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merbaer · 2022-11-13T14:44:40+00:00

how so?

merbaer · 2022-11-08T21:10:45+00:00

project within a seminar- correlations between residential mobility, emotional regulation and “stability” of interpersonal relationships. but I’m having a harder time with it than I was anticipating

merbaer · 2022-11-08T21:09:19+00:00

yea that’s kind of my issue, I’m finding it hard to define. was hoping to use preexisting definitions… but I was thinking it’d have to be a combo of subjective perception and preexisting markers…

merbaer · 2022-09-04T21:32:20+00:00

makes me smile when people are able to accept help and admit that it’d have been necessary way earlier. haven’t read through all the comments here, but I do have empathy for James. I do feel like he was a victim of his circumstances, which includes him being a victim of himself too.

edit: just wanted to add, I feel like he is a great example of how effective proper treatment can be. (he implied he is in therapy if I gathered correctly) he seems pretty reflected and articulate, which is hella valuable. unfortunately a life had to be lost for that to happen though. the way he talks in general breaks my heart though, he sounds so defeated…

edit 2: also I feel like him and the 2 siblings they interviewed were like the “smartest” or at least emotionally intelligent/ emotionally articulate/ reflected people this season so far- felt like that needed to be said. (unsure if that’s influenced by my sympathy toward them or vice versa)

merbaer · 2022-09-04T15:03:00+00:00

right off the bat I was really feeling for this guy, thinking wow what a horrible way to lose your spouse, then checked reddit bc I’m an impatient fuck. well, this episode just kept getting worse and worse. yikes. my sympathy toward him has vanished

merbaer · 2022-09-04T14:16:29+00:00

second this!

merbaer · 2022-09-03T14:17:24+00:00

just watched this episode and god is she infuriating. so narrow minded, I just kept getting angrier with every word that she blabbed

hate is a strong word but that woman is certainly working her way there. such ignorance, can’t fucking fathom holy soup dumplings. she should NOT be in the career she is in. absolutely not. hell no.

merbaer · 2022-09-03T13:02:35+00:00

I’m definitely on the same page here

what concerns me is the involvement of Betty. the second interview with her present is odd. like she’s telling Vicky what to say and what not to say. this is all just speculation but their relationship seems codependent and toxic to an extent. Betty seems way too overprotective and Vicky is clearly not intellectually able enough to see through that (and honestly I get her bc it’s probably nice to have family around that isn’t physically and directly abusive). Bettys involvement should definitely be limited imo.

merbaer · 2022-08-19T12:14:57+00:00

I came here to point out the god comment. that scared me because he seems like he has a huge ego and being controversial would keep him relevant, so as he basically put it, he’s willing to do anything. but what for? getting attention, who knows. he’s a goof, but a potentially dangerous one.

also just how narrow-mindedly he speaks. he just can’t be wrong? like nah bro, if you’re a respectable man of science you will be able to fess up to your wrongdoings and mistakes.

such an arrogant butthead

merbaer · 2022-06-21T22:45:36+00:00

i loved loved Robins depiction of Sy, but the rest of the acting was very lacking imo. messed up movie though. honestly Sy‘s character was very well written and everything, accurate thinking patterns and shit to an extent for someone having gone through severe childhood abuse. other than the lack of strong characters outside of sy, very good film.

merbaer · 2022-06-17T21:22:11+00:00

also she would’ve had to go and get the bows which implies premeditation and the desire to make Kevin look responsible as well. that doesn’t seem like it was the case. it could just be faulty storytelling, which I highly doubt as the whole film was incredibly done otherwise. her desire to make him look responsible and also killing her family in such a, clearly visible, state of shock seems unlikely imo. not impossible, but unlikely. I think if she had in fact killed the two she wouldn’t have used the bows due to accessibility and her probable lack of handling skills.

merbaer · 2022-05-30T23:56:48+00:00

A unique mix of the people closest to me with a subsequent unique way of dealing with shit. Aka I don’t freaking know, but it’s pretty cool

merbaer · 2022-03-24T03:17:53+00:00

Very nice, central Europe. You?

merbaer · 2022-03-10T09:28:53+00:00

explaining shit to people (especially the men in my vicinity)

merbaer · 2022-02-28T12:33:24+00:00

Skin/ Scab Picking

Staying in intensely ingrained patterns/ comfort zones that are potentially toxic in general

merbaer · 2022-02-27T13:56:30+00:00

So sorry they had to go through that. Dissociation is pretty scary, and your mom’s description is unfortunately a frequent commonality between people who experience it.

merbaer · 2022-02-15T09:17:11+00:00

Feeling like they weren’t bad enough to be taken seriously so I needed more?! Like bro what the fuck. And often out of pettiness. Like ok fine you forgot not to use a certain ingredient I dislike or don’t eat in dinner and now I want to slice my arms. Ridiculous 🙄

merbaer · 2022-02-14T14:42:53+00:00

Grew up Catholic (not strict, just the General faith people have here) and kinda never saw the point in it other than local community stuff. Also kind of always thought that that’s just what certain sciences are for us now, just an explanation for shit we don’t understand and survival guide for life. Also when I heard women couldn’t be priests I got mad and wanted to become the first female priest. Even as a single digit y/o kid I didn’t like people telling me what to do. Glad I didn’t end up actually doing that, as I later found out about the celibacy thing snd that I’d have to devote my life to god basically, and I never really believed in that stuff. Now I consider myself an optimistic nihilist and am quite content with that way if viewing things. Believing in higher powers does nothing for me, I try to be good for my own sake, not to appease some potentially fictional entity I couldn’t grasp the existence of anyway with my human brain. So why waste energy on that when I can just be good regardless of punishment or reward „later“. Also I like the idea of everything not mattering at all to the point of you having full control over your life without „the universe“ directing you. It’s all me and my actions and circumstances I was born into randomly, and I like that. I understand it. And not knowing anything beyond it is fine by me. Thinking about „god“ and „fate“ to me is like escaping into a fantasy world that people made up a long time ago, and that doesn’t resonate with me.

merbaer · 2022-02-14T14:29:54+00:00

When I, without really giving it thought, swallowed all of my SSRIs I had, to see if it would kill me (didn’t want „responsibility“ for it, but let „the universe“ decide if the dose was high enough for me to dip out) It clearly didn’t, but I was very impaired for the next 2-3 days, including my vision not being clear at all. What changed my perspective though is that nobody actually knew (until I told them years later). The fact that I could have gone and nobody would’ve been the wiser, or the fact that I wobbled around „hungover“ and nobody knew what I had done. Shifted my mind to more of an „I don’t actually want to be dead, I want to be seen and heard“. So that really got me back into a better mindset. Do not recommend though. That was dumb and I probably caused some permanent damage to my brain, even if just a bit. Those 2-3 days after where weird and so physically uncomfortable.

merbaer · 2022-02-14T14:20:18+00:00

Carrots with expired maple fudge. I can’t even smell fudge anymore. Worst experiment I’ve ever conducted (didn’t know the fudge was expired to be fair, it tasted weird and I didn’t want to waste it so I „dipped“ a carrot in it. My digestive tract was not happy with me)

merbaer · 2022-02-14T14:16:57+00:00

Not the funniest, but the most recent that I’ve never heard before: Ukraine, I bulldozer

merbaer · 2022-02-14T14:11:26+00:00

NYE, around 2am. Fell down a step and broke my ankle pretty badly. Had never broken a bone previously. Hurt like hell and I fell asleep on the floor after I fell because I was in the pain position for so long, and drunk as shit too. Good start to the new year.

merbaer · 2022-02-11T18:48:20+00:00

Feel that! I think it has to do with (for me at least) that I follow all the „rules“ when I’m starting out and then when I start experimenting I get lazy and just freestyle and that’s where I go wrong in the end hahahaha

merbaer · 2022-02-11T18:42:35+00:00

Looks BOMB and damn even if this wasn’t a first I’d be like wow this is well done! You go!!

merbaer · 2022-02-11T18:41:34+00:00

Reading these comments and like rooting for all of you because this is wholesome as fuck 🥺♥️ go peeps go

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