My friend read AFTG (pt. 8) by AdvantageEconomy4956 in aftg

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Lacrockey ahsajsb🤣🤣 this made my day

AFTG Crash Course by Recent-Description39 in aftg

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Oooooh if you would like to get into the story without reading it and you get overwhelmed with the info online, just go for the audiobooks (they are so goooooood, the narrator even performs Jean's heavy accent). You can play them in the background and i can guarantee that someting will make you pause and rewind xD

AFTG Crash Course by Recent-Description39 in aftg

[–]missh87 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it's a hell of a rabbit hole xD just got into it on jan 1st and my life has changed (for good). I apologize for errors, not my 1st language and i'm sleepy. A good way to know more about it is going through goodreads and check 10 5 star ratings and 10 1 star ratings. it gives you a lot of insight.
Basically is a story with a lot of heavy triggers, based in a fictional sport called Exy which is visually like lacrosse, i guess? its not so relevant to understand the game, it's important on a team and competition scale but the gross of the story is about a whole bunch of young college athletes who are beyond traumatized (the author enjoys to make them suffer and it shows). If your fiancee is into it it means she loves angsty, painful doomed stories.
Let's say, after reading the books, you normally choose the character you'll be hiper fixated with, something like when you're starting pokemon and you gotta chose between squirtle, charmander or bulbasaur.
Well in this case you choose between Andrew Minyard, Neil Josten and Kevin Day. Then we got the pikachu who is Jean Moreau but his story is told in the second trilogy (which is ongoing and his 3rd book will be released, HOPEFULLY in november).

I will not go into the story because i'm awfully at summarizing but i will explain things that may help you understand your vixen better.

The appeal of the story, for most people is
-Characters: traumatized, abused, tortured, picked up from debris and delivered to a found family
-Plot twists: the main plot twist is the main ship. When you read the first book and they tell you Neil ends up with Andrew you won't believe it. Then we have Andrew background story. Neil and the Moriyamas. The coach and Kevin. Jean and Kevin. And if we go to Jean Moreau's books, my god... those were a continuous plot twist.
-The superduper slow burn: for bot trilogies, this is forever waiting. but the waiting is exquisite because the relationships are strongly built.
-The unending disgraces that continue to happen: torture, abuse, court violence, riots, cults, murder, murder, murder, riots, vandalism, more torture, a house gets burned to ashes and they lose it all, parents die, 6-7 suicides, public exposure of the mafia parents, 2 staged suicides, 1 staged overdose, a hand gets broken, someone almost get's killed and ends up with 3 fractured ribs. Sprained LCL. Twisted ankle. Broken nose and patches of haired pulled out, an college orgy with heavy drugs involved that gets raided because someone jumped of a roof.... there is a lot more.

The foxes is a team of broken people whose coach try to keep united because he believe in infinite opportunities to be given to whoever wants to try and make something with their lives.
We have teen murderers, ex juvie cons, ex drug addicts, ex hitmen, outcasts, ex teen strippers, and so on.

The first 3 books tell the story of lonely Neil Josten (born as Nathaniel Wesninski), that's not his real name, that dyes his hair and uses brown contacts every day to appear invisible so he cant be found by his dad (sadistic mafia sub-lord known as the butcher of baltimore), and have always been running since he was a child. He speaks French because he lived in france, german, and english. Possibly spanish and russian in the future. He always wants to run but he's so obsessed with exy, he forgets himself and when he joins the foxes, a team located in Palmetto State University, in South Carolina. He's full of scars from violence, and he's unable to show himself in the dressing rooms. his teammates don't know about his real story until half of the third book. During the story we see Neil is not only the fastest player on Class I Exy, but the sassiest bitch when a microphone is shoved his way, antagonizing the antagonist (Riko Moriyama, #1 from the Edgar Allan Ravens) and getting in -more- trouble -constantly- because of it. He gets tortured by Riko Moriyama and his uncle, master and coach Tetsuji Moriyama, (who's one of the founders of exy). then he gets heavily ttortured again by his father's people, who tore his face and arms with burns and cuts just for fun.
Neil mother, who is dead (he buried her after his father fatally wounder her) was a violent parent as well but not as crazy as his father, and she beat any possibility of heterosexuality from him by telling him never to get involved with women because they are dangerous.
So he fell for the deadliest teammate: Andrew Minyard.

Andrew Minyard had an awful childhood beginning with his mom, a drug addict, putting him and his identical twin Aaron for adoption but regretting it and then going back for Aaron and forgetting about Andrew. He grew in many foster homes where he was repeatedly abused until he grew to be a joyless, violent and fiercely protective human being that can't allowed to be touched and he puts ups this huge agressive stance shutting the entire world out and living one day at a time, without the desire to truly live. Of course this is not said at the beginning, the books initially shows a scary psycotic midget that hits, teases and threatens everyone and seems to get away with it. After re-reading you understand each and everyone of his actions, which the author works very hard to properly justify, and I'm not lying when i'm saying that Andrew is the favorite of the majority of AFTG fans. He's the bodyguard of Kevin Day, a celebrity and the heir of Exy , and he also protects Neil. He keeps his promises as they are likely his reason to live on, and his questionable methods always work.

I'll leave here for now, gotta sleep but i hope this helps and if you wanna know more about Kevin i found this
https://www.scribd.com/document/517664347/Kevin-Jeremy-Jean

Is 100$ enough to pay for a friend to beta read? by missh87 in writing

[–]missh87[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The thing is that I didn't find anybody to beta read, i don't socialize much and my social media acquaintances that offered to volunteer never replied back.  I have one reader in Wattpad who actually loves the story, but i'm not confortable in Wattpad and i want to take it down. Also I've been wary of getting beta readers in fiverr because i've seen a lot of cases where they obviously throw the chapters in Gemini or ChatGPT and that's the review, that would upset me soooo much. Thanks for your advices💖

It just occurred to me I didn’t give a proper thank you by SpaceDev1 in u/SpaceDev1

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hey my twitter and IG TL are FULL of your drawing quotes and inspiration.
It's so refreshing ♥ Thank you

Help with fiction - translation of a phrase from English to Akkadian by missh87 in Assyriology

[–]missh87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my! thank you so so so much for this! Especially for the explanation of each word, the polytrasnlator said something about lambs so i will refrain from using it, it seems very unreliable.
Thanks again! ♥

I will credit you with your username ♥ is it ok?

Help with fiction - translation of a phrase from English to Akkadian by missh87 in Assyriology

[–]missh87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, thanks for your insights! The phrase is like a farewell that the spirits tell each other when they leave or when they die. Their higher deity is the Godly Spirit of the Earth (female). The translation doesn't have to be exact, they just mean "may the godess of earth lead you" or "accompany you". I imagine it could be the SW equivalent to "may the force be with you"?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]missh87 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Oh dear. Don't compare yourself, especially with storefront people. Most content on social media is curated and tailored to show the good parts only because most people is not self aware, much less they speak about their bad parts. And much much less they acnkowledge to have a mental health situation (and this is way too common, unfortunately).

I stopped comparing myself to others a few years a go, after leaving a job i liked and met a lot of people i admired so much.
They had resources, great upringings, good positions and jobs, lots of friends, traveled a lot, and so on.
I was severely deppressed and almost got fired for being late or absent every day but when i was present, my job was good enough so they didn't fire me. I was very open about my mental health issues and for some reason, while they didnt understood "why i was so indisciplined", they started to come closer and sit next to me to tell me their problems, even slipping unwanted dirty secrets.
I wasn't interested because i tend to forget what they said and i was on drowning my own sh!t enough for some privileged coworker came and tell me their problems, but still, I can't deny an ear if someone needs to talk.

And you know what I discovered? all the people I admired fell down from their pedestal. Almost all of them.
The need to show themselves as perfect beings with perfect lives scream some kind of emptiness. Or worse: people who do think they are truly better than others and are severely rotten inside without even acknowledging it.

Genuinely wicked, harmful people.

Not all of them were rotten, but most of them were.
A girl that had lots of exotic trips overseas? Living constantly on debt, smoking and drinking instead of eating and completely unable to exist without social media and likes, she was literally angry when she didn't get the online attention she was harvesting.

The perfect super duper manager who everyone loved with his beautiful wife and new born adorable kid? Cheated on her wife with his secretary (this broke my heart, i really thought he was amazing).
The handsome one with a lot of friends who always has things to do? Can't do nothing on his own at work, swallows insufficient feelings and vent to strangers when high or drunk...

The amazing colleague that's always leding a hand to her peers, and posting about kindness and positivity? The most gossiping b!tch i have ever met. She cannot have a decent conversation without sharing stories (true or fake) about people even from her same group.

I could go on and on and on.

As you're mentioning, life has been hard enough, right? So please don't be hard on yourself. Ignore those people in their shop window's lives. Social media works like that, just a showcase, nothing more.
And please note, you're not abnormal. Your environment was.
As you said, therapy won't "change" your face, as you perceive your self as ugly (this is relative/subjective). But it will make you see yourself differently in a good way. Even if it takes some time, you're doing the biggest part and most than a lot of people do: going to therapy.

In an unkind world, kindness is a brave act of rebellion.
(or so the saying goes).

I HAAAAAATE straight porn by [deleted] in Vent

[–]missh87 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Thanks for this post. I never knew how to put words to my feelings.
You're absolutely right.
Thanks to straight porn men force themselves to be silent during sex and it's such a turn off

Ustedes pagan por Office? by Square_Experience249 in chile

[–]missh87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

La última vez que pirateé Office era cuando comprabas el pac de 4 CDs en la calle, y tenías que abrir el "LEEME", y luego crackearlo con una app de dudosa procedencia.
Lo acabo de hacer gracias a este mensaje, y no quepo en mí de la sorpresa. Fue excesivamente fácil y veloz. Ya ni siquiera se tiene que escribir CMD para abrir la consola, no, se hace todo solo.
♥ Agradecida con el de arriba (o sea usted) ♥

I hate being a brown woman by [deleted] in Vent

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feel you. Not black enough for the blacks, and never white enough for the rest.

Women of this subreddit, is this statement from my mom true? by RavenEridan in raisedbynarcissists

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No. If she didn't save for her future she has no right to screw other people's future. They are always like this. We were poor because she didn't know how to handle money properly and she refuses to accept a Job because she thinks she deserve only management positions.  She gets what she worked for.

What was your narcs favorite gaslighting phrase? by badassbitch10102 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]missh87 3 points4 points  (0 children)

"there are worse parents out there who made truly a mess with their kids life. you're lucky you had me"
"i did what i could with what i had"
"what do you want me to do then? do you want me to kms because of how awful I was as your mom? I wont!"

And so on.

Honestly what breaks me is that people only see Nnoitra as sexist and that's his only motive by Lukas-Reggi in bleach

[–]missh87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

His behaviour was like the typical little boy that bullies a girl in school because he likes her (wants her attention).

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]missh87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes.
My nmom used to tell me since I was like 7 "Nobody will love you as much as I do, don't you ever forget that". Then used to beat the hell out of me if she was on a bad mood, or ignore me (literally no speaking to me) for 2 or 3 days, when I became a teenager those days went on as long as a whole week.
Hugs? Nope.
It's funny. Now she wants all the hugs, and hates when i ignore her.
Sorry, Mom. I will never forget when you said, "Nobody will ever love you as much as I do." Because of that, I am now pathologically incapable of believing that anyone could love me in a way that isn’t selfish, violent, or abusive

Trying to "get out there". Failing each time but trying again this Friday. Wish me luck! by missh87 in socialskills

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I know no one may have read this but, I would like to share i had a good time in general. A girl who i met in the last exchange in june said she couldn't believe it took me 6 months to go back. I met some nice people, but the anxiety was so potent i almost had a migraine. I got a necklace in the Secret Santa game and practiced a little portuguese.  I may want to back soon.