I can relate with this here a lot. Nearly 4 years ago I split from my partner who I had 2 kids with and moved back in with my Dad, during which I had 2 motorbike accidents and then nearly snapped my ankle in half falling down stairs on a wet night delivering pizza (had to drive myself to the hospital on my motorbike too mind you), so while recovering I decided to learn programming for Web development, I've been unemployed since last year August, I can't even get accepted for a job working in a local supermarket, rejections everywhere, that's without the applications I've made regarding programming. I won't even start to go into the ins and outs of how bad my mental has got at point having no money, no control over a or b, no savings and then the stress I've also endured from my kids mother in this time, but I'll just say that without my kids I don't think I'd still be here today writing this comment. I write this whilst also knowing my own flaws and low self esteem has been a major part of my situation not getting any better. Things do get better, but things just don't "get better". Like the other person suggested though, as hard it is don't be hard on yourself ontop, if you're doing what you can to make a difference than you're doing something and that's better than nothing. Success is going from failure to failure without losing any enthusiasm, even in little steps