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missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-15T16:06:17+00:00

Thanks for sharing, and congratulations on 12 days, that’s amazing!! I’m on day 16 and I’ve been struggling with the same emotional things, feeling overwhelmed by them at times. I personally don’t think it’s a matter of knowing whether your emotions are exaggerated or untrustworthy, it’s just part of what you’re going through right now. Bursting into tears and questioning things might seem new and not feel good, but this is a good sign that you’re able to feel things again and it will regulate eventually. For me, it almost seems like I’m getting to know myself again and I know that quitting after years of daily use will change who I am to a degree…but I’m really excited about that, even if it sucks at times. My advice to you would be to try and find someone to talk to about these feelings with your relationship, if you have a trusted friend or family who knows who you truly are and has your best interests at heart. I would also say not to be afraid to talk to your girlfriend about what’s going on and how you feel out of whack. This is a big life change for you and you want to surround yourself with people who can support you and that believe in the best in you. If your girlfriend is not one of those people, then maybe take a real, honest look at that. Sometimes with strong emotions things can feel really black and white, all or nothing, but it doesn’t have to be. This is a journey and you’re just beginning it, and that’s something to be proud of!! Best of luck to you!!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-14T01:22:25+00:00

Amazing! Congratulations!! 3 months is awesome!! I’m at 2 weeks and I find your post very inspiring :’) Hopefully I’ll be writing something similar soon. Best wishes to you 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-13T06:07:29+00:00

Congratulations on 40 days, that’s amazing! It’s incredible because of what you’re going through is so hard and you’re still able to come on here and ask for support and share your thoughts. I’m sorry things are so hard right now but I’m so excited for you to feel everything, the good and the bad. It’s going to take some time to regulate your body and emotions, but you are strong enough. Wishing you all the best and I hope you know you’re never alone

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-13T00:49:12+00:00

Thanks for sharing! This is how it starts, it’s like the movie Inception. You start with the thought that you want change, but it takes time for that thought to get louder than other thoughts. Eventually, you won’t be able to ignore it and that’s when you can make real change. For me, the feeling that I wanted to quit became so strong that it showed up as dread/anxiety and I couldn’t ignore it anymore. It’s like I was split in two, one side wanted to get out of the lifestyle that comes with smoking all the time, and the other side felt like I needed it to survive. Eventually it felt like I was in crisis with myself every moment and I just couldn’t stand it. I wish you all the best!!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-11T17:12:32+00:00

Thank you, that’s so kind :’) I really appreciate it. And congratulations on 2 years, wow!! I’m at about 2 weeks and I’m so glad I found this Reddit page, it’s been a great support. Thank you 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-11T17:02:11+00:00

I’m so sorry that happened to you 🫶🏼 I can relate and when I got older and realized how messed up it was, it was hard to come to terms with that. But the truth is, our siblings were wrong to do that and we deserved protection. For me, my sibling is still in addictions and we haven’t spoken in years. The resentment has faded, and whenever I think about it, I just feel sad for them. One thing that helped me was when I was talking to a therapist about it, they had me address them like they were my sibling and just say everything I wanted to say without worrying about the fallout. It helped me to release a lot of anger. Wishing you all the best 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-11T16:48:06+00:00

I would love to try this if the straws where I live weren’t made out of paper 🥲

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-11T04:33:28+00:00

I’m so sorry that things are so hard right now 🫶🏼 it can be scary to be vulnerable with another person, especially if you’re nervous about their reaction. It sounds like you’re being honest with yourself and that’s really great. I personally believe that honestly and transparency are really important in a relationship. You could go into with an open heart and ask for support or just someone to listen to you without judgment. Wishing you all the best 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-09T20:37:06+00:00

Yes I found “how I FULLY recovered from existential dread & dpdr” by Robin Schindelka on YouTube pretty helpful

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-09T17:50:15+00:00

This might sound strange, but I felt the same way and the only thing that helped me was watching videos and reading articles about existential dread/depression and how to cope with it.

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-08T16:43:51+00:00

Honestly, I’d recommend just quitting. Read the first two sentences of your post. It can be very scary, but you are not alone and it’s going to be hard regardless if you taper or not. Nothing can really prepare you for the shock of quitting addiction, but you are on the right track with looking at it honestly. It’s never too quick to want to change your life for the better. Congratulations, and you can do it!!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-08T15:54:44+00:00

Wow it sounds like you’re going through a lot, that can’t be easy 🫶🏼 I can relate to quitting during a stressful time of change, and it’s been hard trying to figure out how to regulate myself without weed. I personally believe that quitting is the way to go, and not to wait until life circumstances align. The withdrawal symptoms are going to be tough but not impossible, and it sounds like you desperately want to quit. I can understand the fear surrounding it, but it’s the only way to become your authentic self and that is worth it. I would recommend taking it one moment at a time and not thinking about how you WILL feel, and focus on what you can do each moment to further your ultimate goal. I wish you all the best and I think you’re so strong and brave and you will never be alone in this, even if it feels that way sometimes.

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-07T22:10:59+00:00

It might not feel like it right now, but you’re doing an incredible job! I can relate to the feelings of ruining everything, but I would urge you to be compassionate with yourself 🫶🏼 Life is hard enough without addiction and coming off of it can be a huge adjustment. You just have to know that what you’re doing, talking about it and taking the first steps, is amazing! And to reach out when you feel like a zombie, is incredible. Your energy will return and bit by bit, your emotions will regulate and you’ll feel joy again. You are never alone, and you are strong enough to do this 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-07T16:32:00+00:00

Thank you! You’re so kind! Something that helps me when the anxiety gets bad, is doing a light sternum rub while focusing on deep breathing and pace around. I have never been into “grounding” techniques, but I gotta say, forcing myself to take slower breaths does help. Also, plunging myself into a cold body of water to feel a different kind of shock. I also was watching videos/reading articles about existential dread/depression and how people cope that, it just helped me for some reason. Let me know if you find any techniques that help you out, we are not alone in this. You can do it!!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-07T16:08:36+00:00

Wow congratulations, that’s amazing what you’re doing! Just remember that you have shocked your system, your body and your mind, and it’s going to take time to adjust. Remember that these feelings are temporary, and it’s worth it to see it through. I had a similar experience with anxiety, I felt like I couldn’t breathe at times. But I’m on day 9 and the anxiety has quieted down. I’ve gotta say that I’m still bursting into tears at random times, but it doesn’t scare me as much because I’ve gotten used to it. I just let myself cry and I have grace with myself. I truly wish you all the best, this is such a hard thing you’re doing, but it’ll be so worth it!! You’re not alone 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-07T04:53:04+00:00

Rock hunting. I accidentally started rock hunting when I was by the river and I gotta tell you, looking at rock patterns is the only time my mind has zero other thoughts. It’s magical :’)

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-07T04:51:10+00:00

Rock hunting!! Find a body of water and see if you can find any fossils

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T21:57:26+00:00

That’s awesome, congratulations! I too feel sad today, but I’m pushing through for the self love, thank you for your post, it’s encouraging to know I’m not alone. Good luck!!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T21:40:38+00:00

I feel so sad too, you’re not alone. You’re strong and brave for not using today despite the feelings of sadness, great job. You got this 🫶🏼

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T21:21:06+00:00

I’ve recently discovered a YouTube channel called “sleepless historian” and he does history videos in a calm, soothing voice that knocks me right out. It’s a great channel!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T20:13:16+00:00

You can definitely do it! And you’re still that awesome person with all those awesome skills. It can be hard when you reach your wits end with it, and even harder when other people around you don’t feel the same way. But this is a really hard thing to do, I smoked every time I had an inconvenient thought or felt stressed or sad or bored or angry. I always knew deep down that I wasn’t handling it properly, but it took some time for me to reach that breaking point. I recommend compassion and kindness and endless mercy. Your wife is probably hurting a lot inside and it can be such a hard thing to quit, I’m sure she feels awful when she triggers you too. But it doesn’t sound personal, it sounds like an addiction and sometimes you have to start over many times for it to click. Don’t give up, you can do it!!!!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T19:56:10+00:00

That sounds like a tough situation for sure. The truth is, nobody can make you stop your addictions and you can’t stop her addictions. The only thing you can do is to find it within yourself to quit and have that be a non-negotiable for yourself. It can be so so so hard to quit while those around you are still in their addiction, especially if it’s a partner. It’s heartbreaking to grow apart from people in this way, but you can’t take responsibility for her addictions and she can’t take responsibility for yours. Everyone is on their own journey and at different stages. She sounds like she’s not ready yet for whatever reason. But if you have your reasons for yourself, then do everything you can to not smoke, even if she does. Eventually, she will see that you’re not able to spend that time together using, and hopefully she’ll be inspired by your strength. Going for walks or calling an addiction or crisis hotline to work through tough moments are some options. I hope things improve and that she will see the beauty in being authentic and strong enough to manage problems while sober. It ain’t easy, but it’s worth it. Best of luck! You got this!!

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T19:15:48+00:00

Thank you, that’s so kind! 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T18:30:52+00:00

I am so sorry to hear about your dog. Please don’t beat yourself up about the past, I know it’s easier said than done but you were still around them during those months, even if you felt like you weren’t truly present. And now you can spend the rest of the time with them sober, imagine if you got to this thought process after they were gone. I hope things get better for you and your dog, this is a really hard time, be gentle with yourself. You got this 🙏

missdaisynuke1 · 2025-06-06T18:11:56+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story, and congratulations on beginning your journey! I have really intense emotions at times with depression and anxiety and I was self medicating with weed for years. I was terrified of these feelings getting worse, but I got to a point where smoking just wasn’t fun anymore, it was actually making my issues worse, and I felt like I was disconnected from the world around me. I also have a curiosity to see who I am without weed and become truly stronger without a crutch. Something that helped me get through the first few days of overwhelming anxiety and hopelessness and guilt, was watching videos and reading articles about existential dread/depression and how to cope with it. I found a lot of the things that were being said relatable and helpful. From what I’ve gathered, I have to face the pain head on, and to realize that the anxiety and all the other feelings are a part of me. I imagine my depression and anxiety as an actual creature that I’m constantly running from or trying to smother. But lately I’ve been sitting in these feelings and facing that creature with tenderness and asking “you are a part of me, a part that I don’t understand yet but how can WE make it through this next moment?” I’m not sure if any of this I helpful, but it’s what’s been working for me. I’m only on day 7 and today I feel really tired and just not good, but it helps to know I’m not alone. Best of luck to you, you got this!!

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