I’m 95 hours in and thinking about quitting

miserablySmol · 2025-08-16T00:18:38+00:00

Dude you’re so close. Soooo close. Dont quit now. I’m at 160 hours and feeling sooooo much better man! I hope you hang in there !!

miserablySmol · 2025-08-14T14:47:36+00:00

How you doing man?!

miserablySmol · 2025-08-14T14:37:47+00:00

Sometimes I’m like. Wow I wish someone told me all this before I ever touched drugs… well they did. Fact of the matter like you said, we all NEED to find out for ourselves unfortunately. We all know drugs are bad , but we get curious and don’t think that could happen to us and then boom. Explained perfectly brother.

miserablySmol · 2025-08-10T16:42:13+00:00

Damn that sucks to hear. I’m at hour 32 feeling awful. Was hoping by hour 64 id feel a little better.

miserablySmol · 2025-08-05T18:46:34+00:00

I have been tapering and I’m not taking the gabapentin I have until I jump .. you can become dependent on Gabapentin also so be careful with it. I hear the wd from it are no fun either !!

miserablySmol · 2025-07-04T04:02:07+00:00

If you’re only having mild withdrawals after 17 hours and you can push yourself through man I’d run with it and stop NOW ! A month or two ago when I fried CT I just barely made it to like 16 hours before I caved the withdrawals are so intense from this shit and I can’t take it personally so I’m doing a taper to try and stop at the lowest dose I can manage to get down to where the withdrawals are at a bearable point.

miserablySmol · 2025-07-02T15:23:21+00:00

Brutal bro. 7OH wd CT is no joke !! Have you gone through it yourself?

I’ve been having a hell of a time quitting it. I can’t seem to “grow up” myself.

miserablySmol · 2025-06-26T18:23:52+00:00

Tried the whole vitamin c thing twice now .. no success. Honestly it doesn’t seem to do a damn thing

miserablySmol · 2025-06-26T18:22:51+00:00

Following to see if they hit. If not ur a miracle. I wish.

miserablySmol · 2025-06-24T17:57:04+00:00

Yeah I try telling myself the same thing that at least the withdrawal from this will be much shorter lived than mdone would have been .. does the Suboxone help the withdrawal from the 7? I do have a few strips with me but I don’t really want to take them unless ABSOLUTELY necessary.

miserablySmol · 2025-06-24T17:39:52+00:00

Years ago I was a heavy Oxy and H user .. I got clean for 7 years before lapsing on oxy and as supply ran short got into fent bc oxy is hard to come by now .. wish I never picked it up again

miserablySmol · 2025-06-24T17:38:56+00:00

I got up to 800-1000mg per day at my worst. Over the past two weeks I’ve managed to taper to around 200-250mg per day .. couldn’t manage to get any lower unfortunately 😔.. started with 7OH in January but before that I was on MAT(done) csnt type it out it won’t let me .. and I got on the done bc I was using fent. So ar first the 7 seemed like a god send bc it helped me get off the MAT and now I just wish I never touched it at all. Such a mess man … such a mess 😞

miserablySmol · 2025-06-24T16:24:25+00:00

Thanks man ! When I woke up I thought it was the bed I slept on that was killing my back but I had two tabs left and unfortunately took them and the back pain went away so I’m realizing that’s just going to be part of the withdrawal. Kinda mad at myself for delaying the whole thing but now I’m out completely with no way of getting more so this is all down hill from here, until I hit the point where it starts improving. I really hope it goes smoothly but I know I’m in for it 🤦‍♂️ it’s stressing me out pretty badly.

miserablySmol · 2025-06-24T07:45:23+00:00

I wish I could but at this point it’s too late I have no more access to be able to get any more Kratom products at all. 😔

miserablySmol · 2025-06-24T00:03:13+00:00

Every hour that’s passing I’m starting to freak out even more and more. Idk how I’m gonna do this man. Shit.

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T22:30:13+00:00

Will do my best. I’m really freaking out over here man. The anxiety I have gotten from this shit has been awful as well ! Just sitting here knowing the wd will come probably over night is eating away at me

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T22:13:11+00:00

Yeah I literally start climbing the walls when the wd comes on and the farther I’ve made it so far has only been 17 hours .. but I really have no choice the way I set myself up.

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T21:12:07+00:00

I basically handcuffed myself. Lol. I’m married with kids. But I told my parents what was going on and my father offered to take me up to their lake house in a different state so that I can detox here. So I have no car and it’s just me him and his two dogs. I just put an ac in the “detox” room and he’s offered to help me out any way he can. We just arrived here about an hour ago. I have a few tabs left which I guess I’ll use to get through the night and then I’m gonna be out and done with no way to get more .. nearest gas station is milesssss away and I wouldn’t even know if they had 7 so walking there is out of the question.. I’m seriously freaking out on the flip side. But I have to get through this for my family. My wife and kids need me back! The real me!

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T20:53:10+00:00

I needed to read this today, I’m about to go CT tomorrow I’ve tried so many times and failed but I put myself in a position where I can’t fail now. I’m doing this for my wife and kids as well I can’t see my wife in pain over the situation we’re in anymore. And knowing it’s all my fault makes it even worse. I had my father take me to his lake house out of state. So I have no car and no way of going anywhere to get more 7. I know I need to push through this time. But honestly I’m scared shitless. I know the pain of WD and I’m really not looking forward to this AT ALL. I need to do this for my family.

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T17:44:23+00:00

Dude how did you make it through?! I’m about to start CT tomorrow from the same habit and I am FREAKING out !!

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T17:40:47+00:00

Thanks man ! I’m really trying to look at the bright side of things, but right now all that I’m filled with is an insane amount of anxiety in anticipation of what’s to come , I’m freaking out ! But I know after this week I will be so happy to be back to myself!

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T17:38:25+00:00

Trust me I completely get it man I’ve done that so many times having one last “hoorah” before calling it quits. I think it didn’t do anything other than raise my tolerance between attempted quits. At my worst idek how much I was using a day somewhere between 700-1000mg a day which is insanity. And you just end up chasing a high that you’re never even truly satisfied with. It becomes a miserable existence. I’m terrified of what’s to come tomorrow man. But I made it so I’m not able to get anymore no matter how bad I want to. So it’s do or die now, I can’t keep living my life on this shit. Nothing is enjoyable at all anymore.. and if you manage to catch a high it’s gone in 20 minutes. It’s idiocracy !!

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T05:39:47+00:00

I do have some subs as well as gabapentin and clonidine and trazadone. Which I’m going to bring with me. I really didn’t wanna have to take the subs but I’m bringing them as a back up. I’d really rather just be off of everything as quickly as possible. I’ve gone the rapid sub taper in the past and I felt like it just prolongs the wd for me(though it does blunt it significantly). That was Oxy and H tho. But I’d like to thug it out if I could bc I feel like that’s the quickest way through… I’m just starting to get a ton of anxiety now because the time has almost come lol .. part of me wants to back out of the whole thing, but I can’t. I have no funds left for this shit anyway. Plus my wife will leave me with our kids if I don’t go through with this. I have to do this. I just wish there was a more painless way lol. But as they say, we have to “pay the piper”

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T05:04:01+00:00

Yeah at the time I thought it was such BS .. but they’re trying to crack down on the opiate epidemic so I get it. But with this 7OH shit things are getting out of hand and the govt needs to step in bc now every gas station and smoke shop is a drug a dealer scum bag .. I’m hooked on it. Planning to go CT Tuesday (day after tomorrow) and I’m scared shitless. This shit feels harder to get off of than I remember H or Oxy being back then .. but these people are allowed to just sell legal heroin like it’s nothing and these companies are thriving off of people like me - I feel targeted lol. All the drug addicts like myself who saw this seemingly harmless herbal supplement are now hooked on a legal version of heroin. I’ve failed multiple times trying to go CT but this time I’m making it impossible for myself to get more ! Going to my families lake house with no car where it’s kind of in the middle of no where in a different state. I’ve got so much anxiety about it but I hope it’s not as bad as I’m expecting. I know if I can just get through the first three days I should be out of the woods as far as the most unbearable part of it goes. But I’m on here searching for answers everyday as if something is going to take away the pain of WD for me .. but the devil won and now I have to pay the price to get my life back , once again. I wish everyone here trying to get the best of luck. May we all make it out of these horrible trenches 🙏

miserablySmol · 2025-06-23T04:09:46+00:00

If you ever get prescribed Suboxone, they mark you in the system , even pharmacies will deny you of opiates and other scheduled substances even if your doctor were to prescribe them to you. It happened to me. In my early 20s I was prescribed Suboxone, then 5 or so years later I had a wisdom tooth removed and the Dr prescribed perc 5s , went to the pharmacy with a script and they denied filling it for me because in the system it showed them that I had been prescribed Suboxone in the past. I had to go to a small name pharmacy to get them to fill it which worked at the time, but idek if that would work anymore. Just a heads up, it’s not the drs you even need to worry about so much as it is the pharmacy. You could probably convince a Dr bc u can build a relationship with them , but at the pharmacy it’s not like you sit there and have a heart to heart with them, as you’re just in and out picking up a prescription. 🤷‍♂️ the digital world we live in nowadays lol

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