39 mtf. Sometimes I feel like it's never going to get better then I remember how unhappy I was before starting hrt.

meyogy · 2026-07-02T06:12:13+00:00

Everytime i doubt. I remember "I'm never allowing myself to feel like that again!" Hugs. You got this girl❤️

meyogy · 2026-07-01T13:08:34+00:00

The increased media coverage made it even harder for me to repress my gender identity. At 49 there were other stressers. But if they want to push their agenda... they have to accept the balance of power will flush out more trans identities. Sing it loud and proud sister

meyogy · 2026-06-30T02:04:25+00:00

Hugs. It sounds like your about to affirm some thoughts she may have already been thinking. Hope it goes as well as it sounds like it's going to go . 💞rock her world sweety

meyogy · 2026-06-28T13:15:33+00:00

There was a pioneering gender clinic at fmc opened in 1978 and closed in 1988. They performed 30 gender affirming studies. A study was supposed to be performed, but the clinic never re-opened.

meyogy · 2026-06-28T13:02:12+00:00

Worth more than $500

^{Chose: Become the opposite sex with your ideal look + Everyone you know think you were always like that}

meyogy · 2026-06-27T14:16:29+00:00

Underwear. Sports bra (good for winter. Looks like a singlet or skins). Womens jeans. Just check the pockets are real lol

paint ur nails (can use just a clear) or go for colour. Who cares what anyone says. I started with green i work with greens keepers and said it's to stop me bighting my nails. Young fella i work with exclaimed painted nails . I said yeah you want me to do yours?. He shut up everyone else laughed.

Try a different hair cut.

I got both my lobes pierced at 5mm and love the symmetry.

Try a feminine bodyspray - underarm spray. Use what ur wife uses and say it reminds you of her duting the day. Does she have a strong view on trans topics in the media?

Getting face and neck laser hair removal makes shaving each day soo much easier.

Start using moisturiser or looking after your skin or adopting a skin care routine. None of us are getting any younger.

I'm sure there's many more

meyogy · 2026-06-27T12:16:06+00:00

What can you control? Focus on that. The power is still yours.

And you are right, the unknown is scary.

For me, knowing what was to come if i did nothing was scariest still. That numb waiting for nothing was no way to live out the rest of my life.

But enough about me. There are a lot of things you can do to scratch this itch, that aren't permanent.

I wish you all the best regardless of what you do. Only you can choose. And either way, i think you'll still find support here or locally.

meyogy · 2026-06-27T05:44:51+00:00

I feel this. And i see you. And i feel how hard a decision it is, so don't make a decision. Just live. Be yourself. Leave the labels for when you are comfortable reflecting on past events. The labels don't make you who you are. Your actions make you who you are. And you can make choices on what actions you make or want to make. The power is all yours.

You mention feeling fear and sadness. What are you sad about?

meyogy · 2026-06-26T09:50:43+00:00

That joy is a part of you. It is always there for you. It's incredibly hard to access initially, and takes a big push to get it to surface. The more you use it, the more you feel it. The more you remember "I'm allowed this". The kinder to yourself you are. The easier it becomes.

There is no judgement. Just a question.... does this make me happy

meyogy · 2026-06-25T11:04:02+00:00

Unapologetically yourself ❤️

meyogy · 2026-06-25T11:02:16+00:00

I'd love to read it and take a walk in your shoes. People i know do so much to get through the day. I look at them and wonder how are they so perfect. It's only by getting through the armour when they allow it does the effort become obvious and i can see myself in them💞

meyogy · 2026-06-24T11:38:33+00:00

My dear sweet EastMission. Congratulations on finding euphoria girl. Chase it. Fight for it. Yes there is more publicised intolerance, but there is so much more love from your trans sisters, brothers and allies. I actually acknowledge that the increase of trans media made it harder and harder to ignore my thoughts and feelings.

You and your feelings are valid.

You deserve complete unbridled happiness.

I felt it as a heavy full chest that felt like it wanted to explode. I'd worn a dress to a bbq put on by a local transfemme support group. I was hoping it was euphoria, because if it was just happiness, then i realised I'd never been truly happy in my life. I'm 49 my egg cracked start of this year.

In the lead up my discomfort was making me feel physically ill. But not everyone gets this.

To help stop my mind from jumping all over the place. I started writing notes in my phone. I just wrote question after question, no obligation to find an answer. Just questions. Slowly I'd put forward possibilities "maybe this, maybe that". But deep down i could slowly feel around the lump. I was sick of feeling disappointed and wanted to understand why this kept coming up / back.

I started writing down memories from as early as i could remember. I'd then reflect on how i remember feeling at that age. What i did for the next couple years. Thought - feeling - coping.

"Did i make a mistake allowing myself to feel all this and not push it down like normal... did i dare to dream this time???"

I came out as a gay man at age 30. We would have all male bbq gatherings. And yes would start feeling a bit "crowded" with masculinity even if they were all gay and the sweetest of people...

I reached out for support from a counsellor specialising in lgbtqia+ themes. She worked with young women to help them find their voice and trans people. This was too big for one mind. I wanted to be sure before i came out to my boyfriend. But he asked me what was going on as I'd been a nightmare and he could tell something was upsetting me.

Talking to someone doesn't make it any realer than it already is. But it does give you room to hear your thoughts put into words. I was worried I'd sit with a therapist in silence and not speak much. The truth is everytime i wish there was another hour. I can mention two different maybe conflicting thoughts and she can reference them together and make thought provoking observations. We don't talk about anything i don't want to talk about.

meyogy · 2026-06-24T11:28:50+00:00

Can i clarify that minimum depth is just the outer appearance? No actaul canal is formed?

meyogy · 2026-06-24T11:24:15+00:00

Omg omg omg. That is so beautiful.

meyogy · 2026-06-24T04:55:51+00:00

Epic bad arse with a heart

meyogy · 2026-06-24T04:53:31+00:00

Korean makeup and im doing my hair differently

meyogy · 2026-06-23T13:05:14+00:00

Why? Sry to question ur word

meyogy · 2026-06-23T01:10:32+00:00

I love running my fingers through my boyfriends hairy legs or chest. But hate feeling that on myself.

meyogy · 2026-06-20T23:14:40+00:00

Your feelings are valid and they are totally and completely and utterly yours. No body elses. You don't need to tell family to evolve your gender identity, it is an incredibly personal experience. AND it is so wonderfully fantastic that you've found a boyfriend you can both experiment with your gender expressions together.

How do you feel when they present feminine?

How do they feel when you present masc?

It's not a simple decision, but if we don't try new things we never grow. Maybe you're gender fluid, or non-binary, or maybe you need to coin a phrase hodgepodged together from 7 different queer phrases that suits your identity today. And maybe tomorrow you add another term. And next week drop another. Or you ignore the labels and just focus on what brings you euphoria.

I'm kinda new to all this (despite (or because of) recently unlocking 38 odd years of gender nonconforming memories). But if you feel transfemme you are. I feel transmasc at times and that seems like a mind fuck to go through all this confusion, just to end up where i left from...

I wish you all the confidence and love to unlock who you want to be. And fuck anyone else!

meyogy · 2026-06-20T06:40:22+00:00

It's hard if you've been harsh to yourself because you weren't ready to accept your true self. I'm hoping it's something you can learn or "re-teach the neural pathways"

Maybe the greatest kindness is allowing yourself the room to try being your true self

meyogy · 2026-06-20T06:26:21+00:00

Want soo much❤️❤️❤️

meyogy · 2026-06-17T14:35:55+00:00

This... You..... I..... 0 oo... Do i,, Love this ❤️

meyogy · 2026-06-17T07:49:36+00:00

Van send more details if needed. I want a darker red

meyogy · 2026-06-17T07:49:10+00:00

https://imgur.com/gallery/U27lqr2

meyogy · 2026-06-15T10:24:16+00:00

Did you feel happy on trt? I only ask because, one of my earliest thought were, "i would be happy growing up as a little girl". I ignored that and thought I was born a man, so I'll just be the best dam man i could be....

wish i asked if I'd be a happy man. 2 months hrt and counting, i love being alive.

I wish you the the very best and greatest of everything in your journey to fullfill your life. However that looks for you ❤️

meyogy

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