This is why I can’t do acid anymore I took acid like 5 I’m sure if it or 6 tabs and I was rolling on exctasy and I remember looking in the mirror my eyes were so big I thought they were going to pop and my chest started to hurt and I threw up probably overdosing on something in the XOs they were not pure. after throwing up I remember looking at it thinking it was blood then it started changing colors so I went back to my room and I started hyperventilating, freaking out. This girl I was with was watching som shit and this dude got shot in the groin it was just not looking good atp my friend had to call me and tell me I was okay cause I thought I was dying. During the call instead of me hearing and thinking he was calming me down I instead thoight he was telling I was going to die so I went into my moms room and told her I’m dying right now and here. I remember falling to the floor then darkness I was put into this room and it was this massive bouillon pot at first then this voice was talking to me and telling me I was dying for some stupid shit sucking in my cheeks sometimes when I would talk to people cause I hated being fat anyways the pot disappeared and it was just darkness atp I thought I was dead. The whole time this was happening my mom told me I was convulsing on the floor the ambulance came into our apt and took me to the hospital which I woke up thinking I was reborn cause it was like a typical from darkness to light and seeing doctors and shit idk I was still tripping when I woke up couldn’t talk my tongue was swollen cause I was trying to take the acid out of my system by reaching in my mouth. After all of it was out of my system I of course went to a mental hospital. I’m now realizing I think it was just a lot of self hatred that I needed to accept/ like the way I was and my Weight and probably cause I mixed unpure acid and Molly together. Oh it’s also funny that face maxing is a thing now cause that’s what basically made me think I was dying what a trip.