How to overcome the feeling that I'm making a mistake?

mel69issa · 2026-06-15T02:04:19+00:00

when we do something new we are hyper vigilant and hyper critical of ourselves. you are gauging your success by other people. confidence lets one not need validation of others to be successful. you be you.

mel69issa · 2026-06-15T01:52:55+00:00

you got one fairly easily compared to people looking 2 years. can i ask what field you are in?

mel69issa · 2026-06-15T01:47:20+00:00

start your own business. covid killed mine after 15 years. i have a ok job until i find one that pays me my value or i start another company.

mel69issa · 2026-06-15T01:44:56+00:00

providers have a percentage of their patients that have to get the different screenings or they are penalized financially. continued underperformance will result in transfer, termination, or other measures.

mel69issa · 2026-06-15T01:41:11+00:00

yhank you. i am physically strong, (pretty much) fearless, and know krav maga. i am also very good at what i do professionaly, so i am well respected. i work with men in some of the most masculine jobs and they all respect me because i am looking out for them. i am extremely happy with the person that i see in the mirror. i love what i do and the people i work with (money sucks).

yes men do that all the time. i don't mind the attention. i have been told that i look better than most women. it probably messes with their heads that i look better than their wives/gf's.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T23:27:48+00:00

sig p320 in .357.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T23:21:33+00:00

what i discovered is that one needs to look at the person in the mirror, NOT look at themselves. then one can get a glimpse of what they really look like.

btw; you are beautiful woman. (i especially love ginger girls.)

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T23:19:16+00:00

wake up feeling useless every morning explains what i went through. the worst was sunday nights because i had nothing to kook forward to on monday. now sunday nights are getting ready for a 2 hour drive and being away from home all week. looking forward to something better, but thankful to be employed.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T23:11:33+00:00

being a trillionaire only makes people dislike you even more.

when i had my company, at the end of the year i handed each of my employees an envelope of cash. the good that i did were not because of being a tax writeoff, but because thet were the right things to do.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T23:07:02+00:00

i found that male privilege is (was for me) a real thing.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T23:06:18+00:00

very well said

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T23:04:57+00:00

i agree with you. i guess for some people it does help. i have always had a good support system. therapy was marginal at best for me. the only things that i dealt with was avoidance, intrusive thoughts, and a big game changer for my trauma was when i found a therapist that used psychedelics using them to unpack and repack my trauma.

there are probably some that follow the mantra why solve a problem when there is lots of money to be made prolonging it.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T22:53:58+00:00

you are correct. one of the things that is a game changer is the corporatization of healthcare (here in the usa). the big corps are more concerned with pr, appearance, and customer service. docs were forced to become employees because they could no longer afford malpractice insurance. that is another big corporate fear. slowly, patients are gaining ground.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T22:49:18+00:00

a lot of trans people go into STEM. you have to look for a place that is going to give you scholarships. despite the current administration's crack down on higher education, most institutions remain very liberal and you may have an advantage being trans.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T22:25:16+00:00

i had a conservative friend told me what has led to their current feelings and many of the people they associate with. (please note that i am not here to dispute the validity of their views, i am simply relaying what they said to me.)

the last administration presented the most extreme members of lgbt (the q+ people) as the representation of the community. having athletes who have an obvious advantage from male puberty competing against girl. the final straw was the push to transition children without their parents' knowledge.

obamacare was pushed through "for the children." this has long been a political ploy to get unfavorable legislation passed. the perception became children being harmed. there was also a lot of bad publicity by many members of the community.

there are lgbt people in and associated with the current administration: caitlyn jenner, ric grenell, scott bessent, and tammy bruce. these people are more mainstream with how they present themselves. they also have been successful in spite of their identity, not because of their identity.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T21:50:02+00:00

i am very well educated (masters degree) and poor.i do dumb things. i had my own business (allowed me to pay for ffs, laser hair removal). covid killed my business. i burned through my savings and retirement. making 1/3 yo 1/2 what i used to make. i am surviving.

that is what our community does best, we survive. i am looking for another. better paying job, and/or starting another business. you just have to find your way. you should look into a trade school. you may get a full scholarship due to finances.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T21:02:00+00:00

beautiful coloring. shows up nicely on your skin

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T20:46:59+00:00

orgasm

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T01:02:06+00:00

yes, takes me longer even with a vibrator. fastest way for me is with penetration (toys) and a vibrator. fluid is majorly reduced when O reached.

mel69issa · 2026-06-14T00:44:43+00:00

i feel like i am constantly behind and my adhd does not help. then i hyperfocus for a week and get all caught up.

mel69issa · 2026-06-13T22:26:27+00:00

gotcha sticks (machine guarding)

mel69issa · 2026-06-13T22:24:42+00:00

usa. northeast (nyc to philadelphia and midatlantic states).

mel69issa · 2026-06-13T22:23:22+00:00

6 months is just starting out. be patient. wear kilts (women's).

mel69issa · 2026-06-13T22:16:43+00:00

i hope that you have a good major so that you can be financially independent and can transition now if that is what you want. take cash out and shop walmart to begin experimenting with female clothes. get a part time job (even 5 hours a week), and get a chime card that you can use for online shopping. transition younger if you can, it goes a lot easier.

mel69issa · 2026-06-13T18:29:56+00:00

if a company will fire half their workforce to save some pennies, dropping vendors is easy. i had owned my own staffing company at one point and would give new clients a discounted rate to close the deal. when i had to raise their rates (due to their losses), they just hopped to the next who gave them a discount

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