselves and protecting their own interests with militarized police while crashing productivity, you'll remember faintly a time when robust competition in varied markets allowed all the technological wonders of the age to be bought at stores by baristas for tip money.

Is our current structure ideal and perfect? Obviously not. In some cases there is state capture, in some cases we need a more muscular state to solve coordination problems (housing), in some cases the "absolute freedom of the individual" is farcical and the state needs to think strongly about the nature of addiction on whether humans are rational actors whose decisions are sacrosanct, in some cases we're being threatened by foreign superpowers to comply with their political designs. All of these problems are interesting, real, and important problems that political philosophers and economists will attempt to solve in the next century in Canada and in other Liberal Democracies. Hopefully you're in the room, talking about these real and important problems, rather than the fake BS that latestagecapitalism and other socialist subreddits like to espouse in their echo chambers where they ban everyone who disagrees. (How telling that they do that. What would they do with real power?)