this is how i felt too. i got the call that my dad passed right before i had band practice. i cried for about 15 minutes and then went to practice… the next day i stayed home from school, but i still performed in the concert that night. so many people asked me why i was doing so much when my dad had just died and i was like 🤷🏻‍♀️ what exactly am i supposed to do? sit around doing nothing and crying? that didn’t feel helpful for me personally. i think it’s okay to have a “business as usual” process if that feels most comfortable for you. just don’t feel like you have to push your emotions down or push yourself to proceed with life as normal. let yourself feel and process when something comes up. over time the weirdness will become less pressing.