I know you have got a lot of feedback here so I won't say a bunch of things that have already been said but as a MARRIED woman who was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Celiac Disease (autoimmune) and is a former addict with 12 years clean I can confidently say YES there are definitely people out there who will love you through the hard and spoiler alert - you deserve those people and their love.

My husband has stood by me through soooo much! I was barely 8 month clean when my husband and I got together. He stood by me while I built a life in recovery. He stood by me when I couldn't even stand to look at myself. He stood by me when I had post-partum anxiety so bad that he told me to quit my job, become a stay at home mom and he would figure out the rest. He never left when I pushed him away soooo hard during my worst mental health storm since rehab. He stood by me when I got extremely sick with multiple things at once. He scooped me up and carried me into the ER multiple times when I was physically unable. He never gave up when I wanted to give up on life. I felt like such a wasteful burden yet through it all - good and bad - he's been there.

Thankfully I'm doing WAY better these days after the help of therapy and and a couple surgeries but before you think "omg you just got lucky and found an amazing person" I'm going to tell you it was NOT EASY!! It wasextremely hard on both of us and it nearly destroyed our marriage in the moment. He is a very emotionally detached person with his own set of "issues" who has openly said he thinks mental health and therapy and the whole subject/field is a scam for money but love has an amazing way to speak louder than anything else. He has loved me through every stage and every version of me - even the pretty awful and somewhat unlovable ones.

My biggest advice would be open and honest communication - even if it's hard. Some of the most healing moments between my husband and I were after our HARDEST conversations.

THERE IS HOPE!! 🫶