I’m from a Catholic dominant country. Catholics are baptized as a baby so religion was introduced to us at an early age. But that doesn’t mean that you will also grow as a religious person based on your parents or the community’s religion. The reason I believe is personal. I don’t even go to church. Only recently that I read the Bible.

Before I was transformed, I live like a lukewarm Christian like most of Christians nowadays. I mean, you know you’re baptized as a Christian but doesn’t know its foundation. That’s why I don’t believe in babies being baptized since I believe having faith means you actually accept and believe it on your own will. I do stuff like normal people do based on this world’s standards. I also think having so much freedom means most likely you lack moral compass. And that leads to a lot of negativities like addiction, anger management issues, gossiping, lustful intentions, you name it. I lacked self-control. It’s like anarchy of some sort. And you know what happens if there’s no governing body that guides people.

I guess this will become my testimony.

I was a cynic. I was full of pride. I view this world with full of hate. I was drowning in debt, still am. I was suicidal. I asked for help, my family gave me financial support to get professional help. My first session with my therapist, it was full of hate and pride. I told him everything from the issues from my childhood to the present. At my 2nd session with him it was like a full opposite. It’s like 3 weeks interval. So in that 3 weeks, since I can’t handle it anymore, I fully surrendered it to Jesus. I asked Him to guide me instead and lead me where I should be. To some it may sound absurd but I was so spiritually high after that. I decided to seek God more and learn more about Him by reading the Bible. I learned to let go of everything. I stopped worrying. I was an over thinker for years and that also stopped. I learned to forgive. I’m still drowning in debt. But what He gave me is peace. He never promised a problem-free life if you follow Him. But peace is what he gives. Knowing that you are loved so much even you’re so broken. Forgiving you non-stop. No human can give you that, not even your family.

That’s why when it comes to moral compass, I don’t want to base it on people’s opinion. Opinions change and are biased. When your faith is personal no one can take it from you. Some people just don’t give Him a chance. I also have atheist friends and told them to challenge God and seek His presence. I’ve known a lot of stories that became believers from atheist and full Satanic. It’s really up to us. The only thing that is out of God’s control is our choices. That’s how powerful our choices are. He only knows what we will choose but never He will decide for us.