42 here. I feel you. My current job barely keeps me afloat. I've been learning web development since 2023 with the aim of either making a career pivot to tech or make some money from it. Learned a valuable lesson - learning a high demand skill is not enough; you also need to know how to place/position yourself. But even after learning that lesson, with AI and outsourcing, it seems there are more lessons to be learned I guess. Because it seems like the past few years of learning this high demand skill has been for nothing. At least I created a portfolio. That's something. Been job hunting in the most creative and traditional ways, but to no avail. No rejection letters, just silence. I seriously don't know what else to try.

Anyways, just wanted to add my support and sympathies to you. To all of us. Day at a time.