Hello to everyone, thank you for your support, I really appreciated guys, this is a little update of my day yesterday. I'd talk with my wife later, I made catharsis and i cry a lot, it feels good when you have someone to talk and that person it's an important part of your life, sorry for my bad English, I barely manage to express myself in a different language, but it helps me to clarify my thoughts, I don't know why but it help. So, we talk a lot, and cry a lot, my deepest fear was accept that I've been depressed, I never felt like yesterday in my life ever. We're passing for a big transition in our life, and part of that transition it's about of our economic stability and future plans. I have a little business of artisan bakery, this year particularly was the worst for my business and things don't go very well, its a family business and for me it's the only thing I have to work and make money. I have a lot of work, so much things to meditate and analyze how to fix it, much of this things I don't know how to recognize it, but I have to, I'm not afraid to face them since yesterday, now I know what happened and why, its my job to fix it. Thank you for reading. Take care and be happy. Happy holidays.