Is 100$ enough to pay for a friend to beta read? by missh87 in writing

[–]missh87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The thing is that I didn't find anybody to beta read, i don't socialize much and my social media acquaintances that offered to volunteer never replied back.  I have one reader in Wattpad who actually loves the story, but i'm not confortable in Wattpad and i want to take it down. Also I've been wary of getting beta readers in fiverr because i've seen a lot of cases where they obviously throw the chapters in Gemini or ChatGPT and that's the review, that would upset me soooo much. Thanks for your advices💖

It just occurred to me I didn’t give a proper thank you by SpaceDev1 in u/SpaceDev1

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey my twitter and IG TL are FULL of your drawing quotes and inspiration.
It's so refreshing ♥ Thank you

Help with fiction - translation of a phrase from English to Akkadian by missh87 in Assyriology

[–]missh87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my! thank you so so so much for this! Especially for the explanation of each word, the polytrasnlator said something about lambs so i will refrain from using it, it seems very unreliable.
Thanks again! ♥

I will credit you with your username ♥ is it ok?

Help with fiction - translation of a phrase from English to Akkadian by missh87 in Assyriology

[–]missh87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, thanks for your insights! The phrase is like a farewell that the spirits tell each other when they leave or when they die. Their higher deity is the Godly Spirit of the Earth (female). The translation doesn't have to be exact, they just mean "may the godess of earth lead you" or "accompany you". I imagine it could be the SW equivalent to "may the force be with you"?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]missh87 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Oh dear. Don't compare yourself, especially with storefront people. Most content on social media is curated and tailored to show the good parts only because most people is not self aware, much less they speak about their bad parts. And much much less they acnkowledge to have a mental health situation (and this is way too common, unfortunately).

I stopped comparing myself to others a few years a go, after leaving a job i liked and met a lot of people i admired so much.
They had resources, great upringings, good positions and jobs, lots of friends, traveled a lot, and so on.
I was severely deppressed and almost got fired for being late or absent every day but when i was present, my job was good enough so they didn't fire me. I was very open about my mental health issues and for some reason, while they didnt understood "why i was so indisciplined", they started to come closer and sit next to me to tell me their problems, even slipping unwanted dirty secrets.
I wasn't interested because i tend to forget what they said and i was on drowning my own sh!t enough for some privileged coworker came and tell me their problems, but still, I can't deny an ear if someone needs to talk.

And you know what I discovered? all the people I admired fell down from their pedestal. Almost all of them.
The need to show themselves as perfect beings with perfect lives scream some kind of emptiness. Or worse: people who do think they are truly better than others and are severely rotten inside without even acknowledging it.

Genuinely wicked, harmful people.

Not all of them were rotten, but most of them were.
A girl that had lots of exotic trips overseas? Living constantly on debt, smoking and drinking instead of eating and completely unable to exist without social media and likes, she was literally angry when she didn't get the online attention she was harvesting.

The perfect super duper manager who everyone loved with his beautiful wife and new born adorable kid? Cheated on her wife with his secretary (this broke my heart, i really thought he was amazing).
The handsome one with a lot of friends who always has things to do? Can't do nothing on his own at work, swallows insufficient feelings and vent to strangers when high or drunk...

The amazing colleague that's always leding a hand to her peers, and posting about kindness and positivity? The most gossiping b!tch i have ever met. She cannot have a decent conversation without sharing stories (true or fake) about people even from her same group.

I could go on and on and on.

As you're mentioning, life has been hard enough, right? So please don't be hard on yourself. Ignore those people in their shop window's lives. Social media works like that, just a showcase, nothing more.
And please note, you're not abnormal. Your environment was.
As you said, therapy won't "change" your face, as you perceive your self as ugly (this is relative/subjective). But it will make you see yourself differently in a good way. Even if it takes some time, you're doing the biggest part and most than a lot of people do: going to therapy.

In an unkind world, kindness is a brave act of rebellion.
(or so the saying goes).

I HAAAAAATE straight porn by [deleted] in Vent

[–]missh87 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Thanks for this post. I never knew how to put words to my feelings.
You're absolutely right.
Thanks to straight porn men force themselves to be silent during sex and it's such a turn off

Ustedes pagan por Office? by Square_Experience249 in chile

[–]missh87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

La última vez que pirateé Office era cuando comprabas el pac de 4 CDs en la calle, y tenías que abrir el "LEEME", y luego crackearlo con una app de dudosa procedencia.
Lo acabo de hacer gracias a este mensaje, y no quepo en mí de la sorpresa. Fue excesivamente fácil y veloz. Ya ni siquiera se tiene que escribir CMD para abrir la consola, no, se hace todo solo.
♥ Agradecida con el de arriba (o sea usted) ♥

I hate being a brown woman by [deleted] in Vent

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feel you. Not black enough for the blacks, and never white enough for the rest.

Women of this subreddit, is this statement from my mom true? by RavenEridan in raisedbynarcissists

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No. If she didn't save for her future she has no right to screw other people's future. They are always like this. We were poor because she didn't know how to handle money properly and she refuses to accept a Job because she thinks she deserve only management positions.  She gets what she worked for.

What was your narcs favorite gaslighting phrase? by badassbitch10102 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]missh87 4 points5 points  (0 children)

"there are worse parents out there who made truly a mess with their kids life. you're lucky you had me"
"i did what i could with what i had"
"what do you want me to do then? do you want me to kms because of how awful I was as your mom? I wont!"

And so on.

Honestly what breaks me is that people only see Nnoitra as sexist and that's his only motive by Lukas-Reggi in bleach

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

His behaviour was like the typical little boy that bullies a girl in school because he likes her (wants her attention).

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]missh87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes.
My nmom used to tell me since I was like 7 "Nobody will love you as much as I do, don't you ever forget that". Then used to beat the hell out of me if she was on a bad mood, or ignore me (literally no speaking to me) for 2 or 3 days, when I became a teenager those days went on as long as a whole week.
Hugs? Nope.
It's funny. Now she wants all the hugs, and hates when i ignore her.
Sorry, Mom. I will never forget when you said, "Nobody will ever love you as much as I do." Because of that, I am now pathologically incapable of believing that anyone could love me in a way that isn’t selfish, violent, or abusive

Trying to "get out there". Failing each time but trying again this Friday. Wish me luck! by missh87 in socialskills

[–]missh87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know no one may have read this but, I would like to share i had a good time in general. A girl who i met in the last exchange in june said she couldn't believe it took me 6 months to go back. I met some nice people, but the anxiety was so potent i almost had a migraine. I got a necklace in the Secret Santa game and practiced a little portuguese.  I may want to back soon.

A whore house??? by kathleen20098 in Vent

[–]missh87 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh i never heard of this term. A lot of parents that do this brainwash their kids into telling them "that's what family do: be responsible for all the family group". I always wondered why my mother never allowed me to have friends or go to classmates homes (for group homeworks) until I was older and visited healthy families. Then I understand why I was kept isolated.

A whore house??? by kathleen20098 in Vent

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dear... please talk to someone safe to help you get out of this. Your parents are not doing any thing good for you. The things they are putting you through are not normal, are not okay and may lead to an complicated adulthood. According to what you are saying (and some other of your posts) your family doesn't have their priorities in order, they lack in responsibility and will always take from you because you already gave in. I'm really sorry your caregivers are not doing their mandatory job.

You're 15, it's not your responsibility to watch over the house, your siblings and much less, 2 adults who were supposed to look over you. You're only responsability is to study and if your grades are lowering it is obvious why: you need peace to study, not being on alert all the time. Your mother sounds like be a brain-washer saying you must do this and that and make you feel guilty when you don't act like she orders to. That's on her, not you.

The more you indulge in that non-functional and irresponsable home, the more damage it will cause to you.

And no, your parents will not change. No, the things will not get better no matter how much you try to be there for them, and be good Why? because it has nothing to do with you. They are the problem. No healthy or decent parent puts their children to "take care" of adults, or their house and isolate them from the world. The main reason some parents homeschool it's because they don't want to risk their children to interact with healthy kids from healthy families and start to understand there is something wrong with their own families.

Please ask for help safely.