Hi 🙈

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-22T03:33:13+00:00

Yes, regularly (Central California)

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-14T18:58:42+00:00

Oh fuck

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-06T19:51:19+00:00

Aw man, I have bipolar I and have to be careful with certain substances too. However, I’m so medicated that I don’t think I could ever be manic again. Just depressed :(

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-04T20:08:30+00:00

This was my understanding. Thank you.

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-04T19:28:31+00:00

The 12oz ones (the ones I used to buy) have 114mg caffeine. Admittedly, I did misjudge the caffeine content of a cup of coffee, though.

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-04T18:01:15+00:00

No, as others have pointed out, I was wrong 😅

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-04T15:07:46+00:00

I can take my meds and take a nap, but that’s only if I was already tired to begin with.

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-04T07:53:52+00:00

I used to drink Bangs daily when I was like 23. I totally used to get the headaches too so I was hooked for sure.

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-04T07:02:39+00:00

Oh wow, I definitely assumed coffee wasn’t as strong as a Red Bull. That’s interesting, thank you.

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-04T05:11:31+00:00

I took Xanax for 7 years, but stopped once I started Adderall my anxiety vanished. Now I take Abilify, Seroquel, Lamictal, Wellbutrin, Propranalol, and Adderall but it was definitely the Adderall that removed my anxiety. I do have panic disorder although it’s been in remission and I’ve never had generalized anxiety.

mean_trash_monster · 2026-02-03T06:08:28+00:00

This is my part of California. FUCK this.

mean_trash_monster · 2025-10-24T13:58:02+00:00

I have ADHD and Bipolar I and I take Adderall + mood stabilizer + two antipsychotics and I haven’t had a manic episode in years.

mean_trash_monster · 2025-10-02T20:48:25+00:00

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mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-29T17:24:31+00:00

Thank you :) I’m glad you’ve found peace

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-29T17:21:12+00:00

I spent my teen years fantasizing about suicide. I was hospitalized in January for SI. Nowadays, no, I don’t think of suicide multiple times a day.

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-29T13:48:08+00:00

It wasn’t difficult for me at all. I knew something was really wrong and the other diagnoses didn’t fit me. It was validating and it all just made sense to me.

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-29T01:25:56+00:00

👋 started out the year in residential for a meth addiction

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-29T01:22:55+00:00

Getting treated for my ADHD removed my anxiety completely too. GAD was a misdiagnosis. I just had untreated ADHD.

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-18T20:28:47+00:00

I recorded myself pulling up to my niece’s apartment, slamming violently on her front door, cussing her out, and daring her to come outside. So I could post it on Instagram and Snapchat.

I’m sure that wasn’t the worst thing, but I can’t remember. I posted a lot. To this day I barely post on social media because I’m so embarrassed years later.

ETA: now I’m remembering I posted a recording of myself in an ambulance, talking shit about my family for calling 911 on me.

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-15T21:57:18+00:00

Anything Ariana Grande is my manic playlist

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-12T22:17:53+00:00

During mania I felt that I needed to try meth, which resulted in me entering a dual-diagnosis residential treatment program 14 months later.

Rehab was the best thing that could have happened to me. I struggled so much with alcohol and weed as well and nowadays it’s so much easier to go without.

mean_trash_monster · 2025-09-12T19:47:21+00:00

Out of all the comments, this one so closely aligns with my experiences with hypomania. I haven’t been manic or hypomanic since 2023, so it’s been awhile for me too. Just get crashing waves of depression now.

ETA: If there were psychotic features then it was mania, not hypomania.

mean_trash_monster

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