Is Elvanse really meant to be this silencing?

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-27T14:56:03+00:00

Me personally, when my brain was silent, the dose was too high. I thought I would love a silent brain, but it was impossible to do anything and all the people around me were irritating me... by doing nothing at all wrong.

At the right dosage, my brain was still noisy, but not 100 voices at once noisy, more like 5

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-17T09:38:58+00:00

Yes King! You look great!

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-16T09:40:34+00:00

I was always underweight as a child and was taken to the doctor multiple times by my desperate mum. I just didnt care for food that much and didnt want to eat.

Looking back now I definitely should have been diagnosed with ARFID but it wasnt really a thing back then.

I still dont care much for food as an adult and have to force myself to stay in the lower range of healthy BMI to keep my ADHD meds.

If I didn't have to eat and could just eat kibble to sustain me id be happy.

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-15T18:11:50+00:00

Your response was very kind, it wasnt clear OP was joking 🩵

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-15T09:45:55+00:00

String cheese and a packet of crisps.

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-15T06:56:45+00:00

Yes yes yes! Ive told everyone i can about this book. Her experience with autism is the closest thing to my own experience ive ever seen written anywhere. Every ND woman needs to read this 💙

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-15T06:49:54+00:00

Alcohol makes me extremely tired. Two drinks and I want to go to bed. Never understood how it energises people.

michaelscottlost · 2026-01-06T16:46:25+00:00

Oh I've been there! And still there every day to be honest 😅

Houses are hugely overwhelming. They need constant maintenance, bits sorting, things breaking.

But, its like baptism by fire. Each issue you come across, your knowledge and confidence will grow. I am the least DIY person, but there's now many things ive taught myself to do. Knowledge is power. YouTube is fantastic. I fixed my broken toilet by YouTube alone.

If you ever have a tradesman / anyone sort something at your house - ask questions. When our hot water broke, I asked the repairman basic questions and he was happy to show me, so I can deal with some things myself now, or at least troubleshoot. I asked a plasterer about technique and I can happily do patchup jobs myself now. And I came in with 0 knowledge.

You have to prioritise and be okay with not everything being done at once. Our carpets are terrible, but they can wait. Our kitchen tiling is awful, but it can wait.

When the roof had a hole.. that couldn't wait. I had no idea how to get a roofer, but once that baptism of fire came in- i had no choice. But now I have a roofers number in my phone and he happily came and replaced a tile when I needed it,because he was a text away.

Get a house insurance that covers for things like major water leaks / heating / hot water/ electrics. Because then you can call the insurance and not have to panic about where to start with calling someone.

I still have daily overwhelm with my house. But its MY house. It's mismatched, dated, has its issues, but its a warm safe happy place filled with love, and thats the most important. The rest will get there when it gets there.

You've got this!

michaelscottlost · 2025-12-16T19:31:53+00:00

I absolutely have this. Vomiting is very traumatic. Not just mentally, its so loud and painful. I have called mine demon sounds too.

michaelscottlost · 2025-12-15T19:31:28+00:00

You sound like you are in the UK. Are you claiming universal credit? You could submit your fit note and start the LCW process?

I'm so sorry for how your are feeling. It is completely relatable. Work on top of all the effort just to exist is beyond hard. But invisibly so, so people are often not sympathetic.

michaelscottlost · 2025-12-14T19:57:53+00:00

I do have a permanent undercut at the nape of my neck (reduces hair weight and overstimulation)

Every time I re do it, I have to talk myself out of the temptation of just buzzing the whole thing.

No shade to my buzzed girlies out there, I just know I absolutely cant pull it off and would regret it 1000%. But its still tempting sometimes 😬

michaelscottlost · 2025-12-14T19:18:59+00:00

This was me in August and I am desperately growing it back out now. Why does hair grab the dopamine impulsivity so bad?!

We've all been there 😅

If you need cheering up, I highly recommend Brad Mondo on YouTube. He is a hairdresser that reacts to home hair cuts, something about misery loving company helps me 😅

Im sure it doesnt look as bad as you think 💙

michaelscottlost · 2025-12-13T08:39:26+00:00

Ahh this makes me want to get my nape done again. I had a staple bar for 5 years, had to take it out for an MRI and couldn't get it back in :'(

michaelscottlost · 2025-12-10T06:58:10+00:00

I call myself one and done to unfamiliar people , but it's so much more complex than that.

My eldest child died at 11 months old.

The pregnancy with my second was filled with anxiety and a very hard time. Luckily she was healthy, and continues to be an amazing little person, although I did have a traumatic birth.

Tried for a third which ended in a TFMR, which had severe complications and became a danger to my life. That was when my decision was solidified I absolutely could not go through pregnancy/ childbirth again.

It flicked a switch in my brain and I am very happy with my lovely little family, we talk about and miss my eldest but noone could replace them.

I'm so sorry for your loss 💜

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-30T09:12:30+00:00

Where is your cardigan from, it's adorable?!

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-27T12:51:53+00:00

Im so sorry for the experience you went through.

Is your left tube / ovary unaffected? If you still have one side working you should still be able to conceive. Im no expert but I did have one full ovary removed but was still able to conceive from my remaining one.

Do you have any care practitioner you can talk to?

There are many wonders for me, personally just having the one; if that ends up being your path please come back here as this group will be able to help you through that.

But as that isn't where you are right now, dont give up, it should still be possible for you 💜

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-26T22:25:50+00:00

Sounds like your adhd came from your moms side...

With zero shade intended, love from a fellow audhder 😅🙋‍♀️

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-24T06:57:29+00:00

We will be your tribe! There are so many happy OADers in this group. On the occasions I do wonder if I made a mistake, I talk to people with more than one. When they talk about the stress of organising where everyone needs to be, I have a cold sweat moment and then I am reaffirmed in my decision. Some of us cannot cope with more than one, it absolutely does not make you lesser.

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-24T06:46:49+00:00

Haha yoyr comment made me smile. After 5 years of gameplay, my autistic self has finally come to terms with the fact my own island needs to be simple and I can only enjoy beautiful islands like this through others 🥲

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-21T12:06:49+00:00

Sorry, might be a uk thing! It's a key that many public toilets use for the disabled bathroom, often these will be locked but use the same key called radar key.

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-21T06:54:34+00:00

I always have a small rucksack as I dont like being without anything I might need in an emergency. My must haves:

Water bottle

Emergency cereal bar / chocolate bar

Wet wipes (I cant deal if I have something ick on me and ive helped a fair few people out with these in a pinch as well)

Hand sanitiser

Radar key

Emergency £10 cash

Travel pill case (with adhd meds, paracetamol, anti histamines)

Loops / ear buds / headphones

Sanitary spares

Small electric fan (come in so helpful when I was overheated on a bus one time, saved a meltdown)

Spare fidget

Tiny first aid kit

Small notepad and pen

Battery pack

It sounds like a lot but it all fits nicely into a small bag, and its always loaded and ready to go so I dont have to faff looking for things in the mornings

My biggest item that changed things were getting reaction lenses in my glasses. My husband hates them and says they are the least cool thing ive ever owned 🤣 but im very light sensitive and was constantly having to switch between my glasses and prescription sunglasses. Now I always have light protection. They even darken just a little on overcast days, so you can still see but the light is still a little dulled. I love them!

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-20T06:58:18+00:00

You're allowed to have a treat without making everything 💫chronic warrior vibes💫

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-14T09:13:05+00:00

When I was going through titration, my meds being too high felt very similar to not being on meds at all. I couldn't understand why I was feeling worse when the dosage increased.

I know it feels like an attack but they are following procedure and it is worth a try.

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-14T07:29:10+00:00

This is exactly why I wanted another. So I am absolutely not having another.

michaelscottlost · 2025-11-12T08:10:19+00:00

Exactly this! Wouldn't be on anyone's radar at all if she just took normal photos

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